yes!! it's another sunshine after the rain.. even though everytime we quarrel i will be preparing myself for the worst. I'll keep thinking how will i react if we really break or wat so ever. But, Luckily he never ever let all those thoughts become reality. YES!!! He loves me!!
today we went for the Qian Hu fish Exhibition!! COOOOL!! but quite disappointed in a way as i dont see much breed mainly red aro and cross back. Dont really have much different colours that dar showed me like those electric blue etc. Ya. But, did see really nice ones. The colours are so obvious and distinct. WOW.
then we walk about and saw a very funny looking fish!!!! It has got 3 strips at each side of the body red blue red. The CUTEST thing is that it has LIPSTICK on the LIPS!!! hahaa.. looks so fake but is real!!wow~~~ after which we went to lot 1 to shop!!!
went to fond!! the shop i love alot coz of the unique clothing they have!! AND darling bought one top for me!!! nice nice!! i love it!!! got to be my xmas top!! must fast fast slim down get the bottom den PERFECT! kekee...
ai ni yi wan nian!!!!!
Friday, December 01, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
=|| tRuSt ||=
It is important to have trust in a relationship. Yet, it is difficult for one, especially the female, to trust the other party fully. The more you love the person, the more you wouldnt want to find out that they person betray your trust. Even if the person is with you 24/7. Being a selfish me, I would want him to be both mentally and physically mine! I wonder if that is too much, but I just couldnt get myself to not want that. He is a very fun loving person. He has his past. We both grow up in a very different environment.
He used to smoke, club alot, pubbing, etc. He enjoy his life with no restriction being very open minded and make friends from all walks of life. He is living in the Fun side of life. For me? I'm brought up in a conservative family where very concern about moral values. I've curfew as early as 7pm. No clubbing, pubbing, drinking, and dont even talk abt smoking. Hence, we have a very big hurdle to get over in our relationship that is our mentallity differences.
Firstly, he used to go clubbing and pubbing alot. Have lots of friends there. A place where i know nuts about. After i'm with him, i keep asking him to bring me to club one day. I want to see and want to know his way of living. He keep refusing saying that it is not the kind of place for me. Telling me i wont like it. I know only by that then i might be able to know more of his friends and get into his life. But i was being rejected. I didnt tell him my real reason for wanting to go. Just say I just want to go and have fun, to see what's in there that attracted so many people. Then we finally went, but just with my friends. Only one is his. When he talk to his friends, went smoking outside, he didnt bring me along. I can understand as it is a GUY thing. So i just sit there and be a crazy self playing around with my friends. To my surprise, i didnt hate the place as much as i thought i will. In fact, i find that it is a good place to let out all unhappiness in me. WHY? The music is loud enough that i can shout all i want and no one will bother.
Though, he had brought me to club, to pub, Yet i still dont seems to know the real him. Maybe i think too much. Yet, to him, i am transparent, my emotion is always on my face, my friends, everything of me he will know. However, to me, he is still a mystery that i've yet to solve it. Indeed, i know his temper, his preference, his family and some of his friends. Yet, I still feels that I have him in my world, I know only the him in my world. I dont know the him in his world.
At times, i really have the thought that one day, i'll go to club and pubs alone. Befriend with those type that will visit the place often and understand their life. Knowing: "Why flirting is a norm to them?", "Why having a gf is not enough to make them happy that they still would like to play around with other girls even though it is not serious affair.", "Why to them certain words like "darling", "dear", are just so insignificant that they can call any Tom Dick and Harry that.".
I am not saying that having a friend of different gender is a NO nO. Just that, I want to see a clear line drawn. Am I being too demanding? Sometimes i really hope that i am not that soft hearted. I just want to know if really i quarrel with him regarding those problems and i suggested a break up, will he just leave my world because he feels that he cant fit in, or will he want me back. Sometimes, I really dont feel that he needs me. Maybe i just want too much. Maybe i am not giving him enough space to breath.
I always know that privacy is needed even in a relationship. Yet, i just feel that since i can be so transparent to you about every thing in my life everything that happens to me. Being so open that you can take my phone browse through all my msg and i wont say a thing. You can even call anyone in it. Yet, you are just so afraid. Why i dont trust you? Because of all this actions that you showing. All this gives me a very unsafe feeling. You said it is your privacy. But i just cant help it and let my imagination run wild thinking of all the why why and more whys.
HOW?? I dont know... I dont know........ All i can is try to use the love i have for you to keep telling myself our difference and accept you rules, your way of living. I will try, but i really cant promise that things like that day wont happen again. Though i still dont see a reason why it is my fault totally, Why you dont protect me and confront her when she said stuff otherwise? why all faults lies in me, I'll still try to figure it out and try to control myself and make sure such things wont ever happened again.
PS: Darling, actually i suppose to leave you this time round. Because i promised that if this thing happens again, i'll leave without asking for mercy. If you wan that, let me know. I'll do as promised.
He used to smoke, club alot, pubbing, etc. He enjoy his life with no restriction being very open minded and make friends from all walks of life. He is living in the Fun side of life. For me? I'm brought up in a conservative family where very concern about moral values. I've curfew as early as 7pm. No clubbing, pubbing, drinking, and dont even talk abt smoking. Hence, we have a very big hurdle to get over in our relationship that is our mentallity differences.
Firstly, he used to go clubbing and pubbing alot. Have lots of friends there. A place where i know nuts about. After i'm with him, i keep asking him to bring me to club one day. I want to see and want to know his way of living. He keep refusing saying that it is not the kind of place for me. Telling me i wont like it. I know only by that then i might be able to know more of his friends and get into his life. But i was being rejected. I didnt tell him my real reason for wanting to go. Just say I just want to go and have fun, to see what's in there that attracted so many people. Then we finally went, but just with my friends. Only one is his. When he talk to his friends, went smoking outside, he didnt bring me along. I can understand as it is a GUY thing. So i just sit there and be a crazy self playing around with my friends. To my surprise, i didnt hate the place as much as i thought i will. In fact, i find that it is a good place to let out all unhappiness in me. WHY? The music is loud enough that i can shout all i want and no one will bother.
Though, he had brought me to club, to pub, Yet i still dont seems to know the real him. Maybe i think too much. Yet, to him, i am transparent, my emotion is always on my face, my friends, everything of me he will know. However, to me, he is still a mystery that i've yet to solve it. Indeed, i know his temper, his preference, his family and some of his friends. Yet, I still feels that I have him in my world, I know only the him in my world. I dont know the him in his world.
At times, i really have the thought that one day, i'll go to club and pubs alone. Befriend with those type that will visit the place often and understand their life. Knowing: "Why flirting is a norm to them?", "Why having a gf is not enough to make them happy that they still would like to play around with other girls even though it is not serious affair.", "Why to them certain words like "darling", "dear", are just so insignificant that they can call any Tom Dick and Harry that.".
I am not saying that having a friend of different gender is a NO nO. Just that, I want to see a clear line drawn. Am I being too demanding? Sometimes i really hope that i am not that soft hearted. I just want to know if really i quarrel with him regarding those problems and i suggested a break up, will he just leave my world because he feels that he cant fit in, or will he want me back. Sometimes, I really dont feel that he needs me. Maybe i just want too much. Maybe i am not giving him enough space to breath.
I always know that privacy is needed even in a relationship. Yet, i just feel that since i can be so transparent to you about every thing in my life everything that happens to me. Being so open that you can take my phone browse through all my msg and i wont say a thing. You can even call anyone in it. Yet, you are just so afraid. Why i dont trust you? Because of all this actions that you showing. All this gives me a very unsafe feeling. You said it is your privacy. But i just cant help it and let my imagination run wild thinking of all the why why and more whys.
HOW?? I dont know... I dont know........ All i can is try to use the love i have for you to keep telling myself our difference and accept you rules, your way of living. I will try, but i really cant promise that things like that day wont happen again. Though i still dont see a reason why it is my fault totally, Why you dont protect me and confront her when she said stuff otherwise? why all faults lies in me, I'll still try to figure it out and try to control myself and make sure such things wont ever happened again.
PS: Darling, actually i suppose to leave you this time round. Because i promised that if this thing happens again, i'll leave without asking for mercy. If you wan that, let me know. I'll do as promised.
Monday, November 06, 2006
16th month Anniversary
yes! today is the 16th month anniversary. and here i am doing my assignments my presentation. yesterday went over to ai ai house. thinking that we can maybe have a good time together then till 12am i can pass him the stars that i've made for him using straws. Yet before the clock strike 12, he was so tired and once he got onto the bed he just slept. haiz...
then, i tot i can just put the bottle in his room leaving a note there wishing him happy 16th month. yet i forgot in the end. then i gave it to him. He didnt ask why i give, didnt say much. just a thank u and kept in his bag. Haiz...
kinda feel like a fool trying to spend some time together with him on this special day yet nothing seems to be working out. maybe i m just asking for too much stuff. maybe i m just too sensitive. maybe i am just too vex due to all my assignments and the oncoming exAM. I am just so so unhappy. I thought he might come and maybe accompany me a while. Maybe just an hour having dinner together. Maybe just sitting down beside me talk to me a while give me a goodbye kiss then off he go. I'll also be very satisfied. Maybe i just initiate too many times telling him to meet when i feel like it or when it's a special day that he dont see the need of suggesting anything. Or maybe 16 months has passed and he dont see the need of taking this day as a very special day already. haix... mood swing? pms? i dont know.
maybe he is just too sick to think of all this. he hasnt been well for the past few days. fever, cold, cough. haix.. shouldnt be expecting much from him. He has been real nice to me already. Complementing on my hair, come to wait for me at the coffee shop and intend to have dinner together there ytd night.
i must learn to be contented with what i have.
then, i tot i can just put the bottle in his room leaving a note there wishing him happy 16th month. yet i forgot in the end. then i gave it to him. He didnt ask why i give, didnt say much. just a thank u and kept in his bag. Haiz...
kinda feel like a fool trying to spend some time together with him on this special day yet nothing seems to be working out. maybe i m just asking for too much stuff. maybe i m just too sensitive. maybe i am just too vex due to all my assignments and the oncoming exAM. I am just so so unhappy. I thought he might come and maybe accompany me a while. Maybe just an hour having dinner together. Maybe just sitting down beside me talk to me a while give me a goodbye kiss then off he go. I'll also be very satisfied. Maybe i just initiate too many times telling him to meet when i feel like it or when it's a special day that he dont see the need of suggesting anything. Or maybe 16 months has passed and he dont see the need of taking this day as a very special day already. haix... mood swing? pms? i dont know.
maybe he is just too sick to think of all this. he hasnt been well for the past few days. fever, cold, cough. haix.. shouldnt be expecting much from him. He has been real nice to me already. Complementing on my hair, come to wait for me at the coffee shop and intend to have dinner together there ytd night.
i must learn to be contented with what i have.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
sTreSS is IN the Air
Yes!! As stated in the title. I M STRESS!!!! I'm currently having 3 assignments and 1 presentation in hand. That's the bad part about studying a arts course. Though we dont have quizzes but we have ASSIGNMENTS!!! Which is so so so difficult! Oh my GOD!!! Moreover, my elective is econs, which means I am having a quiz next week!! GOD BLESS ME!!!
Had a great day yesterday. Firstly, darling came NIE for 3 days course. Met him for lunch. After which I went for tuition with my student, teach her all I can and darling pon lesson for me!! TOUCHED!!! We then go shaw tower and ate pasta!!! So Happy!! Then went to this Hong Kong style eating place and ate mango ice!! NICE! Though not really what I expected but not that bad. Then we chit chat this and that. Had a great night.
Today meet him for lunch in NIE again. Sad to say it ended up with a quarrel. He said I raised my voice and told me that either I talk nicely or just walk off. I chose to walk off. I was very upset. We quarrel JUST because he felt that I had not been following the work out schedule. Then, commented that I actually have time for JCRC matter and all but work out. I am quite piss by the fact that he keep bring JCRC into picture. I like to work with the people in JCRC and I have fun working. YET! He keep commenting on it. Moreover, it is the only way i can assure myself in getting a room next year. If I dont do anything even if i am in JCRC, NO POINT!! I will be marked down!
Haiz.... I am stress!! ultimate stress!! I can control myself! I MUST control myself!!
Had a great day yesterday. Firstly, darling came NIE for 3 days course. Met him for lunch. After which I went for tuition with my student, teach her all I can and darling pon lesson for me!! TOUCHED!!! We then go shaw tower and ate pasta!!! So Happy!! Then went to this Hong Kong style eating place and ate mango ice!! NICE! Though not really what I expected but not that bad. Then we chit chat this and that. Had a great night.
Today meet him for lunch in NIE again. Sad to say it ended up with a quarrel. He said I raised my voice and told me that either I talk nicely or just walk off. I chose to walk off. I was very upset. We quarrel JUST because he felt that I had not been following the work out schedule. Then, commented that I actually have time for JCRC matter and all but work out. I am quite piss by the fact that he keep bring JCRC into picture. I like to work with the people in JCRC and I have fun working. YET! He keep commenting on it. Moreover, it is the only way i can assure myself in getting a room next year. If I dont do anything even if i am in JCRC, NO POINT!! I will be marked down!
Haiz.... I am stress!! ultimate stress!! I can control myself! I MUST control myself!!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
feeling so xin fu~~
feel so good now having darling being understanding, able to do my own stuff most importantly I FINISH N HAND IN MY ASSIGNMENT LE!! wah~~ now i know how gd it feels to finish an assignment man~~ really fei bi mo neng xing rong.
yesterday had my audition for production. FUN SIA!!! kekee... just play around with swan they all.. keke.. so cute la they. FUN ppl to work with. n most importantly is in CHINESE!! my strongest subject that i can most express myself with. hopefully if i m in the production dar dar will come n watch me on stage supporting me~~~ i'll be VERY happy if i see him in the audience sit lor.. *hint* kekee... but that's all if i m chosen. keke... another assignment coming up soon~~but that'll be handing in in october another in nov den exam den HOLIDAY!!! HURRAY!!! wahahaa... cant wait. den will be darling, home, work, and maybe a bit of school coz i think still got one more assignment after exam from translation. ya lor~~
next wk holiday. but still working wk for me~ coz christine giving birth got to help out more in pet shop. got to come back school for make up lesson too~~ ya lor~~ boring~~ but no choice~~
yesterday had my audition for production. FUN SIA!!! kekee... just play around with swan they all.. keke.. so cute la they. FUN ppl to work with. n most importantly is in CHINESE!! my strongest subject that i can most express myself with. hopefully if i m in the production dar dar will come n watch me on stage supporting me~~~ i'll be VERY happy if i see him in the audience sit lor.. *hint* kekee... but that's all if i m chosen. keke... another assignment coming up soon~~but that'll be handing in in october another in nov den exam den HOLIDAY!!! HURRAY!!! wahahaa... cant wait. den will be darling, home, work, and maybe a bit of school coz i think still got one more assignment after exam from translation. ya lor~~
next wk holiday. but still working wk for me~ coz christine giving birth got to help out more in pet shop. got to come back school for make up lesson too~~ ya lor~~ boring~~ but no choice~~
Friday, September 15, 2006
sunshine after the rain
it's a sunshine after the rain. darling promise me that he will change for the better for my sake. i take his promise n will stand by him as far as he is willing to go~~ thanks darling.
dar~ the upcoming year i will be busy. i will spend as much time as i have with u. pls do support me for all i do. no need u to take all stuff happily but at least respect what i m doing and be there for me whenever i need. i m very clear abt what i m doin and what i will be going thru. might be a tough year but i know it will be a fruitful one.
i couldnt get into xing n strum. kinda sad. but there is a production for our hall too. very excited abt it and hopefully i can be able to perform for it. as it is in chinese, i'm very confident in my chi too~~ hope i can be gd man. hahaha... and hopefully dar can support me!!! ur support wins the rest~ yeah!
dar~ the upcoming year i will be busy. i will spend as much time as i have with u. pls do support me for all i do. no need u to take all stuff happily but at least respect what i m doing and be there for me whenever i need. i m very clear abt what i m doin and what i will be going thru. might be a tough year but i know it will be a fruitful one.
i couldnt get into xing n strum. kinda sad. but there is a production for our hall too. very excited abt it and hopefully i can be able to perform for it. as it is in chinese, i'm very confident in my chi too~~ hope i can be gd man. hahaha... and hopefully dar can support me!!! ur support wins the rest~ yeah!
