16th month Anniversary

yes! today is the 16th month anniversary. and here i am doing my assignments my presentation. yesterday went over to ai ai house. thinking that we can maybe have a good time together then till 12am i can pass him the stars that i've made for him using straws. Yet before the clock strike 12, he was so tired and once he got onto the bed he just slept. haiz...

then, i tot i can just put the bottle in his room leaving a note there wishing him happy 16th month. yet i forgot in the end. then i gave it to him. He didnt ask why i give, didnt say much. just a thank u and kept in his bag. Haiz...

kinda feel like a fool trying to spend some time together with him on this special day yet nothing seems to be working out. maybe i m just asking for too much stuff. maybe i m just too sensitive. maybe i am just too vex due to all my assignments and the oncoming exAM. I am just so so unhappy. I thought he might come and maybe accompany me a while. Maybe just an hour having dinner together. Maybe just sitting down beside me talk to me a while give me a goodbye kiss then off he go. I'll also be very satisfied. Maybe i just initiate too many times telling him to meet when i feel like it or when it's a special day that he dont see the need of suggesting anything. Or maybe 16 months has passed and he dont see the need of taking this day as a very special day already. haix... mood swing? pms? i dont know.

maybe he is just too sick to think of all this. he hasnt been well for the past few days. fever, cold, cough. haix.. shouldnt be expecting much from him. He has been real nice to me already. Complementing on my hair, come to wait for me at the coffee shop and intend to have dinner together there ytd night.

i must learn to be contented with what i have.