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lots of questions has been gg thru my mind. alot!! but yet i dunno i really duno how to solve them.. den kinda stress recently with my A's. actually i really dunno how to tackle it. all i can do is juz think far n think ahead. i really not in the mood of study le.. see the family state now.. my sis is damn sick for the pass few days. actually is really nth. she juz sprain her leg a little. den she blow up the thing n went to see doc twice. dunno is subconciously she wants the attention n care from my parents or wat. she juz blow the things till very big lor. den after that duno that stupid doc gave her wat medicine. she ate it had a bad diarrhoea n keep throwin out wateva she ate. real bad. den suddenly become damn skinny. yesterday juz went to see doc again. n the doc say she kena stomach infection or sth like dat lor. kinda bad. but today beta le. though happy for her la.. but she damn irritating lor. today i look more sick den her n yet i have to do all the things all the hse work n all she does is sit in front of the tv n laugh. worst still is she is a patient!!! i cant say anything. juz haf to swallow everything down i guess.

being a ger.. juz feels that being a ger is really a torture. we are expected to be gd with hse work n helpl. we are expected to stay at home whenever needed. we are expected to accept all the torture that comes along (menstrual cramps, giving birth.. etc) that we haf no choice in!! we haf to do hse work even if we are working outside. arent the world working towards equality?? but y are there still gender stereotypes?? hai.. i cant blame ppl for that coz i m stereotyping genders too. hai.. coz the society is like dat. being a ger haf to be more conservative n demure. cant go for the person u like, even if u do.. the person might not like u n even if u two get tog. u wun get ur happiness. this is the world today. really wonderin will there be a day that gers will be the one in control of everything. wonder wat will happen if one day gers become like a guy n guys become like gers?? as in... instead of guys gg for ger n gers waiting to be loved, the gers will be the one choosing who they want n the guys only can wait to be loved try get all ways n means to get the attention of the person they like n yet they cant tell how they feel. wonder wat will it be like when the gers will be in control in a family n after work will juz wait for meals to be serve n enjoy while the guys haf rush home to prepare meals, to do all the hse work. wondering.....