Monday, September 11, 2006
had i hurt him?
i dont know what to do now. his temper is getting kinda out of control. i dont know. i really love him. but what can i do? i dont want him to keep feeling unhappy or upset yet i dont know what to do. ever since i joined jcrc, everything goes down hill for the both of us. does that mean i wont have a valentine next year? i dont know.
i know i shouldnt doubt his love for me.. but i just wonder why guys n gers are so different. girls can do anything n sacrifice anything in a relationship but why cant the guys do the same too? does it mean they love their partner less n love themself more? i dont know....
as bad as his condition is now. i m also lost and dont know what to do. on one side i really dont want to leave him. on the other side i hope i can take up my responsibility and work to the fullest in jcrc. either i let go or him or just screwed up my jcrc work. i dont know. haiz~~
lost in the wonder land. no more tears, no more mood, in order not to let ppl worry for me, i have to cheer up. life~~ this is life~~ experience that no one else will be able to know the exact dilema that i m gg thru, due to different character n priority in life.
i know i shouldnt doubt his love for me.. but i just wonder why guys n gers are so different. girls can do anything n sacrifice anything in a relationship but why cant the guys do the same too? does it mean they love their partner less n love themself more? i dont know....
as bad as his condition is now. i m also lost and dont know what to do. on one side i really dont want to leave him. on the other side i hope i can take up my responsibility and work to the fullest in jcrc. either i let go or him or just screwed up my jcrc work. i dont know. haiz~~
lost in the wonder land. no more tears, no more mood, in order not to let ppl worry for me, i have to cheer up. life~~ this is life~~ experience that no one else will be able to know the exact dilema that i m gg thru, due to different character n priority in life.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
confuse
this saturday is dnd.. kinda excited yet kinda down.
excited becuase this is my very first time to dnd. ppl all will be glam n nice. hopefully i wont be the only underdress one. kinda scare to go as i kinda no figure. haha.. thought the expenses are kinda ex. but i m on budget route. hence, all in all i havent hit 100bucks! hahaa... got a nice dress online. yeah. just nice fitting. lucky.
haix.. den down because my dar is kinda down for me gg for dnd instead of go petshop with him. true that i agreed to help out in pet shop n in the end i go dnd. kinda bad. but i've got no choice as i'm in JCRC.
actually kinda down lately. since i'm in uni, dar dar seems to have kinda bad mood swing. can be happy at a point when i'm with him yet kinda down n moody when i'm not or when he knows that i cant be with him. hai... i also dont know how to make him happy all the time. only hope that he can understand my situation more. so so scare that we might because of my pack schedule now n break.
today i'm so so happy. so happy!! because dar kissed me at the forehead when he left. so sweet n so nice~~ really love it. today is our 1 yr 2months. yeah!! so so happy!!! we've come so far. hopefully can go further n forever. dar... really hope that u can understand me n trust me till the end. though i'm busy u are still in my heart. u are nv a substitute in my life. so dont say "go busy with ur stuff. when u are free then come n look for me." sound so much like like u feel that u are a substitute. u arent!! u are the first!
excited becuase this is my very first time to dnd. ppl all will be glam n nice. hopefully i wont be the only underdress one. kinda scare to go as i kinda no figure. haha.. thought the expenses are kinda ex. but i m on budget route. hence, all in all i havent hit 100bucks! hahaa... got a nice dress online. yeah. just nice fitting. lucky.
haix.. den down because my dar is kinda down for me gg for dnd instead of go petshop with him. true that i agreed to help out in pet shop n in the end i go dnd. kinda bad. but i've got no choice as i'm in JCRC.
actually kinda down lately. since i'm in uni, dar dar seems to have kinda bad mood swing. can be happy at a point when i'm with him yet kinda down n moody when i'm not or when he knows that i cant be with him. hai... i also dont know how to make him happy all the time. only hope that he can understand my situation more. so so scare that we might because of my pack schedule now n break.
today i'm so so happy. so happy!! because dar kissed me at the forehead when he left. so sweet n so nice~~ really love it. today is our 1 yr 2months. yeah!! so so happy!!! we've come so far. hopefully can go further n forever. dar... really hope that u can understand me n trust me till the end. though i'm busy u are still in my heart. u are nv a substitute in my life. so dont say "go busy with ur stuff. when u are free then come n look for me." sound so much like like u feel that u are a substitute. u arent!! u are the first!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
busy~~
yes... my school started till now is about 3 wks. kinda getting busier. got lots of things i wanna do yet cant and lots of ppl i wanna meet yet cant. Hereby i wanna say i'm sorry to lots of ppl. Firstly, sorry ning that i really yet to find a gd time to meet up with u n have a great catch up with things that u've missed n i've miss. Sorry to tian ying (srjc) whom i've yet to celebrate ur bday with. Sorry to daddy mummy that i actually dont have much time for u guys except for weekends. Sorry to darling as our meeting time really change alot since last time.
Worse thing now is.. i think i'm gonna be more busy with the next up commitment in hall, 13th JCRC main com. Yes, i'm running JCRC soon. hopefully can be a smooth one. though a bit hiccups here n there, but hopefully there isnt anyone bearing any grudges against anyone. everything is a new experience for me. though i use to be the assistant band major, yet i havent really run or work in a com with no assistance from higher authority. yes. so is very new, very fresh n i believe i will learn alot from it.
darling came to ntu on monday and really surprise me! that was a pleasant surprise. However, it didnt end with a high note. this is becoz he felt kinda inferior. i can understand how he feel as he knows no one here. not a single person. other den my roomie of course. so.. kinda.. i felt bad pulling him along to the IBG too.. coz.. i wasnt able to accompany him. he was sitting there all alone. can see the change in him slowly. i know he is unhappy, or feeling lousy, but i dont know what to do to cheer him up. really dont know. everytime i'll feel very lost when it comes to cheering him up.
even today when i meet up with him. we talked normally, walk around den he sent me back to hall. everything seems normal but i can feel something different, very slight different. he seems not so happy yet he dont want to make me worry or to dampen my mood so he was trying hard to stay happy. thanks darling for trying so hard. it's hard on u.
actually, i do feel a little unhappy abt he feeling inferior. coz to me, studying in Uni is not everything. even if i was motivated to move on to uni is just becoz that i want to prove to ppl that i can make it to uni. i can live without a uni cert. if not becoz he keep pushing me n motivating me.. i might have have a sit in NTU today. yet, now he is feeling inferior. kinda unfair to me as it is his wish to see me in uni, yet he feel inferior of me being a undergrad now. kinda confuse of what he actually want from me.
BUT, come to think of it.. not his fault either, is the society, the world. the recognition given to the A4 size paper is so high that everyone thinks highly of it and judge ppl with that. it is a STUPID way of judging ppl as studying is not everything in life. MOST knowledge is acquired in other forms not from just schools. we learnt most at work, how to deal with ppl, how to deal with politics, how to work with the max efficiency, how to let ppl understand whatever u are trying to propose, all this hands on stuff is nth u can learn from school. maybe can learn them when u are running com for a project, however, not all have the chance for all that. Hence, in order to perform best at work, cert is not the Major thing to look at but experience, the wit of the employee, the capability. though certain job need certain knowledge from text books, but most of the things u cannot purely just stick to the text book.
So, what's the big deal of being a undergrad, it's just another learning process.
darling, soon u will be moving into a uni, studying ur degree, studying ur honest, so i dont see why must u feel inferior. true, i will nv get the exact feeling u have, but like u say, no matter where u were from, as long as u are gd there isnt a need to be afraid that u will not be recognise one day. i'm really afraid that the inferior feeling in u will cause a gap in our relationship, if really that i'll lose u becoz i'm in ntu now... (though i know is kinda silly to say the following but i really feel that way.) no point for me getting into the uni. i'm here for our future. (of course to make my parents proud of me too!)
Worse thing now is.. i think i'm gonna be more busy with the next up commitment in hall, 13th JCRC main com. Yes, i'm running JCRC soon. hopefully can be a smooth one. though a bit hiccups here n there, but hopefully there isnt anyone bearing any grudges against anyone. everything is a new experience for me. though i use to be the assistant band major, yet i havent really run or work in a com with no assistance from higher authority. yes. so is very new, very fresh n i believe i will learn alot from it.
darling came to ntu on monday and really surprise me! that was a pleasant surprise. However, it didnt end with a high note. this is becoz he felt kinda inferior. i can understand how he feel as he knows no one here. not a single person. other den my roomie of course. so.. kinda.. i felt bad pulling him along to the IBG too.. coz.. i wasnt able to accompany him. he was sitting there all alone. can see the change in him slowly. i know he is unhappy, or feeling lousy, but i dont know what to do to cheer him up. really dont know. everytime i'll feel very lost when it comes to cheering him up.
even today when i meet up with him. we talked normally, walk around den he sent me back to hall. everything seems normal but i can feel something different, very slight different. he seems not so happy yet he dont want to make me worry or to dampen my mood so he was trying hard to stay happy. thanks darling for trying so hard. it's hard on u.
actually, i do feel a little unhappy abt he feeling inferior. coz to me, studying in Uni is not everything. even if i was motivated to move on to uni is just becoz that i want to prove to ppl that i can make it to uni. i can live without a uni cert. if not becoz he keep pushing me n motivating me.. i might have have a sit in NTU today. yet, now he is feeling inferior. kinda unfair to me as it is his wish to see me in uni, yet he feel inferior of me being a undergrad now. kinda confuse of what he actually want from me.
BUT, come to think of it.. not his fault either, is the society, the world. the recognition given to the A4 size paper is so high that everyone thinks highly of it and judge ppl with that. it is a STUPID way of judging ppl as studying is not everything in life. MOST knowledge is acquired in other forms not from just schools. we learnt most at work, how to deal with ppl, how to deal with politics, how to work with the max efficiency, how to let ppl understand whatever u are trying to propose, all this hands on stuff is nth u can learn from school. maybe can learn them when u are running com for a project, however, not all have the chance for all that. Hence, in order to perform best at work, cert is not the Major thing to look at but experience, the wit of the employee, the capability. though certain job need certain knowledge from text books, but most of the things u cannot purely just stick to the text book.
So, what's the big deal of being a undergrad, it's just another learning process.
darling, soon u will be moving into a uni, studying ur degree, studying ur honest, so i dont see why must u feel inferior. true, i will nv get the exact feeling u have, but like u say, no matter where u were from, as long as u are gd there isnt a need to be afraid that u will not be recognise one day. i'm really afraid that the inferior feeling in u will cause a gap in our relationship, if really that i'll lose u becoz i'm in ntu now... (though i know is kinda silly to say the following but i really feel that way.) no point for me getting into the uni. i'm here for our future. (of course to make my parents proud of me too!)
Saturday, August 19, 2006
msn ***
msn giving me problem man!! cant sign in den re d/l the thing de cannot den change den d/l the older version den can. sian man....
yeah.. miss him.. alot.. haix.. but he doin assignment period.. mood swing.. easily get angry.. so scare.. scare next time marry le.. will he give me black face everyday if he got problem at work.. yet.. i'm thinking hard on how to make him happier whenever he is stress.. trying all means n ways. sometime tot maybe as long as i dont disturb him he will be happy. maybe dont meet him let him be alone. but i cant do it.. i need to see him.. n he also want to meet me..
sometimes i really dont understand. he says he miss me. den when meet, when he moody, he also dont talk much... i hug him... he also dont react... also dont know what he want.. dont wanna meet him thought might be becoz of me den he mood worsen, den he'll get more angry as i nv meet him... haix.. sometimes kinda dont know what he want. do i really understand him alot... i dont know.. all i want is stay by his side.. i want to see him happy, i want to see his smile, i can give up almost everything even if i have to give up him... as long as he is happy i'm happy. becoz i know at this point of my life at least i have one person who ever love me alot, who ever dote me alot, who ever think of me everyday, who use to be just mine, at least someone who let me know i m actually not that bad as there are someone actually go after me before!! hahaa.. yeah..
darling this is to u:
maybe i've said this many many times to u, yet i still want u to know, I LOVE U.
yeah.. miss him.. alot.. haix.. but he doin assignment period.. mood swing.. easily get angry.. so scare.. scare next time marry le.. will he give me black face everyday if he got problem at work.. yet.. i'm thinking hard on how to make him happier whenever he is stress.. trying all means n ways. sometime tot maybe as long as i dont disturb him he will be happy. maybe dont meet him let him be alone. but i cant do it.. i need to see him.. n he also want to meet me..
sometimes i really dont understand. he says he miss me. den when meet, when he moody, he also dont talk much... i hug him... he also dont react... also dont know what he want.. dont wanna meet him thought might be becoz of me den he mood worsen, den he'll get more angry as i nv meet him... haix.. sometimes kinda dont know what he want. do i really understand him alot... i dont know.. all i want is stay by his side.. i want to see him happy, i want to see his smile, i can give up almost everything even if i have to give up him... as long as he is happy i'm happy. becoz i know at this point of my life at least i have one person who ever love me alot, who ever dote me alot, who ever think of me everyday, who use to be just mine, at least someone who let me know i m actually not that bad as there are someone actually go after me before!! hahaa.. yeah..
darling this is to u:
maybe i've said this many many times to u, yet i still want u to know, I LOVE U.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
my school started!!
my school started!!! oh man!! so happening.. n hall life= sleep late!!! so tiring!!!
hahaha.. hall 11 have very nice ppl.. the sch bash was happening... the ppl wear cool n fun...
lesson was great n interesting.. so discussive, so many thought provoking question posted. so cool! so different from jc. so so different. everything was so casual n so self motivation kinda thingy. not like school life where the teacher will start threatening u from the start of day one that u must study if not this if not that.. no stress from school as yet but stress from within.
suprisingly, not alot of PRC but quite a number of malaysian.. guess they are scholars there. scary~~~ saw a few familiar faces and feels home.
miss darling alot. coz couldnt get to see him most of the time. still waiting for him to appear outside my room as a surprise!!yeah.. waiting~~~
keke... great time great experiencer, so new so fresh.. but got myself damn sick.. ya.. got fever a bit, bad cough, a bit of flu. yeah. terrible isnt it? school just started for a wk~~~
yeah... that's abt all. more to come!!!
hahaha.. hall 11 have very nice ppl.. the sch bash was happening... the ppl wear cool n fun...
lesson was great n interesting.. so discussive, so many thought provoking question posted. so cool! so different from jc. so so different. everything was so casual n so self motivation kinda thingy. not like school life where the teacher will start threatening u from the start of day one that u must study if not this if not that.. no stress from school as yet but stress from within.
suprisingly, not alot of PRC but quite a number of malaysian.. guess they are scholars there. scary~~~ saw a few familiar faces and feels home.
miss darling alot. coz couldnt get to see him most of the time. still waiting for him to appear outside my room as a surprise!!yeah.. waiting~~~
keke... great time great experiencer, so new so fresh.. but got myself damn sick.. ya.. got fever a bit, bad cough, a bit of flu. yeah. terrible isnt it? school just started for a wk~~~
yeah... that's abt all. more to come!!!
