dream

why snakes always come into my dream?

i got a dream today.. abt snakes again.. terrible.. always haf bad dreams on snakes. really suspect that i kill a whole lots of snakes in one of my previous yrs, n they cant do anything to me this yr. so they disturb me in my dreams.. hai.. okie here it goes...

i dreamt that i was out with my sis, to some jungle area or wat so ever la. den dunno how n dunno why, i fell into a very deep trap i guess. den is very very muddy in there. den i saw lots of snake. REALLY ALOT! den is so disgusting n scary la.. i'm really SCARED of snakes lor. den is like i was trying to move out of the place. but is so wet n muddy that it really makes it very hard for me to move. den i was moving ard in that area n seems like there is a way as in a "underpass" to somewhere. so trying to escape i went in deeper la.. den land up in a dead end, where there's a way out only if i m able to climb up la.. ya. den all i saw is snakes of all shape n size n all types de la.. they are like very fierce lor. trying to dunno scare me or get me or wat. den one of which in front of me is VERY BIG! only can see the head lor and really dunno where it ends. ya. den think i got hold of some. without me knowing why. den the rest of the snake ard me was very angry with me i think coz i killed their "frenz" den they were like wanna kill me la.. but somehow it seems like i m protected by something or they are block by a layer of glass or wat so ever i can see them clearly as they could too but yet they cant do anything to me lor.. den i think my sis come to my rescue n the place is drying up too den i think i escape le.. or wat la.. den move scene le. move to me "waking" up in my dreams telling my mum abt it. n she said maybe i m somehow or rather related to them ba.. i guess so too... duno la...
that's all abt my scary dreams which seems kinda adventurous here rather den scary. haha.. coz u cant see the scary reaction of the snake.

now abt today. ya.. tot KT will kill me.. but she turns out to be rather nice today. yup. den today had lots of lectures la.. maths chem n wat so ever. den cla. we had our cla lesson "outdoor" today. haha.. is like we wanna haf an early lesson so that we can end early today lor. went to look for our teacher but he was preparing notes so cant start early lor. but he still came earlier den normal in the end la. he told us that wed is our grad, by right we haf to go.. by left. he dunno. haha... but he say my fren YM n i muz go. tot wat happened. den he say coz i top in CLA n YM got the most improve in CLA. so we haf to go. haha.. so surprise. tot will be the china guy or the hong kong one get it.. maybe they are foreigner so they nv gif them. haha.. dunno la.. or they haf other top le? haha.. dunno la.. very happy le! kekekee. yeah!! more motivation to move on le!!!

wat m i gonna do??

hai.. really duno wat m i gonna do? today nv go sch coz i over slept. den today think like got alot of things happened la. hai... dunno la.. is like.. our gp teacher said those we got worse den a D7 will haf to go see her den might kena kick out by her. hai. den i damn sad lor.. is like i m one of them la.. den our maths teacher oso say twice that he is worried abt me. hai.. i noe this time my maths got a little problem la.. i juz nv study lor. i noe i can do or not de la.. i noe wat to do de lor.. den i oso dunno how to face him. think i quite bad to him la.. i din mean it but juz realise this wk those days that i nv go sch are the days with his period la.. i din notice that only when my fren told me den i noe lor... hai.. dunno la... really feel very pressurise by the teachers. i noe wat i m doin n i really did try to do sth abt it le.. dunno la.. hai... can i juz heck care abt all stuff.. really feel like escaping from this world. feel like escaping from everything. i noe this is not the way to do stuff.. but i really need sometime to myself n not being pressurise by all teachers. i duno. i noe they meant to be gd. i noe they haf gd intentions. but.. i really dunno wat to do... where m i now? at a place that i dunno where i m heading towards. i m really dunno doin wat. i suddenly feel like quiting sch n juz get into society to work. i noe this is not the way to deal with all this problems. but.. i'm really scared. i'm really dunno how to face all the teachers.. i muz mug now.. i really muz.. but.. i really feeling so damn down now.. how? who can help me? who can save me? m i really haf to face all this alone? i seems strong.. but i really feel that i m damn weak now.. im damn vulnerable now. really dunno wat now? in a maze? at the junction of a rd. i'm lost. anyone by my side? ALOT! but who really can help me? none i guess... i haf to face all things alone in the end still...

sad?? i dunno

hmm.. today i mean now i kinda down suddenly. liking a person is real sucky. is like u will be very much be affected by them. juz little act they can make u damn happy n oso coz of little act u will be very very sad. hai.. juz like now la!! hai....

yesterday coz of a little testimonial.. i was really damn happy lor.. tot i m the only one get a testi for him. den kinda expected that he will write for another ger la.. den din see coz she haven check her testi. den now.. hai.. coz of a little testi that i tot i only haf.. hai.. is like i noe she oso has one le la.. den now.. i sad sad liao.. kinda wu liao i noe.. but juz sad lor.. ya...