sunshine after the rain

it's a sunshine after the rain. darling promise me that he will change for the better for my sake. i take his promise n will stand by him as far as he is willing to go~~ thanks darling.

dar~ the upcoming year i will be busy. i will spend as much time as i have with u. pls do support me for all i do. no need u to take all stuff happily but at least respect what i m doing and be there for me whenever i need. i m very clear abt what i m doin and what i will be going thru. might be a tough year but i know it will be a fruitful one.

i couldnt get into xing n strum. kinda sad. but there is a production for our hall too. very excited abt it and hopefully i can be able to perform for it. as it is in chinese, i'm very confident in my chi too~~ hope i can be gd man. hahaha... and hopefully dar can support me!!! ur support wins the rest~ yeah!

had i hurt him?

i dont know what to do now. his temper is getting kinda out of control. i dont know. i really love him. but what can i do? i dont want him to keep feeling unhappy or upset yet i dont know what to do. ever since i joined jcrc, everything goes down hill for the both of us. does that mean i wont have a valentine next year? i dont know.

i know i shouldnt doubt his love for me.. but i just wonder why guys n gers are so different. girls can do anything n sacrifice anything in a relationship but why cant the guys do the same too? does it mean they love their partner less n love themself more? i dont know....

as bad as his condition is now. i m also lost and dont know what to do. on one side i really dont want to leave him. on the other side i hope i can take up my responsibility and work to the fullest in jcrc. either i let go or him or just screwed up my jcrc work. i dont know. haiz~~

lost in the wonder land. no more tears, no more mood, in order not to let ppl worry for me, i have to cheer up. life~~ this is life~~ experience that no one else will be able to know the exact dilema that i m gg thru, due to different character n priority in life.