Saturday, July 29, 2006
The start of another new phase of life
yes.. is another beginning, i'm moving into a uni life. moreover, i'm moving into the hostel getting a taste of how will it be like. the great experience that i always want to have. BUT!! It's a tiring start man!!!!
tuesday i've got to know i'm posted to hall 11!!! YES!! HALL 11!!! terrible isnt it? the furthest away from school. but is the first stop when the bus enter our school premises. then my room mate was kinda sad n panic fearing that it'll be very troublesome n all for us. i also dont really like the distance. lucky they have shuttle bus which is FOC.. kekeke... then we decided to go down to ntu to check our hall out. if we were able to choose our room, we'll take it.
so.. wednesday, we went down to ntu at around.. 11?? i think so.. hahaha.. then we went to ask the seniors abt the thing. HAHAHA... we are able to choose!! but not alot of choices.. hahaha.. the rest the seniors had taken them already. we got a gd corner rm with not a bad number. 1048. kekee.. sounds not bad huh? next wk 4 D first price man. hahaha.. anyway, we then went to see our room!!! HORRIBLE!!! so dusty, so dirty, so many scotch tapes around. EEeeeEEee...
so we decided to go back the next day to clean it.
thinking that we'll be able to clean it in one day time. we brought our cleaning stuff n all on thursday.. to our horror, we only manage to clean the table, the cupboards and the bed!!!! from 11 till around 3!!! 4 hr!!!! ty have got tuition later in the day. so we just went for lunch then went back to clean up a little more, around 5pm we went back.
friday, dar came n help us paint the wall.. kinda illegal, but lots of ppl did that. ahahhahaa.. n it really makes our room brighter and nicer. CLEANER!! we then start pasting papers and all in the cupboard. cleaning the shelf, cleaning the window. SO SO TIRED!!! then we couldnt take it.. around 3++ we went back too.. hahaa.. another 4 hr!!!!
saturday i didnt intend to go back, but went back becoz the floor is still DIRTY!!!!! so we clean up the floor and pack our stuff. from around 3pm till around 6?? hahaha.. around there. cool. best day. most relax. brought alot of stuff though. kekeke..
today is sunday.. we have a briefing later in the evening at... MARINA SQUARE??!! yup. not in hall.. sianded... still have stuff to bring in but.. HOW TO BRING?? dont know to go down straight to marina square first or to go back hall, put my stuff den go.... haix... still thinking~~~
thanks to all that helped me~~ mummy, for taking my stuff out for me, sis for giving me some money to buy some stuff, daddy for giving me thinner, n DARLING!! for helping me to paint the wall and to clean the floor, get our stuff into position and all. THANKS!!! *muackx*
tuesday i've got to know i'm posted to hall 11!!! YES!! HALL 11!!! terrible isnt it? the furthest away from school. but is the first stop when the bus enter our school premises. then my room mate was kinda sad n panic fearing that it'll be very troublesome n all for us. i also dont really like the distance. lucky they have shuttle bus which is FOC.. kekeke... then we decided to go down to ntu to check our hall out. if we were able to choose our room, we'll take it.
so.. wednesday, we went down to ntu at around.. 11?? i think so.. hahaha.. then we went to ask the seniors abt the thing. HAHAHA... we are able to choose!! but not alot of choices.. hahaha.. the rest the seniors had taken them already. we got a gd corner rm with not a bad number. 1048. kekee.. sounds not bad huh? next wk 4 D first price man. hahaha.. anyway, we then went to see our room!!! HORRIBLE!!! so dusty, so dirty, so many scotch tapes around. EEeeeEEee...
so we decided to go back the next day to clean it.
thinking that we'll be able to clean it in one day time. we brought our cleaning stuff n all on thursday.. to our horror, we only manage to clean the table, the cupboards and the bed!!!! from 11 till around 3!!! 4 hr!!!! ty have got tuition later in the day. so we just went for lunch then went back to clean up a little more, around 5pm we went back.
friday, dar came n help us paint the wall.. kinda illegal, but lots of ppl did that. ahahhahaa.. n it really makes our room brighter and nicer. CLEANER!! we then start pasting papers and all in the cupboard. cleaning the shelf, cleaning the window. SO SO TIRED!!! then we couldnt take it.. around 3++ we went back too.. hahaa.. another 4 hr!!!!
saturday i didnt intend to go back, but went back becoz the floor is still DIRTY!!!!! so we clean up the floor and pack our stuff. from around 3pm till around 6?? hahaha.. around there. cool. best day. most relax. brought alot of stuff though. kekeke..
today is sunday.. we have a briefing later in the evening at... MARINA SQUARE??!! yup. not in hall.. sianded... still have stuff to bring in but.. HOW TO BRING?? dont know to go down straight to marina square first or to go back hall, put my stuff den go.... haix... still thinking~~~
thanks to all that helped me~~ mummy, for taking my stuff out for me, sis for giving me some money to buy some stuff, daddy for giving me thinner, n DARLING!! for helping me to paint the wall and to clean the floor, get our stuff into position and all. THANKS!!! *muackx*
Monday, July 24, 2006
Lao gong asked me to do this:
Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this. Ready? Start~
1.Darling (Dom dom)
2. Lao Gong
3.Mummy
4.Lao Pa
5. Ai ren
6. Huining
7.Shelia
8. SM
9.Kala
10. Wen Yao
11.Alan
12. Mei Hui
13. Tian Ying
14. Pei Pei
15. Pei Wen
16. Sally
17. Letchimy
18. Dinosaurs
19. Jing Jing
20. You xiang
How did you meet #14?I meet her in SRJC.. We were classmate! She used to be my junior too..
What would you do if you never met #1?I'll never know what is true love n never be able to truely be myself. Can't do anything if i dont meet him.
What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?I'll Laugh my head off!!
Did you ever like #19?Yeah She's nice!!
Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?Er, unless they want to be lesbians?
Describe #3:short, quite plump, short hair, naggy, sharp when scolding yet soft at heart. great cook. very protective mother.
Do you think #8 is attractive?hmm.. in certain way i guess, IF NOT HE WONT BE MY RIVAL!! GOT MY LAO GONG AWAY FROM ME!!
Tell me something about #7.Currently studying in Mass Com IN NP.
Do you know any of #12's family?Her mum. Saw her before. Went her hse once.
What is #18's favorites?I DONT KNOW. Just know him not long ago. =P
What would you do if #18 confesses that he/she likes you?Wahahahaa.. i'll laugh my head off.. i'm not his type he'll nv be my type.
What language does #15 speak?Chinese, English
Who is #9 going out with? Whoever that dates her out.
How old is #16 now?19 though we were born in the same yet but her BDAY is on the last day of the year!!!
When was the last time you spoke to #13?Just called her to plan a meet up tml!
Who is #2's favourite singer/band?MAYDAY
Would you ever date #4?DATE? MY LAO PA LEHZ.. no need to date la..
Would you ever date #7?AH DUH?? great friend.
Is #15 single?NO LONGER SINGLE.. she n her wei wen~~ kekeke..
What is #10's last name?Er... full name is Adrian Kuang Wen Yao
Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11?NEVER!! he's my jie mei!!
What school does #3 go to?'does' is referring to the present rite... Not studying now....
Where does #6 live?Kaki Bukit
What's your favourite thing about #5?Everything!! my airen lehz~~ the way she plays her piano just melt my heart.
Have you seen #1 naked? Even not now?? I'll be able to see in the FUTURE!! wahaha..
Now, 5 people I would like to see doing this
1. Dom Dom
2.Cai wei
3. Jing yi
4. Shi min
5. ai ren
a test to be done becoz lao gong wants me to.
7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Go Europe with dom for our honey moon.
2.Slim down till i reach the weight (at least) 55kg.
3.Marry my one n only beloved darling Dominic The Swee Yuen peacefully.
4.Have either a driving license or at least one for motor bike?
5.To have a family of my own living in our dream house.
6. Have a least a kid! I love kids!
7.Design a full set of outfit, a top, a bottom, a bag, a pair of shoe and maybe some jewelery for myself n my darling. (provided he'll like it of course.)
7 things I can do:
1. Speak Chinese and English fluently.
2. Earn my own pocket money even though im studying now
3. Cook for my darling though he seldom let me do that n think still not good enough to satisfy his taste bud.
4. Laugh non-stop like i got asthma attack.
5.Cry be it if i'm happy,sad, angry or what so ever.
6.Love my darling more each day
7.Sleep. Who cant? kekee...
7 things i cannot do:
1.Stop crying n reason out what i have in mind during quarrels.
2. Love my one n only lesser each day.
3. Hold a snake in my hand
4. Resist the tempatation of durian
5. Scream or shout at people i love.
6. Understand computers
7. Talk less! keke.. i m TALKATIVE
7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1.Sense of humor
2.The way he carry himself
3. Eyes
4. The way he speaks must impress me
5.Sunshine boy look!! LIKE MY DOM DOM
6. Responsibility
7. SMILE
7 things that I say most often:
1. haha
2.SHIT!
3.mai lai la~
4. no lo
5. huh?
6. ok lo...
7. nevermind
7 celebrity crushes:
1. Chen xiao dong
2. Zhou Chu Ming
3. Qi Yi Wu (i've seen him in real life! so tanned so cool! so cute!! his smile is dashing)
4. David tao
5. Xiao Zhu (Luo Zhi Xiang)
6. Wu Yan Zhu
7. JAY CHOU
7 people I want to do this:
1. Darling
2. Airen
3. Jing yi
4. Cai wei
5. lao Gong (DONE)
6. shelia
7. Hui Ning
7__Favourites
Favourite colour(s): Blue,Orange,lime green, black, purple
Favourite food: PASTA, Darling's cheese fried rice! laksa, dark chocolate, lime icecream from swensen,alot!!
Favorite song(s): It keeps changing.. But basically songs which are upbeat, hip, RNB or meaningful
Favourite movie: MY SASSY GIRL (so funny so sweet so touching!)
Favourite sport: Swimming cos I wont feel myself sweating
Favourite day of the week: Sunday (it's the day just with dar dar n no one else)
Favourite season:Winter ( though cold but just look so lovely)
Favourite ice-cream: CHOCOLATE, Mint, CHOCOLATE CHIP, Lime!
CurrentsCurrent mood:Bored.. the test is too long... n just bored
Current taste: No taste but craving for food.
Current clothes:SRJC ORION tshirt, shorts, undergarments, rubber band and my RING! kekee..
Current toenail: pink
Current time: 3.33pm
Current surroundings: my room boring rm with only me
Current annoyances: CANNOT EAT JUNK FOOD. I'm still on diet
Current thoughts: How's the office now after i left. Is darling thinking of me. How would my life be after i enter UNI!!!!
First
First best friends: Siti Ramziyani (my primary school classmate)
First crush: my primary school classmate Ong Cheng Keong
First movie: forgot le la.. it's so many years ago!
First lie: I forgot... by the way, who actually can remember?
Lasts
Last cigarette: There wasnt any 1st in the 1st place......
Last drink (alcohol): I dont drink
Last crush: DOMINIC THE SWEE YUEN!!
Last movie: The Omen
Last phone call: Darling calling from his workplace.
Last CD played: Think i very l0ng never listen to cds. now is MP3
Haves
Have you ever dated your best friend(s): nope
Have you ever broken the law: if lettering consider as breaking law.
Have you ever been arrested:for what?? i'm a good citizen
Have you ever skinny dipped: no~
Have you ever been on TV: yup. when i was pri 3. up for a children program.remember?? sundays morning?? haha
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: no.. but i kena kissed by my lao gong she was drunk~~~ haha
5 things you are wearing: T-shirt, shorts, undergarment, rubberband and ring
4 things you've done today: watched miss universe, clean up my room, blog, checked email
3 things you can hear right now: the fan, the birds' chirping away outside, the traffic noise pollution
1 thing you do when you're bored: Sleep
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
dan dan inccident
today darling called n said dan dan got diarrhoea in the morning~ he got so freaked out~~ so scared.. so scared of loosing love one again~~ yes... i do mean again~~ coz he lost his beloved grandma some time ago..
i can deeply feel the fear in him. at that very moment, i just wish that i can be right beside him assuring that everything will be fine~
so i took half day~ went right down to his hse straight~~
dan dan was fine~~ gd as usual~~ guess is just that his stomach couldnt really accept the change in food i suppose. in the afternoon, his poo was alright. solid as usual. gd~!! back to healthy dan dan again!! darling was so relief!!
i can deeply feel the fear in him. at that very moment, i just wish that i can be right beside him assuring that everything will be fine~
so i took half day~ went right down to his hse straight~~
dan dan was fine~~ gd as usual~~ guess is just that his stomach couldnt really accept the change in food i suppose. in the afternoon, his poo was alright. solid as usual. gd~!! back to healthy dan dan again!! darling was so relief!!
left is the healthy dan dan, n right is dong dong..
arent they cute?? kekeke... =)
Monday, July 17, 2006
tired!!!
yesh~~ saturday was a fun day man~!!! went to play pool with sm, gj, wp and wy. Of course my darling is around! after which we went to sing k box!!! ahaha.. fun man~ really fun!!
sm drove me back home. thanks bro! hahah.. super car!! but singapore dont have nice road for it to run~ cool car man!! kekeke...
today so so so tired!! couldnt wake up in the morning for work. lucky mummy woke me up. den today dont know why, very happy! hahaha.. great mood but still tired. just no mood for work. slacking around.
darling is sick. so sick. he didnt even went for class today. so poorthing. no one look after him at home too.. doctor still suspect that he might get dengue fever. lucky nv.
he blog today. so sweet. short entry yet so touching!! hahaha.. yeah. love him lots. alot alot alot!!!
so tired.. still tired.. good night all..
sm drove me back home. thanks bro! hahah.. super car!! but singapore dont have nice road for it to run~ cool car man!! kekeke...
today so so so tired!! couldnt wake up in the morning for work. lucky mummy woke me up. den today dont know why, very happy! hahaha.. great mood but still tired. just no mood for work. slacking around.
darling is sick. so sick. he didnt even went for class today. so poorthing. no one look after him at home too.. doctor still suspect that he might get dengue fever. lucky nv.
he blog today. so sweet. short entry yet so touching!! hahaha.. yeah. love him lots. alot alot alot!!!
so tired.. still tired.. good night all..
