friendship

yesterday talked out with ning. yeah.. i kinda neglected the friendship...

dont know.. i know my fault. i too zhong se qing you. all i think is my darling n others will be rank second. be it my family, my friends, my money, my work, my studies. i know that's kinda extreme.. but i guess that's who i am. i trying hard to balance between darling n others but kinda hard. coz i really love him alot. maybe i should really strike a balance so that if one day he's not around or maybe one day he doesnt want me.. that's kinda impossible i guess.. kekee... i'll not be alone. yeah man~

seriously, now my life is only him. i dont know is it the right thing, but i juz goes with my heart. no matter what happened in the future, i nv regret that i love him whole heartedly before. YES! i'll nv. becoz with him i learnt alot. i'm growing up.. still in the process but i believe i m growing up. though no longer the goodie goodie me.. but i dont think that's anything bad either becoz i didnt turn that bad either. hahaha.. yeah man...

today went for a class, religious class, suppose to end at 11pm, but it ended earlier. ya.. told darling kinda last min. coz i dont know how to let him know i'm gg. he kinda reluctant n unhappy when i told him that i'll be involve in any sorts of religious stuff. yup. so.. was thinking whole day how not to anger him yet can go for the class. in the end, i still upset him. he said i didnt discuss with him at all. since i've decided, no point telling him n ask him not to be angry. true enough. i should respect him more n ask for his opinion way before. he asked me why i want to go. i dont know. simply becoz i feel like gg. though i'm no longer the goodie mummy's girl, but i still have my belief in my religion. that's all i can say. yup. hope he'll understand it one day n support me instead.

friday is coming. counting down for our one year!! counting down for the fun interesting wkend. counting down to the days of freedom...