confuse

this saturday is dnd.. kinda excited yet kinda down.

excited becuase this is my very first time to dnd. ppl all will be glam n nice. hopefully i wont be the only underdress one. kinda scare to go as i kinda no figure. haha.. thought the expenses are kinda ex. but i m on budget route. hence, all in all i havent hit 100bucks! hahaa... got a nice dress online. yeah. just nice fitting. lucky.

haix.. den down because my dar is kinda down for me gg for dnd instead of go petshop with him. true that i agreed to help out in pet shop n in the end i go dnd. kinda bad. but i've got no choice as i'm in JCRC.

actually kinda down lately. since i'm in uni, dar dar seems to have kinda bad mood swing. can be happy at a point when i'm with him yet kinda down n moody when i'm not or when he knows that i cant be with him. hai... i also dont know how to make him happy all the time. only hope that he can understand my situation more. so so scare that we might because of my pack schedule now n break.

today i'm so so happy. so happy!! because dar kissed me at the forehead when he left. so sweet n so nice~~ really love it. today is our 1 yr 2months. yeah!! so so happy!!! we've come so far. hopefully can go further n forever. dar... really hope that u can understand me n trust me till the end. though i'm busy u are still in my heart. u are nv a substitute in my life. so dont say "go busy with ur stuff. when u are free then come n look for me." sound so much like like u feel that u are a substitute. u arent!! u are the first!