Thursday, July 13, 2006
virus in the air~
yesh~~ darling is sick.. poor boy~ took care of our two babies and forgot all about himself. now sick at home with fever. how i wish i can go down n look after him now~~
today wore the clothes that he bought for me to work. ahaha.. every one was commenting that it's nice~~ hahaa.. feel so pretty and happy today. wahhaa.. work became much easier and less boring for me~ wahaha.. all ask me put make up la this and that.. make me so shy~ kekeke..
den today come a new boy~ shao ming~ yup.. he speaks more chinese den english. yesh. should be a poly grad as he is gg to ns this september. kinda easy to talk person. yeah man...
kala sick today too.. terribly sick. fever, cough, flu. wow.. u name it she has it. terrible. and she self torturing by gg to work. sitting there looking so pathetic.. poor girl.
that's about all for today. take care~
today wore the clothes that he bought for me to work. ahaha.. every one was commenting that it's nice~~ hahaa.. feel so pretty and happy today. wahhaa.. work became much easier and less boring for me~ wahaha.. all ask me put make up la this and that.. make me so shy~ kekeke..
den today come a new boy~ shao ming~ yup.. he speaks more chinese den english. yesh. should be a poly grad as he is gg to ns this september. kinda easy to talk person. yeah man...
kala sick today too.. terribly sick. fever, cough, flu. wow.. u name it she has it. terrible. and she self torturing by gg to work. sitting there looking so pathetic.. poor girl.
that's about all for today. take care~
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
the photos of the clubbing night
It is the clubbing night photos.. kekee... three couples were there... up here.. the first couple also the hp owner who took photos for us..<----- wan ping and wen yao....
<----Next in up is guijin and shi min!! kekee.. In the end one got drunk and one?? blood vessels burst due to too much of vomitting.. oh my god!! the couple that suffered the most!
<----- of course the writer of this blogger.. me n my darling.. dominic!!! the most stable couple as one is a good drinker who dont get drank so easily and the other is non drinker who dont drink at all.. kekeke.. Following two photos: left is wanping and me~~!!! right is guijin and me!!! so chio isnt it? wahhaha... wonderful photos.. =)
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today dont know what to put as title. so name it untitled.
after work i went down to darling's house to see my bao beis, dan dan and dong dong. so cute!! i feed them palette they fighting for it man. see dan dan so naughty but yet cant win dong dong. dong dong just put half of its body straight into the food bowl n cover almost all the place stopping dan dan from eating the food. so bad. stupid dan dan cant do anything about it but to just squeeze in to get its food.
play with them a while den dar dar said he got a blog like me already!! wahahhaa.. i went to see.. so sweet~~ kekee... anyone interested? address is http://firedeice.blogspot.com yeah. kekeke..
tired tired... how i wish tml is last day of work. hahahaa.. den i can slp more soon~~ kekee...
after work i went down to darling's house to see my bao beis, dan dan and dong dong. so cute!! i feed them palette they fighting for it man. see dan dan so naughty but yet cant win dong dong. dong dong just put half of its body straight into the food bowl n cover almost all the place stopping dan dan from eating the food. so bad. stupid dan dan cant do anything about it but to just squeeze in to get its food.
play with them a while den dar dar said he got a blog like me already!! wahahhaa.. i went to see.. so sweet~~ kekee... anyone interested? address is http://firedeice.blogspot.com yeah. kekeke..
tired tired... how i wish tml is last day of work. hahahaa.. den i can slp more soon~~ kekee...
Monday, July 10, 2006
~missing~
i dont know how to control myself. i dont know is this right or wrong. ppl might say i pamper him too much that he might take me for granted but i just couldnt stop myself to treat him any better.
3days been with him. now i'm at home n he's having his lesson.. i miss him so much. so so much. i really miss those days that we were spending almost every seconds together. though there were little unhappiness happened but all ended up good n got us closer. i love it when i feel so secured so treasured in his hands when we were in pubs or club. i love the way he keep holding me like wanting the whole world to know i m his n all the guys in the place to know that i'm attach to him n no one can get me from him.
wow. so happening 3 days. coming back home like throwing me back to reality, throwing me back to my real life. kinda reluctant to return from the special treats i've got. but i have no choice.
i miss him. really do...
3days been with him. now i'm at home n he's having his lesson.. i miss him so much. so so much. i really miss those days that we were spending almost every seconds together. though there were little unhappiness happened but all ended up good n got us closer. i love it when i feel so secured so treasured in his hands when we were in pubs or club. i love the way he keep holding me like wanting the whole world to know i m his n all the guys in the place to know that i'm attach to him n no one can get me from him.
wow. so happening 3 days. coming back home like throwing me back to reality, throwing me back to my real life. kinda reluctant to return from the special treats i've got. but i have no choice.
i miss him. really do...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
day 3
went to get a new bottle of course. have to. den he told his friend that is him who broke the bottle. felt so bad. den went to the shop, the owner said dou dou is dead. so sad. so so sad. haix... den we looked around n got another loop ear back home. he is dong dong. kekeke...
so adorable. not that timid as dan dan. yes. that dan dan, eat n eat n eat none stop. through out the night also keep eating.so we go dong dong back home, he went to buy a smaller fan and a vacum cleaner. i was looking after the rabbits. den doze off. cried too much the night b4 n was so tired. later in the night we went to sm house for soccer final!!!
got there, chit chat a while, new friends were introduced. eugene and hansheng. hopefully right. yup. sm's father came back. he is a very successful business man. was up in newspapers and tv often. he bought back some food and in the end he came to sm's room and suggested on bring us to a pub. oh my!! sm's father bringing us to PUB?? he was so so friendly. first time ever. all sm's friends were shock including us. we really went to a pub nearby. he sang n treated us drinks. yup. talked alot. he assured guijn that sm's mother's problem he'll take care of it. as long as she'll be able to take gd care of sm n love him. guijin was so touched and cried.
after a while we went back to his place. suppose to watch soccer. i saw the first goal, which is due to a penalty shot. france got in. den heard the second goal...... n i... ZzzZZzzzzZZZzz...
heard that italy got the world cup champion and is due to a penalty shot after extra time. yup.
cool~~ now gg back home soon. hopefully wont see black faces... =P
ENJOYED MY LIFE MAN!! COOL!!!
so adorable. not that timid as dan dan. yes. that dan dan, eat n eat n eat none stop. through out the night also keep eating.so we go dong dong back home, he went to buy a smaller fan and a vacum cleaner. i was looking after the rabbits. den doze off. cried too much the night b4 n was so tired. later in the night we went to sm house for soccer final!!!
got there, chit chat a while, new friends were introduced. eugene and hansheng. hopefully right. yup. sm's father came back. he is a very successful business man. was up in newspapers and tv often. he bought back some food and in the end he came to sm's room and suggested on bring us to a pub. oh my!! sm's father bringing us to PUB?? he was so so friendly. first time ever. all sm's friends were shock including us. we really went to a pub nearby. he sang n treated us drinks. yup. talked alot. he assured guijn that sm's mother's problem he'll take care of it. as long as she'll be able to take gd care of sm n love him. guijin was so touched and cried.
after a while we went back to his place. suppose to watch soccer. i saw the first goal, which is due to a penalty shot. france got in. den heard the second goal...... n i... ZzzZZzzzzZZZzz...
heard that italy got the world cup champion and is due to a penalty shot after extra time. yup.
cool~~ now gg back home soon. hopefully wont see black faces... =P
ENJOYED MY LIFE MAN!! COOL!!!
day 2
supposingly we are gg to sentosa n play man. the sun the sea n the sand. yet.. all couldnt take it n make it. yeah... so in the end we went down to get our rabbit back!!! one is dan dan n the other is dou dou. dan dan is a lion head double main loop ear rabbit, while dou dou is dwarf rabbit. so so cute!! before we go.. went shopping!! hahahaa....
darling spent so much on me man!!! first bought a adidas slipper for me.. den went to city hall. went up raffles city. got a full set sports wear from royal sporting house. 80++ bucks. ah!!! just a top and a pair of shorts, so much. scary!!! next i told him about a shop, island shop. they sell those type of clothes that he will like. so we went there n walk around. in the end, he got me to try clothes here and there, a dress, a top, lots of different skirts n all.. like modelling around the shop. in the end, he bought me a simple yellow top, with a long skirt, 2 pairs of earrings and a bracelete. all in all.. cost him $170. OH MY GOD!!! expensive right? the shop retailer all envy me. hahaha.. so sweet of him.
den went to collect our rabbit. they are so adorable. however, dou dou was sick. they said they'll look after it for us first. see whether is there any improvement when we get dan dan back home. then we started to became very busy.got the cage ready, this n that. put it in. den do the platform ate some dinner. (darling didnt eat. he cooked wash den the food turn cold n he threw them away!!) haix.. after which when the platform was done, it's already 11++pm. late huh? finally we wanna get the cage done in proper. so i've got to carry it out n he'll do the rest. however, it's my first time handling they animal. wasnt very gd at it. in the end i dropped the bottle for the rabbit, it broke and the water just spilled. saded. he screamed at me. was so shocked, scared, n felt so much like a maid to him suddenly.scolded me while i clean up the place. after which i just cry in the room. i really dont know what to do. he scolded n said that i should go back. suddenly got the urge to... but i'm scare. yeah. very scared. just like the rabbit i shivered in the room.
after that he apologise. he said he isnt good. he suggested that i should get another bf n dump him. crazy. how will i be able to do that? i really dont know. maybe i fan jian, no matter what he do, i'll still want to stay by his side. i want to...
next morning, everything was back to normal. he slowly introduce me to the rabbit again teaching me in a more patient tone getting me back to norm. though now better, but still have the fear in me.. yup.
darling spent so much on me man!!! first bought a adidas slipper for me.. den went to city hall. went up raffles city. got a full set sports wear from royal sporting house. 80++ bucks. ah!!! just a top and a pair of shorts, so much. scary!!! next i told him about a shop, island shop. they sell those type of clothes that he will like. so we went there n walk around. in the end, he got me to try clothes here and there, a dress, a top, lots of different skirts n all.. like modelling around the shop. in the end, he bought me a simple yellow top, with a long skirt, 2 pairs of earrings and a bracelete. all in all.. cost him $170. OH MY GOD!!! expensive right? the shop retailer all envy me. hahaha.. so sweet of him.
den went to collect our rabbit. they are so adorable. however, dou dou was sick. they said they'll look after it for us first. see whether is there any improvement when we get dan dan back home. then we started to became very busy.got the cage ready, this n that. put it in. den do the platform ate some dinner. (darling didnt eat. he cooked wash den the food turn cold n he threw them away!!) haix.. after which when the platform was done, it's already 11++pm. late huh? finally we wanna get the cage done in proper. so i've got to carry it out n he'll do the rest. however, it's my first time handling they animal. wasnt very gd at it. in the end i dropped the bottle for the rabbit, it broke and the water just spilled. saded. he screamed at me. was so shocked, scared, n felt so much like a maid to him suddenly.scolded me while i clean up the place. after which i just cry in the room. i really dont know what to do. he scolded n said that i should go back. suddenly got the urge to... but i'm scare. yeah. very scared. just like the rabbit i shivered in the room.
after that he apologise. he said he isnt good. he suggested that i should get another bf n dump him. crazy. how will i be able to do that? i really dont know. maybe i fan jian, no matter what he do, i'll still want to stay by his side. i want to...
next morning, everything was back to normal. he slowly introduce me to the rabbit again teaching me in a more patient tone getting me back to norm. though now better, but still have the fear in me.. yup.
chalet~~~~~~ day 1
yoohoo~~ had a great 3 days wkend sia~~ wowowowowowowo... great experience n great fun!
first up.. we met up while darling went to school for his exam. SM(just back from melborne), guijin, wanping and i met up at wan ping's place to chill out and the 3 of us (girls) went to doll up ourselves for the night!! wen yao came at abt 8++pm. wan ping n guijin had some make up experience when i had none! hahaha.. yup. den i wan trying my very best to do something yet not to be too exageratting. hahaa.. den they were curling up their eye lashes. den i realise mine is so short n so deep in that so hard to curl it up. the professional ping ping up to rescue!! hahaha.. she was able to curl it up! bravo!
den we start putting eye shadow n this n that. last come the mascara. disaster for me man!! i accidentally got it onto my face when it's still not dry yet. wow.. den wan ping n guijin tried hard n help me out with it.. finally everything was fine! hahaha.. looks funny but still ok~ kekeke...
went to music underground located near parkmall. yeah. first time to clubbing. wow.. it's like so so different. we reach damn early. so kinda like empty. not really fun. den the crowd only comes in around 1am. late isnt it? once we reach they got tow bottles of martel n me? of course just coke n nothing! kekeke.. they started drinking. guijin n sm was like drinking n drinking when wan ping was taking lots of photos n wen yao just sit down n chill out. dom? hahha.. run around like home. hahaha.. nah.. went to look for you xiang outside. yup. they talk den he went to withdraw money. yup. i juz try to squeeze myself into the two couples in the mean time n have fun. hahahahaa...
when guijin finally said she cant drink anymore, comes the waitor cheers with all ppl on our table. she got no choice but to drink it. n more, she drank the whole cup in one go!!!!! oh man!! and right before the clock strike 12, she was drank. haha.. de she go around kissing all ppl.. lucky by the cheek. N MY DARLING KENA ALSO. saded.. yup.
we dance, play, listen to the music, see how my dar dar shine on the dance floor. look at those figure damn good bar top dancer dancing so nicely, so stylish!!! but the pole dancing lady... SO SKINNY> yee... hahaha...
around abt 2?? i think so.. hahaa.. we got a cab n went back. guijin was drank yeah, wan ping was feeling bad... keep wanting to vomit. wen yao didnt drink much, so nothing. dom solid la.. still fresh when he drink so much. sm.. worst, his blood vessel burst n the face was like with patches of red area here n there, the eyes like blood shot red. oh man!!! scary!!! me?? hahah.. didnt drink. HAD FUN.
first up.. we met up while darling went to school for his exam. SM(just back from melborne), guijin, wanping and i met up at wan ping's place to chill out and the 3 of us (girls) went to doll up ourselves for the night!! wen yao came at abt 8++pm. wan ping n guijin had some make up experience when i had none! hahaha.. yup. den i wan trying my very best to do something yet not to be too exageratting. hahaa.. den they were curling up their eye lashes. den i realise mine is so short n so deep in that so hard to curl it up. the professional ping ping up to rescue!! hahaha.. she was able to curl it up! bravo!
den we start putting eye shadow n this n that. last come the mascara. disaster for me man!! i accidentally got it onto my face when it's still not dry yet. wow.. den wan ping n guijin tried hard n help me out with it.. finally everything was fine! hahaha.. looks funny but still ok~ kekeke...
went to music underground located near parkmall. yeah. first time to clubbing. wow.. it's like so so different. we reach damn early. so kinda like empty. not really fun. den the crowd only comes in around 1am. late isnt it? once we reach they got tow bottles of martel n me? of course just coke n nothing! kekeke.. they started drinking. guijin n sm was like drinking n drinking when wan ping was taking lots of photos n wen yao just sit down n chill out. dom? hahha.. run around like home. hahaha.. nah.. went to look for you xiang outside. yup. they talk den he went to withdraw money. yup. i juz try to squeeze myself into the two couples in the mean time n have fun. hahahahaa...
when guijin finally said she cant drink anymore, comes the waitor cheers with all ppl on our table. she got no choice but to drink it. n more, she drank the whole cup in one go!!!!! oh man!! and right before the clock strike 12, she was drank. haha.. de she go around kissing all ppl.. lucky by the cheek. N MY DARLING KENA ALSO. saded.. yup.
we dance, play, listen to the music, see how my dar dar shine on the dance floor. look at those figure damn good bar top dancer dancing so nicely, so stylish!!! but the pole dancing lady... SO SKINNY> yee... hahaha...
around abt 2?? i think so.. hahaa.. we got a cab n went back. guijin was drank yeah, wan ping was feeling bad... keep wanting to vomit. wen yao didnt drink much, so nothing. dom solid la.. still fresh when he drink so much. sm.. worst, his blood vessel burst n the face was like with patches of red area here n there, the eyes like blood shot red. oh man!!! scary!!! me?? hahah.. didnt drink. HAD FUN.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
friendship
yesterday talked out with ning. yeah.. i kinda neglected the friendship...
