oh no!! i'm possessive

! i'm possesive ! how how how?? ok.. there it goes...

coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers

darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.

den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.

they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~

wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.

TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!

ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.