busy~~

yes... my school started till now is about 3 wks. kinda getting busier. got lots of things i wanna do yet cant and lots of ppl i wanna meet yet cant. Hereby i wanna say i'm sorry to lots of ppl. Firstly, sorry ning that i really yet to find a gd time to meet up with u n have a great catch up with things that u've missed n i've miss. Sorry to tian ying (srjc) whom i've yet to celebrate ur bday with. Sorry to daddy mummy that i actually dont have much time for u guys except for weekends. Sorry to darling as our meeting time really change alot since last time.

Worse thing now is.. i think i'm gonna be more busy with the next up commitment in hall, 13th JCRC main com. Yes, i'm running JCRC soon. hopefully can be a smooth one. though a bit hiccups here n there, but hopefully there isnt anyone bearing any grudges against anyone. everything is a new experience for me. though i use to be the assistant band major, yet i havent really run or work in a com with no assistance from higher authority. yes. so is very new, very fresh n i believe i will learn alot from it.

darling came to ntu on monday and really surprise me! that was a pleasant surprise. However, it didnt end with a high note. this is becoz he felt kinda inferior. i can understand how he feel as he knows no one here. not a single person. other den my roomie of course. so.. kinda.. i felt bad pulling him along to the IBG too.. coz.. i wasnt able to accompany him. he was sitting there all alone. can see the change in him slowly. i know he is unhappy, or feeling lousy, but i dont know what to do to cheer him up. really dont know. everytime i'll feel very lost when it comes to cheering him up.

even today when i meet up with him. we talked normally, walk around den he sent me back to hall. everything seems normal but i can feel something different, very slight different. he seems not so happy yet he dont want to make me worry or to dampen my mood so he was trying hard to stay happy. thanks darling for trying so hard. it's hard on u.

actually, i do feel a little unhappy abt he feeling inferior. coz to me, studying in Uni is not everything. even if i was motivated to move on to uni is just becoz that i want to prove to ppl that i can make it to uni. i can live without a uni cert. if not becoz he keep pushing me n motivating me.. i might have have a sit in NTU today. yet, now he is feeling inferior. kinda unfair to me as it is his wish to see me in uni, yet he feel inferior of me being a undergrad now. kinda confuse of what he actually want from me.

BUT, come to think of it.. not his fault either, is the society, the world. the recognition given to the A4 size paper is so high that everyone thinks highly of it and judge ppl with that. it is a STUPID way of judging ppl as studying is not everything in life. MOST knowledge is acquired in other forms not from just schools. we learnt most at work, how to deal with ppl, how to deal with politics, how to work with the max efficiency, how to let ppl understand whatever u are trying to propose, all this hands on stuff is nth u can learn from school. maybe can learn them when u are running com for a project, however, not all have the chance for all that. Hence, in order to perform best at work, cert is not the Major thing to look at but experience, the wit of the employee, the capability. though certain job need certain knowledge from text books, but most of the things u cannot purely just stick to the text book.

So, what's the big deal of being a undergrad, it's just another learning process.

darling, soon u will be moving into a uni, studying ur degree, studying ur honest, so i dont see why must u feel inferior. true, i will nv get the exact feeling u have, but like u say, no matter where u were from, as long as u are gd there isnt a need to be afraid that u will not be recognise one day. i'm really afraid that the inferior feeling in u will cause a gap in our relationship, if really that i'll lose u becoz i'm in ntu now... (though i know is kinda silly to say the following but i really feel that way.) no point for me getting into the uni. i'm here for our future. (of course to make my parents proud of me too!)