dont know.. i know my fault. i too zhong se qing you. all i think is my darling n others will be rank second. be it my family, my friends, my money, my work, my studies. i know that's kinda extreme.. but i guess that's who i am. i trying hard to balance between darling n others but kinda hard. coz i really love him alot. maybe i should really strike a balance so that if one day he's not around or maybe one day he doesnt want me.. that's kinda impossible i guess.. kekee... i'll not be alone. yeah man~
seriously, now my life is only him. i dont know is it the right thing, but i juz goes with my heart. no matter what happened in the future, i nv regret that i love him whole heartedly before. YES! i'll nv. becoz with him i learnt alot. i'm growing up.. still in the process but i believe i m growing up. though no longer the goodie goodie me.. but i dont think that's anything bad either becoz i didnt turn that bad either. hahaha.. yeah man...
today went for a class, religious class, suppose to end at 11pm, but it ended earlier. ya.. told darling kinda last min. coz i dont know how to let him know i'm gg. he kinda reluctant n unhappy when i told him that i'll be involve in any sorts of religious stuff. yup. so.. was thinking whole day how not to anger him yet can go for the class. in the end, i still upset him. he said i didnt discuss with him at all. since i've decided, no point telling him n ask him not to be angry. true enough. i should respect him more n ask for his opinion way before. he asked me why i want to go. i dont know. simply becoz i feel like gg. though i'm no longer the goodie mummy's girl, but i still have my belief in my religion. that's all i can say. yup. hope he'll understand it one day n support me instead.
friday is coming. counting down for our one year!! counting down for the fun interesting wkend. counting down to the days of freedom...
dont know.. i know my fault. i too zhong se qing you. all i think is my darling n others will be rank second. be it my family, my friends, my money, my work, my studies. i know that's kinda extreme.. but i guess that's who i am. i trying hard to balance between darling n others but kinda hard. coz i really love him alot. maybe i should really strike a balance so that if one day he's not around or maybe one day he doesnt want me.. that's kinda impossible i guess.. kekee... i'll not be alone. yeah man~
seriously, now my life is only him. i dont know is it the right thing, but i juz goes with my heart. no matter what happened in the future, i nv regret that i love him whole heartedly before. YES! i'll nv. becoz with him i learnt alot. i'm growing up.. still in the process but i believe i m growing up. though no longer the goodie goodie me.. but i dont think that's anything bad either becoz i didnt turn that bad either. hahaha.. yeah man...
today went for a class, religious class, suppose to end at 11pm, but it ended earlier. ya.. told darling kinda last min. coz i dont know how to let him know i'm gg. he kinda reluctant n unhappy when i told him that i'll be involve in any sorts of religious stuff. yup. so.. was thinking whole day how not to anger him yet can go for the class. in the end, i still upset him. he said i didnt discuss with him at all. since i've decided, no point telling him n ask him not to be angry. true enough. i should respect him more n ask for his opinion way before. he asked me why i want to go. i dont know. simply becoz i feel like gg. though i'm no longer the goodie mummy's girl, but i still have my belief in my religion. that's all i can say. yup. hope he'll understand it one day n support me instead.
friday is coming. counting down for our one year!! counting down for the fun interesting wkend. counting down to the days of freedom...
Thursday, June 15, 2006
thursday
i guess should start with yesterday. dar got some problem at home.. den at night he called me.. we were talking.. den he talked abt himself as he was brought up in a violence family he might became one as well.. after we got married he might beat me up n abuse me too.. i told him that's the history, that's the past... just forget abt the things happened to the last generation. he commented that i still living in the ancient time. He said that it's now scientifically proven that this family background will have child who will react the same way. He asked me to think twice before marrying him.. i was shock.. it's a devastated sentence out of his mouth. to him might be a comment made casually or juz a simple warning.. but to me.. it's kinda like rejection.. a rejection to my love.. kinda like... no matter how much i do.. how much i show him i love him, how well i treat him, how much love i shower him with, he'll nv be able to love me till the extent that he'll prevent himself to turn violent, he'll nv be able to control himself n not act violently towards me.. i have so much faith in him, giving him all i have, but yet.. he keep doubting himself, doubting his love for me... doubting everything. i msg him i dont care who is out there whether better than him or not, all i know is i love him. i ask him not to think abt better option outside for me, all i wanna know is he want me or not.. he just avoid the qns n ask me to turn in early. i didnt know how to react to it.. i was.. really.. sad.. it gives me an impression that he himself is not sure whether he wants me or not. i know.. maybe he's scared that he'll really turn out to be a violent husband that's why he doesnt wish to say a want but put me in deep shit in the future. but to me.. a want is really more important than my life. i believe very much in love. once i step into it i'll nv be able to get out of it. i can suffer, in pain, in poverty, in silence, as long as i know that he still love me it's all more than enough... that's all i want.
hmm.. today started off quite well.. becoz darling gave me 2 morning calls though i wasnt able to pick them up as i was bathing. den got a msg from him trying to see if i'm awake or not.. den the last msg was, u must take care too. den no msg no calls nothing till around 1.30pm. he msged me.. i was so relief to see his msg.. i thought he'll really give me up... but he still miss me.. so happy...
but den... he still kinda down.. ya lo... dont know how to cheer him up too... i must jia you!!!
hmm.. today started off quite well.. becoz darling gave me 2 morning calls though i wasnt able to pick them up as i was bathing. den got a msg from him trying to see if i'm awake or not.. den the last msg was, u must take care too. den no msg no calls nothing till around 1.30pm. he msged me.. i was so relief to see his msg.. i thought he'll really give me up... but he still miss me.. so happy...
but den... he still kinda down.. ya lo... dont know how to cheer him up too... i must jia you!!!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
dar dar
this will be only be talking abt dar dar n me...
that day after the night tour. went to dar dar's hse.. den he suddenly say let's not meet up for around 3 to 4 months. i was shock n i dont want. den i kinda teared. he said it's becoz he knows that he himself is kinda moody n prone to mood swing lately, always flare up due to small matter n i kena la.. ya.. den say that period of time will let him cool down n all.. i dont want it.. really dont want it.. i cant imagine life without seeing him or having him around me...
den he said why?? is it becoz no one is chasing me that's why i stick to him so tightly? i said no.. i love u. that's y. really love u alot. alot more than i can imagine. till the extend that some times i'll tend to wonder does u love me as much as i love u.. den he said something abt gg after other girls n all.. den i said go lo.. u wanna go i also no choice. den he kinda like sa jiao to me asking why i nv try to keep him by my side. i said he also everytime say that to me.. den he direct me to see him eye to eye n said. i actually dont like it when other guys talk to u or when u go out with other guys. when u say wanna go clubbing and all i didnt want u to go de.. i juz didnt say n all.. i kinda touched. first time hearing things like that from his mouth. kinda feel like i'm in a dream. really love it. love to have him so tender loving by my side hugging me... feeling so secure n that he's all mine!!!
haix.. den he said he's gg australia to study his 2nd yr of uni.. i was kinda down but it's his studies, i cant say anything abt it.. but he said if i dont want den he wont go.. den ytd he said he'll only go for 2 months n experience a new kinda lifestyle... den today... he said he wanna go there study 1 yr of honest with yx. 1 year.. wow.. that's so.. cool.. ya.. hope his dream will come true n that he'll be very very happy.
haix.. dont know why recently everytime meet him will end up like kinda unhappy. i also dont know how to cheer him up. only he'll be able to make me laugh n smile but i always fail to be e clown.. hope he'll be fine soon.
darling.. i love u.. alot.. alot.. alot.. really... alot..
that day after the night tour. went to dar dar's hse.. den he suddenly say let's not meet up for around 3 to 4 months. i was shock n i dont want. den i kinda teared. he said it's becoz he knows that he himself is kinda moody n prone to mood swing lately, always flare up due to small matter n i kena la.. ya.. den say that period of time will let him cool down n all.. i dont want it.. really dont want it.. i cant imagine life without seeing him or having him around me...
den he said why?? is it becoz no one is chasing me that's why i stick to him so tightly? i said no.. i love u. that's y. really love u alot. alot more than i can imagine. till the extend that some times i'll tend to wonder does u love me as much as i love u.. den he said something abt gg after other girls n all.. den i said go lo.. u wanna go i also no choice. den he kinda like sa jiao to me asking why i nv try to keep him by my side. i said he also everytime say that to me.. den he direct me to see him eye to eye n said. i actually dont like it when other guys talk to u or when u go out with other guys. when u say wanna go clubbing and all i didnt want u to go de.. i juz didnt say n all.. i kinda touched. first time hearing things like that from his mouth. kinda feel like i'm in a dream. really love it. love to have him so tender loving by my side hugging me... feeling so secure n that he's all mine!!!
haix.. den he said he's gg australia to study his 2nd yr of uni.. i was kinda down but it's his studies, i cant say anything abt it.. but he said if i dont want den he wont go.. den ytd he said he'll only go for 2 months n experience a new kinda lifestyle... den today... he said he wanna go there study 1 yr of honest with yx. 1 year.. wow.. that's so.. cool.. ya.. hope his dream will come true n that he'll be very very happy.
haix.. dont know why recently everytime meet him will end up like kinda unhappy. i also dont know how to cheer him up. only he'll be able to make me laugh n smile but i always fail to be e clown.. hope he'll be fine soon.
darling.. i love u.. alot.. alot.. alot.. really... alot..
wonderful night out
yeah.. had a night out not long ago.. it's on the 10th june. with the religious class ppl n my cousin n of course my one n only we went for the perfect night out. had games n all for bonding n it's kinda great i should say. though dar's game seems to be kinda cruel.. hahaha.. got to drink bitter gourd drinks, eat chilli, this n that but it's a great n enjoyable game for all.. hahaha...
next up we went to amk to eat. dar dar is really a da wei wang sia.. he ate 2 bowls of wan ton noodles n a bowl of laksa. wow!!! yeah.. that's my dar... den we move on to mount faber.. everyone told me is a wonderful dating place, nice scenes this n that.. but to me.. juz alright only lehz.. nothing fantastic. ya lo.. just alright la..
next.. we moved on to pasir panjang market... see the ppl selling off their vege in bulk. wow.. really lots of vege sia... den that cw.. wear till soo lady like, put make up n all.. attract lots of attention man.. den every man there like looking at her. ahhahaa..
den we move on to marina south for bowling.. yeah.. bowling.. but before that they play kinda like lots of interactive games n all la.. i was a bad bowler.. yeah.. very bad.. ah!!!!!!! throw face ar.. sian sian.. den play arcade games too.. wahhahaha.. cw is the best man. she really is gd at it.. hahhaa.. den jy n me struggling down there. ahhahaa...
great la.. good n enjoyable.
next up we went to amk to eat. dar dar is really a da wei wang sia.. he ate 2 bowls of wan ton noodles n a bowl of laksa. wow!!! yeah.. that's my dar... den we move on to mount faber.. everyone told me is a wonderful dating place, nice scenes this n that.. but to me.. juz alright only lehz.. nothing fantastic. ya lo.. just alright la..
next.. we moved on to pasir panjang market... see the ppl selling off their vege in bulk. wow.. really lots of vege sia... den that cw.. wear till soo lady like, put make up n all.. attract lots of attention man.. den every man there like looking at her. ahhahaa..
den we move on to marina south for bowling.. yeah.. bowling.. but before that they play kinda like lots of interactive games n all la.. i was a bad bowler.. yeah.. very bad.. ah!!!!!!! throw face ar.. sian sian.. den play arcade games too.. wahhahaha.. cw is the best man. she really is gd at it.. hahhaa.. den jy n me struggling down there. ahhahaa...
great la.. good n enjoyable.
Friday, May 12, 2006
why??
haix.. today is vesak day.. actually is a very happy day for me.. cause can go out buy com with DARLING!! but early in the morning i make him angry le.. everything actually starts yesterday.. haix...
actually yesterday was a wonderful day sia.. after his lesson he called me.. kinda rare case.. but he called n we chatted.. due to some different views.. he got angry n didnt wanna talk anymore.. but soon after.. everything was alright le.. but i still like scare next day meet him dont know how it will be...
today morning i woke up.. called him at abt 10am.. morning call. yup.. den we met up at abt 12... he called me when i was on my way saying that wanna meet me at sim lim square as he was hungry n wanna go find food. den i wanna him to eat pure vege food la. but he say that side dont have.. juz eat normal vege food lor... den i was kinda like unhappy as there are pure vege food around juz need to walk a distance. but didnt say anything as i felt that was a little too demanding for him. den he felt my unhappiness and was pissed by me.. in the end didnt eat a single thing. den we met, things go on well. den i dont know what went wrong with me today, juz wrong in everything thing. accidentally stepped on the back of his slipper lots of times till he got fedup n angry with me the 2nd time. when i reach his place, was closing the wardrope, there goes the third time but he didnt show it actually. cause i actually didnt get hold of a firm grip of that handle n it juz bang when closing.
den i didnt dare to do anything at all le.. the more i do like the worst it got. saded..
den juz now at my place, he was packing stuff for me.. wanna throw lots of things. but i say dont want. cause not all stuff mine. cant throw. den this n that. told him i no time to go n tidy the things n all.. den he got angry also.. coz he told me to clear up the place for new stuff like my laptop n the keyboard. but i didnt. haiz.. everytime no matter what i do like he also angry. also dont know how to be the best out of it.. dont know what to do... don't know how to make him love me more.. dont know how not to anger him anymore.. don't know.... haix....
only one thing happy today. GOT MY NEW LAPTOP!!! ya.. that's all...
actually yesterday was a wonderful day sia.. after his lesson he called me.. kinda rare case.. but he called n we chatted.. due to some different views.. he got angry n didnt wanna talk anymore.. but soon after.. everything was alright le.. but i still like scare next day meet him dont know how it will be...
today morning i woke up.. called him at abt 10am.. morning call. yup.. den we met up at abt 12... he called me when i was on my way saying that wanna meet me at sim lim square as he was hungry n wanna go find food. den i wanna him to eat pure vege food la. but he say that side dont have.. juz eat normal vege food lor... den i was kinda like unhappy as there are pure vege food around juz need to walk a distance. but didnt say anything as i felt that was a little too demanding for him. den he felt my unhappiness and was pissed by me.. in the end didnt eat a single thing. den we met, things go on well. den i dont know what went wrong with me today, juz wrong in everything thing. accidentally stepped on the back of his slipper lots of times till he got fedup n angry with me the 2nd time. when i reach his place, was closing the wardrope, there goes the third time but he didnt show it actually. cause i actually didnt get hold of a firm grip of that handle n it juz bang when closing.
den i didnt dare to do anything at all le.. the more i do like the worst it got. saded..
den juz now at my place, he was packing stuff for me.. wanna throw lots of things. but i say dont want. cause not all stuff mine. cant throw. den this n that. told him i no time to go n tidy the things n all.. den he got angry also.. coz he told me to clear up the place for new stuff like my laptop n the keyboard. but i didnt. haiz.. everytime no matter what i do like he also angry. also dont know how to be the best out of it.. dont know what to do... don't know how to make him love me more.. dont know how not to anger him anymore.. don't know.... haix....
only one thing happy today. GOT MY NEW LAPTOP!!! ya.. that's all...
Sunday, April 23, 2006
outing sunday!!!
today is a very casual day. love it.. slow pace n everything is in our control, no rush no disturbance, no phone call no msges really cool man... dont know he got anot la.. but i have nothing to disturb my wonderful time with the special person. =)
morning abt 9.45am den wake up. shiok man. den after that relax till abt 11+ den we head off to china town.. after doin the zhen jiu thingy, den we move off to search for the dunno where fish shop in china town.. hahaha... he very funny sia.. so so lucky.. juz walk a distance den found lehz.. but best thing is.. NOT OPEN TODAY!! hahahhaa... n it's JUST FOR TODAY!! kekeke... *giggle*
which we den move on for lunch... went to one very class very zen (to me) very posh de lehz!!! ya.. nice nice.. thought very ex, but still affordable.. at least he still can use his cash in his wallet n no need to use the VISA. kekeke... i ate jap ramen den he ate fried rice.. WAH!! the fried rice is .. wooo... drool... very very very nice lehz.. smells gd, taste gd, looks not bad too.kekeke... drank pu er, ate siew mai ate xia jiao.. NICE!!! wahahaha.. i think xia jiao ok la.. but the siew mai nice nice wor... yup.. reach there at abt 1++ we sit there talk n eat till 3.30 lehz!! pro hor?? i also think so.. hahah.. first time!!!! wahahaha...
next we took bus down to behind taka's bus stop. hahah.. first time walk ard the back of that orchard area. kinda cool n different feeling.. very relaxing very casual.. very LANG MAN!! cox got dar dar.. =P *ping dan zhi zhong zhi zhao yi xie xie lang man~~~* hehehee.. den we went to borders.. read lots of books there sia.. found lots of interesting books.. like those art books, teach ppl how to draw, den those graphic design stuff, interior design, feng shui, astrology.. etc.. lots lots ar... sit there till abt 6++ den walk down to park mall check out that nice nice water fall thingy and the fish tank coffee table. cool~~ which then move on to our actual destination, PS. went there to check out the price of the sole which can correct the flat feet problem.
ps dont have bus back home.. so.. we walked... walk till the new CATHAY.. BIG!! nice!!! how i wish i can go there juz watch ONE movie.. wah~~ nice place man!!! yeah... my net dating dream~~ kekeke.. *hint hint* den from there walk till art museum.. took pictures.. den walk all the way till BUGIS AR!! first time that i actually walked from orchard to bugis sia!!! denise genius record sia.. kekekee... took some pic at national library too.. took 80 back home from there.. reach home at abt 9++ almost 10. COOL man!!! busy day?? casual day?? GREAT OUTING DAY!!! =) =D
morning abt 9.45am den wake up. shiok man. den after that relax till abt 11+ den we head off to china town.. after doin the zhen jiu thingy, den we move off to search for the dunno where fish shop in china town.. hahaha... he very funny sia.. so so lucky.. juz walk a distance den found lehz.. but best thing is.. NOT OPEN TODAY!! hahahhaa... n it's JUST FOR TODAY!! kekeke... *giggle*
which we den move on for lunch... went to one very class very zen (to me) very posh de lehz!!! ya.. nice nice.. thought very ex, but still affordable.. at least he still can use his cash in his wallet n no need to use the VISA. kekeke... i ate jap ramen den he ate fried rice.. WAH!! the fried rice is .. wooo... drool... very very very nice lehz.. smells gd, taste gd, looks not bad too.kekeke... drank pu er, ate siew mai ate xia jiao.. NICE!!! wahahaha.. i think xia jiao ok la.. but the siew mai nice nice wor... yup.. reach there at abt 1++ we sit there talk n eat till 3.30 lehz!! pro hor?? i also think so.. hahah.. first time!!!! wahahaha...
next we took bus down to behind taka's bus stop. hahah.. first time walk ard the back of that orchard area. kinda cool n different feeling.. very relaxing very casual.. very LANG MAN!! cox got dar dar.. =P *ping dan zhi zhong zhi zhao yi xie xie lang man~~~* hehehee.. den we went to borders.. read lots of books there sia.. found lots of interesting books.. like those art books, teach ppl how to draw, den those graphic design stuff, interior design, feng shui, astrology.. etc.. lots lots ar... sit there till abt 6++ den walk down to park mall check out that nice nice water fall thingy and the fish tank coffee table. cool~~ which then move on to our actual destination, PS. went there to check out the price of the sole which can correct the flat feet problem.
ps dont have bus back home.. so.. we walked... walk till the new CATHAY.. BIG!! nice!!! how i wish i can go there juz watch ONE movie.. wah~~ nice place man!!! yeah... my net dating dream~~ kekeke.. *hint hint* den from there walk till art museum.. took pictures.. den walk all the way till BUGIS AR!! first time that i actually walked from orchard to bugis sia!!! denise genius record sia.. kekekee... took some pic at national library too.. took 80 back home from there.. reach home at abt 9++ almost 10. COOL man!!! busy day?? casual day?? GREAT OUTING DAY!!! =) =D
Saturday, April 22, 2006
I GOT INTO NTU!!!
yeah!! i can go uni le~~ so so so happy!! first time in my whole life sia~~ though all also once in a lifetime la~~ hahah but really happy lo.. cause is my second try. hahaha.. very long nv blog le hor? hahaha... yeah.. com got problem n all ma.. now darling bought a new laptop... so i can use lor.. kekeke.. nice lehz.. twin head pearl white de.. i also wanna get this..
yeah.. so so many things to update.. but think also cant update le la. haha.. shall start from today again!!! yeah....
today went tuition in the morning at 10am. till abt 11.30am den teach the younger boy.. wah~~ he attitude me ar~~ actually only teach him maths de... den the mother says his chinese also not gd.. ask me to teach also... so i took up the challenge for the sake of money hahahaha... yup n teach him lor... starting he juz do his work den say can dun tuition chinese notx.. i said u asked ur dad lor.. not me... den as time passes, he started to be restless, keep gg toilet n this n that.. den keep refusing to learn chinese. when one hr passed n time to have chinese tuition den he throw tantrum this n that cry n make lots of noise of not wanting to learn chinese... actually i was quite pissed initially, but come to think of it he also quite poor thing, so i talk to him coax him to settle down this n that den start the lesson proper. by the time, 20min already pass le~~ den he started to cooperate a bit n reading thru passages.. that was like cool~~ he smiled again le!!! hahahahaa... sense of achievement!! kekeke....
den after that rush down to marilyn's place for tuition this n that.. got to realise she actually got the chance to go mediacorp to join a press conference with the campus superstar ng chee yang. hahaha.. took photo with him too... in the end got to write a report n couldnt think of things to write. hahaha..took almost 1 hr to help her complete the thing.
den came back home for dinner.. n now dar dar like so so tired.. sleeping beside me.. suppose to go gym, abt to rain le.. n he like sound asleep le.. dont know if we still gg anot..
oh ya!!! recently went to see doctor abt my leg pain problem. den he said i got flat feet and is abnormal feet. den i tot is those one in a million kind of thing den realise is alot of ppl also have it. he said the pain will still be there no matter what, unless i go for an op to correct the leg. haix.. dont know lehz.. sounds scary but i want to jump n run abt without pain... yet if the op like got any problem or what den in the end i cant even walk how?? but the doctor say i still cant do the op, must wait till at least 2 yrs later.. the op is abt 2.5 hrs long, will be on caste for 6 wks, 3 months to be able to recover from the op and around 2 years to actually able to be fully recovered as in no problem in walking n all.. ya lor.. scary hor? dont know lehz.. trying to find other ways to stop the pain first.. =(
yeah.. abt my love life.. it's getting better i should say, coz i love him deeper n he loves me more too~~ kekekeke... ah!! cant wait to get married. hhahahahha.. cant wait to go uni... cant wait to move on in life~~ yeah!!!
yeah.. so so many things to update.. but think also cant update le la. haha.. shall start from today again!!! yeah....
today went tuition in the morning at 10am. till abt 11.30am den teach the younger boy.. wah~~ he attitude me ar~~ actually only teach him maths de... den the mother says his chinese also not gd.. ask me to teach also... so i took up the challenge for the sake of money hahahaha... yup n teach him lor... starting he juz do his work den say can dun tuition chinese notx.. i said u asked ur dad lor.. not me... den as time passes, he started to be restless, keep gg toilet n this n that.. den keep refusing to learn chinese. when one hr passed n time to have chinese tuition den he throw tantrum this n that cry n make lots of noise of not wanting to learn chinese... actually i was quite pissed initially, but come to think of it he also quite poor thing, so i talk to him coax him to settle down this n that den start the lesson proper. by the time, 20min already pass le~~ den he started to cooperate a bit n reading thru passages.. that was like cool~~ he smiled again le!!! hahahahaa... sense of achievement!! kekeke....
den after that rush down to marilyn's place for tuition this n that.. got to realise she actually got the chance to go mediacorp to join a press conference with the campus superstar ng chee yang. hahaha.. took photo with him too... in the end got to write a report n couldnt think of things to write. hahaha..took almost 1 hr to help her complete the thing.
den came back home for dinner.. n now dar dar like so so tired.. sleeping beside me.. suppose to go gym, abt to rain le.. n he like sound asleep le.. dont know if we still gg anot..
oh ya!!! recently went to see doctor abt my leg pain problem. den he said i got flat feet and is abnormal feet. den i tot is those one in a million kind of thing den realise is alot of ppl also have it. he said the pain will still be there no matter what, unless i go for an op to correct the leg. haix.. dont know lehz.. sounds scary but i want to jump n run abt without pain... yet if the op like got any problem or what den in the end i cant even walk how?? but the doctor say i still cant do the op, must wait till at least 2 yrs later.. the op is abt 2.5 hrs long, will be on caste for 6 wks, 3 months to be able to recover from the op and around 2 years to actually able to be fully recovered as in no problem in walking n all.. ya lor.. scary hor? dont know lehz.. trying to find other ways to stop the pain first.. =(
yeah.. abt my love life.. it's getting better i should say, coz i love him deeper n he loves me more too~~ kekekeke... ah!! cant wait to get married. hhahahahha.. cant wait to go uni... cant wait to move on in life~~ yeah!!!
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Aerospace 2006!!!
oh gosh oh jesus!! i was able to go for the areospace this yr!!! so cool!! i can see like engines so so big in front of me~~!!! the big new A380 flying in the air doing tricks that they'll nv ever do again!!! oh man! den can see nice nice planes, helicopter n all!! getting nice door gifts n etc. that's so cool n great. the jet planes was like turning 360 degrees soo fast n cool which den will juz fly up high into the sky... den at the max height, it juz fly down like a free fall.. wow!!!!! cool isnt it???
great experience.. more to come tml!!! photo taking session. all thanks to olive's digi cam!! thanks ger!! i'll show u sia!!!
great experience.. more to come tml!!! photo taking session. all thanks to olive's digi cam!! thanks ger!! i'll show u sia!!!
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
v day!!!
MY FIRST VALENTINE"S DAY WITH A VALENTINE!!!
keke... though it wasnt so romantic thta ppl use to dream abt, not fairy tale like de... no flowers, no bear, yet.. it's the best i've gone through, coz i got the one that i love most beside me~~
i was trying very very hard to make a cross stitch for him on a cushion cover. but in the end couldnt finish. so sad!!!! haix... but he didnt mind la~~ he got me a pair of shoes. nice nice~~ ekekee..
ok~~ met him at 6pm. we went parkway walk walk. i brought the necklace that he got me for a little repairment. coz i scare spoil. den walk ard. went to starbucks n drink coffee n eat cakes. kekee.. n that cute boy actually told me he plan to propose to me next yr vday. he said he'll post an entry to new paper asking "will u marry me?". den send me a sms hinting me where he'll be. den he'll wait there for 3 hrs for me~~ if i go means yes, otherwise will be a no. haha.. den i told him i'll let him wait till the 3rd hr den i'll appear. hahaha.. den he says he'll bring his own entertainment and wait there with the diamond ring n a bouquet of flower~ kekeke.. cute hor? so sweet hor? i sure to cut out that article on the new paper n keep for life de~~
after that we juz walk ard, shop the book stores.. look out for stuff.. cook books and all.. den he send me home le~~
though it's so much so like juz a normal outing, yet it's meaningful to me~~ coz he said, actually to me i dont take valentine as any meaningful function, coz to us everyday is valentine's day~~
so sweet hor?? hahahaa.... LOVE U DARLING!!!!!!
keke... though it wasnt so romantic thta ppl use to dream abt, not fairy tale like de... no flowers, no bear, yet.. it's the best i've gone through, coz i got the one that i love most beside me~~
i was trying very very hard to make a cross stitch for him on a cushion cover. but in the end couldnt finish. so sad!!!! haix... but he didnt mind la~~ he got me a pair of shoes. nice nice~~ ekekee..
ok~~ met him at 6pm. we went parkway walk walk. i brought the necklace that he got me for a little repairment. coz i scare spoil. den walk ard. went to starbucks n drink coffee n eat cakes. kekee.. n that cute boy actually told me he plan to propose to me next yr vday. he said he'll post an entry to new paper asking "will u marry me?". den send me a sms hinting me where he'll be. den he'll wait there for 3 hrs for me~~ if i go means yes, otherwise will be a no. haha.. den i told him i'll let him wait till the 3rd hr den i'll appear. hahaha.. den he says he'll bring his own entertainment and wait there with the diamond ring n a bouquet of flower~ kekeke.. cute hor? so sweet hor? i sure to cut out that article on the new paper n keep for life de~~
after that we juz walk ard, shop the book stores.. look out for stuff.. cook books and all.. den he send me home le~~
though it's so much so like juz a normal outing, yet it's meaningful to me~~ coz he said, actually to me i dont take valentine as any meaningful function, coz to us everyday is valentine's day~~
so sweet hor?? hahahaa.... LOVE U DARLING!!!!!!
Monday, February 06, 2006
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now? mood not so gd. why? haix.. little tiny winy stuff. i'm bad~ very bad~~ couldnt control myself. juz so so possessive. cannot make it is the overall great remark i have for myself. yup! hate myself!! suckx. juz suckx. my problem yet i keep putting it like is his fault. like it's her fault. but it all lies in me~ yup~ i'm a sinner. unforgivable sinner~~
NiTe OuT!!!
yeah!! 4th feb 2006~~ the best day i ever have!! why?? hahaha... great nite out party!! wahahah... not really a party la~~ but i enjoye myself!!
dar n i met gj n sm at bugis ctrl station t 8pm.. haha.. we kinda late, so met them at abt 8.15pm. kekee... after which i brought them to eat the vegetarian pasta!!! wahahahaa.... no more pasta.. so sad.. in the end dar able to get a bake pasta den i ate spaghetti n jin ate bake rice! keke.. oh.. sm bake rice too.. different flavour de!!
abt 9pm we met wp n wy outside shaw tower n off we head to paulaner!! the first pub that i ever went!! wow!! that was like great sia!!!!!! sat there, listen to songs n music, chill out. chit chat.. learnt how to play bridge.. taught by sm. hahaha.. den gj, sm, dom drank 1 litre beer n wp n wy drank half a litre. scary sia~~ in the end... jin got drank again!! hahaha.. twice that she got drank all when i was ard. hahahahaa...
wp n wy left the grp earlier at abt 12 when we move on to esplanade for a walk. so left the 4 of us. gj was kinda cmi(cannot make it) so sm got to hold her whereever we go. den sm suggested that he wanna piggy back her.. den darling also join the the fun n piggy back me!! wahahaha.. best sia... so fun so cool!! love it~~ he's strong sia!!! hahaha... dar den bought her a cup of tea n got her to drink it. it was so ex n so sweet. den sm brought gj to the ladies leaving both of us there.. it's so cool n nice.. we took a few fotos one of which is so sweet n nice!! i love it!!! den they came back... gj rest a while n all den got better. but she looked tired. so after some food n drink we decided to go home.
took the cab when we only left with $13.10. haha.. in the end got home is 15 bucks. so i went up to take money n returned it to the driver.. reached home at abt 2+am so cool man!! the smell of freedom is great!!!
wahaha.. btw, wy also piggy back wp!! haha.. such a coincidence!!! whehehe... coz he was trying to make her happy after a trash out. hahhaaa... nice one!!! the 3 ai renx rox!!!!
dar n i met gj n sm at bugis ctrl station t 8pm.. haha.. we kinda late, so met them at abt 8.15pm. kekee... after which i brought them to eat the vegetarian pasta!!! wahahahaa.... no more pasta.. so sad.. in the end dar able to get a bake pasta den i ate spaghetti n jin ate bake rice! keke.. oh.. sm bake rice too.. different flavour de!!
abt 9pm we met wp n wy outside shaw tower n off we head to paulaner!! the first pub that i ever went!! wow!! that was like great sia!!!!!! sat there, listen to songs n music, chill out. chit chat.. learnt how to play bridge.. taught by sm. hahaha.. den gj, sm, dom drank 1 litre beer n wp n wy drank half a litre. scary sia~~ in the end... jin got drank again!! hahaha.. twice that she got drank all when i was ard. hahahahaa...
wp n wy left the grp earlier at abt 12 when we move on to esplanade for a walk. so left the 4 of us. gj was kinda cmi(cannot make it) so sm got to hold her whereever we go. den sm suggested that he wanna piggy back her.. den darling also join the the fun n piggy back me!! wahahaha.. best sia... so fun so cool!! love it~~ he's strong sia!!! hahaha... dar den bought her a cup of tea n got her to drink it. it was so ex n so sweet. den sm brought gj to the ladies leaving both of us there.. it's so cool n nice.. we took a few fotos one of which is so sweet n nice!! i love it!!! den they came back... gj rest a while n all den got better. but she looked tired. so after some food n drink we decided to go home.
took the cab when we only left with $13.10. haha.. in the end got home is 15 bucks. so i went up to take money n returned it to the driver.. reached home at abt 2+am so cool man!! the smell of freedom is great!!!
wahaha.. btw, wy also piggy back wp!! haha.. such a coincidence!!! whehehe... coz he was trying to make her happy after a trash out. hahhaaa... nice one!!! the 3 ai renx rox!!!!
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
new year!!
busy new year with not enough slp!! hahahaa.. bai nian n all...
went teachers' hse bai nian, went sm's hse bai nian, met dom's mummy n went k box together as a bai nian activity. hahaa... cool right?? n had a mid night bai nian activity!!! wahhhaa... so fun n so cool!!! enjoyed alot though not enough slp! kekekee....
yeah!! lots of details to fill in.. shall do it when i have more energy to!! =D
went teachers' hse bai nian, went sm's hse bai nian, met dom's mummy n went k box together as a bai nian activity. hahaa... cool right?? n had a mid night bai nian activity!!! wahhhaa... so fun n so cool!!! enjoyed alot though not enough slp! kekekee....
yeah!! lots of details to fill in.. shall do it when i have more energy to!! =D
gj bday celebration!!!!
yoz yoz!! it's gj's bday celebration!!! n on this very day dar dar gave me my 6 MONTH pressie!!! soooo soooo sooo sooo sooo nice!!!! wahahahahahaa...... guess what he gave?? he asked me to guess too.. hint? combinations of 2 ears. hahahaa... hard?? it's a HEART SHAPE!! hehehe... n so.. what's the other word for round?? RING!!!!! kekee... didnt manage to catch the second one but he gave me the pressie!! though in between there is a small unhappiness.. small one i really hope.. in the end was a great day, great pressie!! oh ya~~ still havent say is what... it's a HEART SHAPE DIAMOND RING!!!! oh man!!! cool right??? i love it! it's attached to this heart shape thing that is attached to a spring like thingy that pops up. den is attached to a box with me first month suppose to give present inside!!! so nice nice!!!!!!!!!!
kk.. back to jin's bday! as usual.. i gave her a GREAT SURPRISE!! bought a small cake with a fila bag for her.. shared by wan ping, wen yao, dom n me~~ kekeke.e.. so happy that she like it! haha...made a mess outside starbucks of that suntec branch. keke.. den her sis gui pei n her gang came too.. funny bunch of ppl. took alot of couples photos. ekekee... with dar dar only n also with the other 2 couples namely sm n gj, wp n wy. yup!!!
after which we went food court to eat. the reason being KIAN HUAT DONT EAT VEGE!!! N I DONT EAT MEAT!! hahahaa... which makes it difficult to go to any restaurant or what to eat. kekeke... had our food, den went on to pay POOL!! 2nd time trying to play pool!! better at it le! kekeke.. so nice wor~~ it's actually quite fun. met some sec sch dislike b**** there. yup. n since this day, i became SM's most hated person because gj i my LAO GONG!! hahaha.. i hugged her hold her hands n all that he felt "jealous" n keep asking me weird qns n all.. stupid right? hahhaa...
after which we went home... kekee...
great day!!!
kk.. back to jin's bday! as usual.. i gave her a GREAT SURPRISE!! bought a small cake with a fila bag for her.. shared by wan ping, wen yao, dom n me~~ kekeke.e.. so happy that she like it! haha...made a mess outside starbucks of that suntec branch. keke.. den her sis gui pei n her gang came too.. funny bunch of ppl. took alot of couples photos. ekekee... with dar dar only n also with the other 2 couples namely sm n gj, wp n wy. yup!!!
after which we went food court to eat. the reason being KIAN HUAT DONT EAT VEGE!!! N I DONT EAT MEAT!! hahahaa... which makes it difficult to go to any restaurant or what to eat. kekeke... had our food, den went on to pay POOL!! 2nd time trying to play pool!! better at it le! kekeke.. so nice wor~~ it's actually quite fun. met some sec sch dislike b**** there. yup. n since this day, i became SM's most hated person because gj i my LAO GONG!! hahaha.. i hugged her hold her hands n all that he felt "jealous" n keep asking me weird qns n all.. stupid right? hahhaa...
after which we went home... kekee...
great day!!!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
*shame shame*
the weekends!!
saturday was a busy day!! yes... early in the morning woke up abt 8++am trying hard hard to wake darling up becoz i got to go to send in my time sheet!! no time sheet no $$ kekeke... after which we met xiu hui at hougang mall at 11.15am or so to do some marketing.. it's cooking day!! hahaha.. we went her house to teach her to whip up some simple dishes. bought long beans, lotus, peanuts, xiao bai cai, and a kind of mock meat. yup yup. went to her house to do some preparation, rest a while, tied her hair nice nice for her.. keke.e.. listen to some songs, chill out a bit den went straight off to bernard's hse for rehearsal for our youth class. that was the funny one when thry rehearse their sketch n all.. hahaha.. i was juz an audience laughing my way.
at abt 4+pm, we go xiu hui hse n start the cooking lesson. everything was fine n nice till the rice was done! we found out that we put too much water n the rice turn out to be kinda too soft. still edible though. kekeke... after dinner went for a religious class n off we go heading home. dar dar was so so tired.. said wanna watch incredible but in the end both of us was juz so tired den didnt watch. kekeke...
sunday!! woke up at 8++ around 9 am as usual. haix.. wanna slp more de~~ juz couldnt stay in bed, so juz woke up , wash up n had my chee chong fan for breakfast. after which we watched bewitched. keke.. nice funny show. sweet too!!! had chee chong fan for lunch too.. den head off straight to youth class.. keke.. today's half an hour session suppose to be conducted by me la~ was so so so so so nervous that i actually finish off everything within 15 min. OH MAN!! such a failure. but happy that everything ended.. hpe next time will be a better one~ yup!!!
gor gor, xiu hui, mei hui, darling n i went for dinner together!! gor gor got car!! hahaha.. so got transport there n back.went lao di fang to eat. 55 bucks in total. gor gor trat 50 bucks, darling chip in the rest. kekee... nice food. i like the thousand island prawn so so nice~~ kekee... den cuttle fish ball was a challenge. hahahaa...coz dar dar cant use chopstick keke.. poke here poke there, the cuttlefish balls juz fly all over. hahahaa... n everyone was shock by his great appetite. 3 bowls of rice! hahahaa... then we went on to shop around at suntec. coz mei hui wanna get the doraemon key chain that she saw on gor gor's car! hahaha... shop ard n was fun!!
den when we abt to go home, den i was kinda alone when gor gor talked to xiu hui n darling was trying to open the box with the doraemon. den i looked into the "mirror" den suddenly realise why i have such low self esteem n feeling so insecure. becoz i juz dont feel compatible enough with dar dar.. so juz look ard kept quiet. felt that i look so so BIG while he looks so small. i juz not good enough for him, dont really feel that i'm up to his standard. den darling walked over tot i felt jealous or what. den i told him all that n he was trying hard to assure me that he dont feel that way n all. i KNOW. really.. i know he loves me alot. i juz wanna look more compatible to him so that i feel gd standing beside him being proud of myself when he ever intro me to his frenz. i dont feel that i through his face. ya.. den he actually held my hand for a moment. juz got a chu dian feeling running thru my body. felt so so gd!! really very gd! love the feel!
conclusion!! today is a great day!! i'm so happy!!! love it!!!
saturday was a busy day!! yes... early in the morning woke up abt 8++am trying hard hard to wake darling up becoz i got to go to send in my time sheet!! no time sheet no $$ kekeke... after which we met xiu hui at hougang mall at 11.15am or so to do some marketing.. it's cooking day!! hahaha.. we went her house to teach her to whip up some simple dishes. bought long beans, lotus, peanuts, xiao bai cai, and a kind of mock meat. yup yup. went to her house to do some preparation, rest a while, tied her hair nice nice for her.. keke.e.. listen to some songs, chill out a bit den went straight off to bernard's hse for rehearsal for our youth class. that was the funny one when thry rehearse their sketch n all.. hahaha.. i was juz an audience laughing my way.
at abt 4+pm, we go xiu hui hse n start the cooking lesson. everything was fine n nice till the rice was done! we found out that we put too much water n the rice turn out to be kinda too soft. still edible though. kekeke... after dinner went for a religious class n off we go heading home. dar dar was so so tired.. said wanna watch incredible but in the end both of us was juz so tired den didnt watch. kekeke...
sunday!! woke up at 8++ around 9 am as usual. haix.. wanna slp more de~~ juz couldnt stay in bed, so juz woke up , wash up n had my chee chong fan for breakfast. after which we watched bewitched. keke.. nice funny show. sweet too!!! had chee chong fan for lunch too.. den head off straight to youth class.. keke.. today's half an hour session suppose to be conducted by me la~ was so so so so so nervous that i actually finish off everything within 15 min. OH MAN!! such a failure. but happy that everything ended.. hpe next time will be a better one~ yup!!!
gor gor, xiu hui, mei hui, darling n i went for dinner together!! gor gor got car!! hahaha.. so got transport there n back.went lao di fang to eat. 55 bucks in total. gor gor trat 50 bucks, darling chip in the rest. kekee... nice food. i like the thousand island prawn so so nice~~ kekee... den cuttle fish ball was a challenge. hahahaa...coz dar dar cant use chopstick keke.. poke here poke there, the cuttlefish balls juz fly all over. hahahaa... n everyone was shock by his great appetite. 3 bowls of rice! hahahaa... then we went on to shop around at suntec. coz mei hui wanna get the doraemon key chain that she saw on gor gor's car! hahaha... shop ard n was fun!!
den when we abt to go home, den i was kinda alone when gor gor talked to xiu hui n darling was trying to open the box with the doraemon. den i looked into the "mirror" den suddenly realise why i have such low self esteem n feeling so insecure. becoz i juz dont feel compatible enough with dar dar.. so juz look ard kept quiet. felt that i look so so BIG while he looks so small. i juz not good enough for him, dont really feel that i'm up to his standard. den darling walked over tot i felt jealous or what. den i told him all that n he was trying hard to assure me that he dont feel that way n all. i KNOW. really.. i know he loves me alot. i juz wanna look more compatible to him so that i feel gd standing beside him being proud of myself when he ever intro me to his frenz. i dont feel that i through his face. ya.. den he actually held my hand for a moment. juz got a chu dian feeling running thru my body. felt so so gd!! really very gd! love the feel!
conclusion!! today is a great day!! i'm so happy!!! love it!!!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
game for 2!!
darling:" hey! let's play this game. If u lose, den u got to climb stairs later. The more u lose, the more u have to climb. k? "
me: "huh? i not gd at this game~ sure to lose."
darling:" dare to take up the challenge?"
me:" ok lor~~"
here goes.. we played. tie all the way in between with 2 of which i'm better off by juz one stone~ hahahaha... in the end.. his plan failed. den here comes another proposal. "why not we have a timed game. u shall start first." oh no! now i lose for sure~~ no aim no target nothing. suddenly comes a timed game. ya la.. i lost!! disgustingly lost!! sobz...
BUT!! hahaha.. when we reached home quite late le~~ den call off the thingy!!! kekeke..
dar dar is the best!!
den ar~~ later in the nite when i walk darling to the bus stop. we walked the long way by pass the econ minimart due to the heavy rain, we saw a scary guy outside the mart. seems like he's on drug n all.. i was so scared. luck darling is ard. he looked so pale, so suspicious abt things ard him. ya.. darling asked me to go the other way home to prevent things from happening. ya~~ first time see this kinda person ard my hse area. mostly malays playing or what only. nothing near to a drug addict look person. scary~~
me: "huh? i not gd at this game~ sure to lose."
darling:" dare to take up the challenge?"
me:" ok lor~~"
here goes.. we played. tie all the way in between with 2 of which i'm better off by juz one stone~ hahahaha... in the end.. his plan failed. den here comes another proposal. "why not we have a timed game. u shall start first." oh no! now i lose for sure~~ no aim no target nothing. suddenly comes a timed game. ya la.. i lost!! disgustingly lost!! sobz...
BUT!! hahaha.. when we reached home quite late le~~ den call off the thingy!!! kekeke..
dar dar is the best!!
den ar~~ later in the nite when i walk darling to the bus stop. we walked the long way by pass the econ minimart due to the heavy rain, we saw a scary guy outside the mart. seems like he's on drug n all.. i was so scared. luck darling is ard. he looked so pale, so suspicious abt things ard him. ya.. darling asked me to go the other way home to prevent things from happening. ya~~ first time see this kinda person ard my hse area. mostly malays playing or what only. nothing near to a drug addict look person. scary~~
tuesdaY~~ Hari Raya Haji~~
yup~~ tuesday was a holiday~~ hari raya haji~~ now den i kknow that's the day of sacrifice~~ they will buy goat, er.. or sheep? either la~~ life de to import to singapore from places like new zealand den they'll bring those goats to the mosque on the day itself. the goats will be killed an sacrifice on tat day,, sounds kinda cruel to me but to them is a very holy ceremony. they'll sacrifice it den one third given to the one who bought it, one third to the mosque which will then be canned n send to the third world country for food, last third will be cooked on the spot for the volunteers. they even said that some goat will die willing as they know they are used for gd~ but i still dont think is a right way to sacrifice another species..nvm...
however, my tuesday is obviously with dar dar again. coz whole of last wk we didnt really have time together~, wed went to have a celebration with marc for his bday n farewell to get into ARMY. hahaha.. den friday is celebration for pei pei bday~ the rest got to be home.. saturday got xiu hui n mei hui around. sunday we also stayed at my hse... which is kinda restricted, watch dvd must watch softly, den no games, everytime watch half way got to stop to help mum this n that~~ hahaha..
finally this tuesday we got our own time TOGETHER!!!!yup!!
went darling's hse at abt 8+ near to 9. reach there at abt 9.30am. coz it's another rainy day.. cant go out n no $$ to go out too~~ so is another DVD day!!! hahaha.. yup~ watched tom yonng gong n unleashed. both are great movies~ both action movies too~~ see the way they fight~ wah!! cool sia!! den got to play ps too!! hahhaa.. crazy taxi.. dar dar standard n mine same sia!!! hahahahaha...
after that we came back home to eat dinner.. den he stayed around till abt 10+ den he went home le~~ another great day!!!!!
however, my tuesday is obviously with dar dar again. coz whole of last wk we didnt really have time together~, wed went to have a celebration with marc for his bday n farewell to get into ARMY. hahaha.. den friday is celebration for pei pei bday~ the rest got to be home.. saturday got xiu hui n mei hui around. sunday we also stayed at my hse... which is kinda restricted, watch dvd must watch softly, den no games, everytime watch half way got to stop to help mum this n that~~ hahaha..
finally this tuesday we got our own time TOGETHER!!!!yup!!
went darling's hse at abt 8+ near to 9. reach there at abt 9.30am. coz it's another rainy day.. cant go out n no $$ to go out too~~ so is another DVD day!!! hahaha.. yup~ watched tom yonng gong n unleashed. both are great movies~ both action movies too~~ see the way they fight~ wah!! cool sia!! den got to play ps too!! hahhaa.. crazy taxi.. dar dar standard n mine same sia!!! hahahahaha...
after that we came back home to eat dinner.. den he stayed around till abt 10+ den he went home le~~ another great day!!!!!
Monday, January 09, 2006
+misunderstanding+
yeah~~ all are juz misunderstandings~~ he love me~~ i love him~~ end of story~~
any passerby will still remains as passerby or might not come into the story anymore~~ yup~~
anyway, juz today i learnt from my personal consultant at work that life is juz the beginning. this is juz a small little part that i've met.. coz she had gone those more n worst~~ really shocked me n enlightened me to look through the whole inccident~~
thanks ger~~
any passerby will still remains as passerby or might not come into the story anymore~~ yup~~
anyway, juz today i learnt from my personal consultant at work that life is juz the beginning. this is juz a small little part that i've met.. coz she had gone those more n worst~~ really shocked me n enlightened me to look through the whole inccident~~
thanks ger~~
Sunday, January 08, 2006
WK END AT HOME!!
hehehehehehehe.. love this wk end the most~!!! why?? DAR DAR HERE WITH ME!!!
kekekee... yup.. though in between got small small unhappiness brought up by me~~ ops~~ sorry dar... anyway.. ya... er...
HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!!!
ho ho ho.. zhuan yan jian~~ half a year le~~~ oh man!!! so so happy sia~~~ hahhaa... nv felt so so xin fu b4 nehz~~~
kekeke... okay~~ ytd.. mei hui , xiu hui n dar dar came my hse!! yup~~ suppose to do youth class thingy la~~ hahahaha.. ops... end up listening to songs n er.. play DAI DEE!! hahaha.a.. yup.. mei hui got to work.. went off at abt 4.30pm. den xiu hui n dar dar stayed on~~ we talked alot... play dai dee.. n juz chill out~ nice nice~~~
dar dar stayed over~~ yeah~~ so so happy~~ we chat whole nite~~ ARGH!!! cant live without him le~~ when he go home i'll die sia~~ felt so gd when he is ard.. felt so lost n empty when he's not~~ ops~~ kinda jialat right? but i dont mind!!! yeah!!!!
today we watched 2 movies!!! hahaha... dvd la~~ white chicks n shutter~~ old ones.. but nice! didnt watch them when they're up in cinema~~ kekeke.e...
yup~~ that's abt all!!
kekekee... yup.. though in between got small small unhappiness brought up by me~~ ops~~ sorry dar... anyway.. ya... er...
HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!!!
ho ho ho.. zhuan yan jian~~ half a year le~~~ oh man!!! so so happy sia~~~ hahhaa... nv felt so so xin fu b4 nehz~~~
kekeke... okay~~ ytd.. mei hui , xiu hui n dar dar came my hse!! yup~~ suppose to do youth class thingy la~~ hahahaha.. ops... end up listening to songs n er.. play DAI DEE!! hahaha.a.. yup.. mei hui got to work.. went off at abt 4.30pm. den xiu hui n dar dar stayed on~~ we talked alot... play dai dee.. n juz chill out~ nice nice~~~
dar dar stayed over~~ yeah~~ so so happy~~ we chat whole nite~~ ARGH!!! cant live without him le~~ when he go home i'll die sia~~ felt so gd when he is ard.. felt so lost n empty when he's not~~ ops~~ kinda jialat right? but i dont mind!!! yeah!!!!
today we watched 2 movies!!! hahaha... dvd la~~ white chicks n shutter~~ old ones.. but nice! didnt watch them when they're up in cinema~~ kekeke.e...
yup~~ that's abt all!!
Pei Pei's bday!!
yeah!!
05/01/06 is pei pei'sd bday!! happy birthay!!! whahahaha.a... pai seh~~ cant spent that day with u!!! hahahaa... my dear sis~~ hence~~ we met up on the next day~~ 06/01/06 kekeke.. nice right?
pei wen, tian ying, pei pei n i went out together~~ i brought them to eat vegetarian pasta at shaw tower~~~ kekekeke... nice nice.. almost no place to sit siA~~ last table~! kekeke... yup. pei pei permed her hair~ nice nice!!! tian ying did nothing.,. highlight a bit.. but cant see much~~~ den pei wen~~ scary ar~~ top part of the hair is copper brown n the bottom is GREEN!! oh man~~
yup~~ pei pei is attached!!! to a guy call darren~ haha.. got fu qi lian sia~~~second date den went take pic le wor~~ so so sweet!!! kekeke.e....
yup~~ went eat den went to take neoprint!! so so nice!!!!!!! fun machine too~~ got nice nice ppl in the nice nice fotos.. CHIO BU!!! kekeke....
yup!! nice day!
05/01/06 is pei pei'sd bday!! happy birthay!!! whahahaha.a... pai seh~~ cant spent that day with u!!! hahahaa... my dear sis~~ hence~~ we met up on the next day~~ 06/01/06 kekeke.. nice right?
pei wen, tian ying, pei pei n i went out together~~ i brought them to eat vegetarian pasta at shaw tower~~~ kekekeke... nice nice.. almost no place to sit siA~~ last table~! kekeke... yup. pei pei permed her hair~ nice nice!!! tian ying did nothing.,. highlight a bit.. but cant see much~~~ den pei wen~~ scary ar~~ top part of the hair is copper brown n the bottom is GREEN!! oh man~~
yup~~ pei pei is attached!!! to a guy call darren~ haha.. got fu qi lian sia~~~second date den went take pic le wor~~ so so sweet!!! kekeke.e....
yup~~ went eat den went to take neoprint!! so so nice!!!!!!! fun machine too~~ got nice nice ppl in the nice nice fotos.. CHIO BU!!! kekeke....
yup!! nice day!
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
mystic knots
yes!! come back to some happy stuff.. my darling got me a jade pendant for my xmas.. but as a punishment for not being able to be with him for the xmas, he wanna me to guess what is it first b4 i can get it. he gave me clues...
here comes...
Hint 1:
Representing endless n countles ups n downs, happiness and sadness we gonna go through in the future. seeing u either on one end of the other or even beside,
Hint 2:
It might not worth as priceless as diamond but it might not worth as priceless as a penny.
Hint 3:
Never untie it, never tie it. Let it be what it meant to be.
Hint 4:
The key to happiness n sadness.
Hint 5:
Given u a Jack fruit, Apple, Durian, give me a fruit STARTING with E.
Yup.. that was all the clue even. he also told me it's something start with 2 words starting with M n K. yup.
after hours of struggling.. 4 hours if i m not wrong. i manage to get a close to it ans where i said it is a jade, a mysterious knots. In actual fact is a Mystic Knot made of jade. yup!!! nice nice wor... looks trendy too... and it is nto that cheap sia.. all i know is more than 60 bucks. but dont know actual price~
thanks DARLING!! i juz love it!!
here comes...
Hint 1:
Representing endless n countles ups n downs, happiness and sadness we gonna go through in the future. seeing u either on one end of the other or even beside,
Hint 2:
It might not worth as priceless as diamond but it might not worth as priceless as a penny.
Hint 3:
Never untie it, never tie it. Let it be what it meant to be.
Hint 4:
The key to happiness n sadness.
Hint 5:
Given u a Jack fruit, Apple, Durian, give me a fruit STARTING with E.
Yup.. that was all the clue even. he also told me it's something start with 2 words starting with M n K. yup.
after hours of struggling.. 4 hours if i m not wrong. i manage to get a close to it ans where i said it is a jade, a mysterious knots. In actual fact is a Mystic Knot made of jade. yup!!! nice nice wor... looks trendy too... and it is nto that cheap sia.. all i know is more than 60 bucks. but dont know actual price~
thanks DARLING!! i juz love it!!
oh no!! i'm possessive
! i'm possesive ! how how how?? ok.. there it goes...
coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers
darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.
den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.
they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~
wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.
TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!
ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.
coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers
darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.
den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.
they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~
wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.
TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!
ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.
WONDERFUL NEW YEAR EVE!!!
i had a greatest new yr eve tis yr!!!! best of all!! why? go my darling by my side, few of my bestest fren that i ever have in life by my side moving on from 2005 to 2006!!! thanks to wan ping, gui jin, shi min and DAR DAR! they spent the new year eve with me!!!
friday nite dar stayed over at my hse, den we went over to his hse to get some stuff of his den move off to wan ping's hse at abt 5.30pm or so. we met guijin, shi min and gui pei(gj's sis) at farrer park mrt at 6.30pm. kekekee... made dar dar wore same t shirt as me~ hahha.. we both wore mickey mouse giodarno that yellow t shirt with jeans. hahah.. feeling so pai seh, funny, yet cool on the way.. haahaa.. but upon reaching farrer park, we realise we arent the only pair wearing couple clothes. hahhaa.. sm n gj also nehx!! kekeek... laughing our way., kekekee
we;re the first batch of frenz that reach wp's hse~~ realising that wp's bf not there n not gg to go~ we were so so angry!!! but what can we do? haiz.. dont know what happened between them too~ juz feel that he change so so much~~ anyway, change topic~~
we were there for the buffet, obviously i cant eat, so juz ate watermelon. kekeke.. den poor dar dar juz ate vege only... after the meal we went back to ping's rm. Uncle got us a bottle of red wine n they satart drinking in the rm. i tot red wine is fine, not very high alcoholic content. so they juz drank happily. after the first bottle, they return the empty bottle n uncle gave them another.. so here comes the second one. ping brought in her laptop n show us some funny indian guy's comedy show~~ i kinda bad in eng la~~ so quite a lot cant catch, still need darling to explain while laughing.
soon after the show ended, jin started to feel giddy n all.. so scary sia~~ first time see ppl got drank. she felt terrible so started crying.. scared me~ den after tat start talking stuff, den start laughing non stop. it was so contagious that i started laughing till my tummy so pain sia~~ hahaa... den after that she started talking words right from her heart that she has been hiding.. i cried upon hearing those stuff.. she seems to feel so terrible.. poor ger~~
after that we had a count down outside. keke.. we missed the count down actually. till ppl say happy new yr den we know count down over. missed the fireworks too!!! saded. but nvm~ got jin, ping, n darling by my side!!!
after that we went back to ping's rm, jin felt sleepy so she went to slp, sm was there with her, darling went missing... after that came back though. both sm n jin sleeping, dar also slept. pei dont know what to do also sit down there. den i went down all alone to look for ping lor.. she was there playing majong with her frenz. me? dont know how to play, juz sit down there doing nth. after that pei came down also looks bored n dont know what to do~ den dar came down. watch the soccer, den see them playing majong.
after the neighbouring table ppl left n jin they all came down, we start playing majong. hahhaa.. dont know how to play. anyhow hum tum. hahhahja.. quite fun! first time touching majong! hahaha.. so cool!!! know a bit bit now~ kekekee....
den we left. coz late le.. took cab back. great day!!!! all thanks to WAN PING< GUI JIN< GUI PEI< SHI MIN< AND < DARLING!!!!
friday nite dar stayed over at my hse, den we went over to his hse to get some stuff of his den move off to wan ping's hse at abt 5.30pm or so. we met guijin, shi min and gui pei(gj's sis) at farrer park mrt at 6.30pm. kekekee... made dar dar wore same t shirt as me~ hahha.. we both wore mickey mouse giodarno that yellow t shirt with jeans. hahah.. feeling so pai seh, funny, yet cool on the way.. haahaa.. but upon reaching farrer park, we realise we arent the only pair wearing couple clothes. hahhaa.. sm n gj also nehx!! kekeek... laughing our way., kekekee
we;re the first batch of frenz that reach wp's hse~~ realising that wp's bf not there n not gg to go~ we were so so angry!!! but what can we do? haiz.. dont know what happened between them too~ juz feel that he change so so much~~ anyway, change topic~~
we were there for the buffet, obviously i cant eat, so juz ate watermelon. kekeke.. den poor dar dar juz ate vege only... after the meal we went back to ping's rm. Uncle got us a bottle of red wine n they satart drinking in the rm. i tot red wine is fine, not very high alcoholic content. so they juz drank happily. after the first bottle, they return the empty bottle n uncle gave them another.. so here comes the second one. ping brought in her laptop n show us some funny indian guy's comedy show~~ i kinda bad in eng la~~ so quite a lot cant catch, still need darling to explain while laughing.
soon after the show ended, jin started to feel giddy n all.. so scary sia~~ first time see ppl got drank. she felt terrible so started crying.. scared me~ den after tat start talking stuff, den start laughing non stop. it was so contagious that i started laughing till my tummy so pain sia~~ hahaa... den after that she started talking words right from her heart that she has been hiding.. i cried upon hearing those stuff.. she seems to feel so terrible.. poor ger~~
after that we had a count down outside. keke.. we missed the count down actually. till ppl say happy new yr den we know count down over. missed the fireworks too!!! saded. but nvm~ got jin, ping, n darling by my side!!!
after that we went back to ping's rm, jin felt sleepy so she went to slp, sm was there with her, darling went missing... after that came back though. both sm n jin sleeping, dar also slept. pei dont know what to do also sit down there. den i went down all alone to look for ping lor.. she was there playing majong with her frenz. me? dont know how to play, juz sit down there doing nth. after that pei came down also looks bored n dont know what to do~ den dar came down. watch the soccer, den see them playing majong.
after the neighbouring table ppl left n jin they all came down, we start playing majong. hahhaa.. dont know how to play. anyhow hum tum. hahhahja.. quite fun! first time touching majong! hahaha.. so cool!!! know a bit bit now~ kekekee....
den we left. coz late le.. took cab back. great day!!!! all thanks to WAN PING< GUI JIN< GUI PEI< SHI MIN< AND < DARLING!!!!
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