outing sunday!!!

today is a very casual day. love it.. slow pace n everything is in our control, no rush no disturbance, no phone call no msges really cool man... dont know he got anot la.. but i have nothing to disturb my wonderful time with the special person. =)

morning abt 9.45am den wake up. shiok man. den after that relax till abt 11+ den we head off to china town.. after doin the zhen jiu thingy, den we move off to search for the dunno where fish shop in china town.. hahaha... he very funny sia.. so so lucky.. juz walk a distance den found lehz.. but best thing is.. NOT OPEN TODAY!! hahahhaa... n it's JUST FOR TODAY!! kekeke... *giggle*

which we den move on for lunch... went to one very class very zen (to me) very posh de lehz!!! ya.. nice nice.. thought very ex, but still affordable.. at least he still can use his cash in his wallet n no need to use the VISA. kekeke... i ate jap ramen den he ate fried rice.. WAH!! the fried rice is .. wooo... drool... very very very nice lehz.. smells gd, taste gd, looks not bad too.kekeke... drank pu er, ate siew mai ate xia jiao.. NICE!!! wahahaha.. i think xia jiao ok la.. but the siew mai nice nice wor... yup.. reach there at abt 1++ we sit there talk n eat till 3.30 lehz!! pro hor?? i also think so.. hahah.. first time!!!! wahahaha...

next we took bus down to behind taka's bus stop. hahah.. first time walk ard the back of that orchard area. kinda cool n different feeling.. very relaxing very casual.. very LANG MAN!! cox got dar dar.. =P *ping dan zhi zhong zhi zhao yi xie xie lang man~~~* hehehee.. den we went to borders.. read lots of books there sia.. found lots of interesting books.. like those art books, teach ppl how to draw, den those graphic design stuff, interior design, feng shui, astrology.. etc.. lots lots ar... sit there till abt 6++ den walk down to park mall check out that nice nice water fall thingy and the fish tank coffee table. cool~~ which then move on to our actual destination, PS. went there to check out the price of the sole which can correct the flat feet problem.

ps dont have bus back home.. so.. we walked... walk till the new CATHAY.. BIG!! nice!!! how i wish i can go there juz watch ONE movie.. wah~~ nice place man!!! yeah... my net dating dream~~ kekeke.. *hint hint* den from there walk till art museum.. took pictures.. den walk all the way till BUGIS AR!! first time that i actually walked from orchard to bugis sia!!! denise genius record sia.. kekekee... took some pic at national library too.. took 80 back home from there.. reach home at abt 9++ almost 10. COOL man!!! busy day?? casual day?? GREAT OUTING DAY!!! =) =D

I GOT INTO NTU!!!

yeah!! i can go uni le~~ so so so happy!! first time in my whole life sia~~ though all also once in a lifetime la~~ hahah but really happy lo.. cause is my second try. hahaha.. very long nv blog le hor? hahaha... yeah.. com got problem n all ma.. now darling bought a new laptop... so i can use lor.. kekeke.. nice lehz.. twin head pearl white de.. i also wanna get this..

yeah.. so so many things to update.. but think also cant update le la. haha.. shall start from today again!!! yeah....

today went tuition in the morning at 10am. till abt 11.30am den teach the younger boy.. wah~~ he attitude me ar~~ actually only teach him maths de... den the mother says his chinese also not gd.. ask me to teach also... so i took up the challenge for the sake of money hahahaha... yup n teach him lor... starting he juz do his work den say can dun tuition chinese notx.. i said u asked ur dad lor.. not me... den as time passes, he started to be restless, keep gg toilet n this n that.. den keep refusing to learn chinese. when one hr passed n time to have chinese tuition den he throw tantrum this n that cry n make lots of noise of not wanting to learn chinese... actually i was quite pissed initially, but come to think of it he also quite poor thing, so i talk to him coax him to settle down this n that den start the lesson proper. by the time, 20min already pass le~~ den he started to cooperate a bit n reading thru passages.. that was like cool~~ he smiled again le!!! hahahahaa... sense of achievement!! kekeke....

den after that rush down to marilyn's place for tuition this n that.. got to realise she actually got the chance to go mediacorp to join a press conference with the campus superstar ng chee yang. hahaha.. took photo with him too... in the end got to write a report n couldnt think of things to write. hahaha..took almost 1 hr to help her complete the thing.

den came back home for dinner.. n now dar dar like so so tired.. sleeping beside me.. suppose to go gym, abt to rain le.. n he like sound asleep le.. dont know if we still gg anot..

oh ya!!! recently went to see doctor abt my leg pain problem. den he said i got flat feet and is abnormal feet. den i tot is those one in a million kind of thing den realise is alot of ppl also have it. he said the pain will still be there no matter what, unless i go for an op to correct the leg. haix.. dont know lehz.. sounds scary but i want to jump n run abt without pain... yet if the op like got any problem or what den in the end i cant even walk how?? but the doctor say i still cant do the op, must wait till at least 2 yrs later.. the op is abt 2.5 hrs long, will be on caste for 6 wks, 3 months to be able to recover from the op and around 2 years to actually able to be fully recovered as in no problem in walking n all.. ya lor.. scary hor? dont know lehz.. trying to find other ways to stop the pain first.. =(

yeah.. abt my love life.. it's getting better i should say, coz i love him deeper n he loves me more too~~ kekekeke... ah!! cant wait to get married. hhahahahha.. cant wait to go uni... cant wait to move on in life~~ yeah!!!

Aerospace 2006!!!

oh gosh oh jesus!! i was able to go for the areospace this yr!!! so cool!! i can see like engines so so big in front of me~~!!! the big new A380 flying in the air doing tricks that they'll nv ever do again!!! oh man! den can see nice nice planes, helicopter n all!! getting nice door gifts n etc. that's so cool n great. the jet planes was like turning 360 degrees soo fast n cool which den will juz fly up high into the sky... den at the max height, it juz fly down like a free fall.. wow!!!!! cool isnt it???

great experience.. more to come tml!!! photo taking session. all thanks to olive's digi cam!! thanks ger!! i'll show u sia!!!

v day!!!

MY FIRST VALENTINE"S DAY WITH A VALENTINE!!!
keke... though it wasnt so romantic thta ppl use to dream abt, not fairy tale like de... no flowers, no bear, yet.. it's the best i've gone through, coz i got the one that i love most beside me~~
i was trying very very hard to make a cross stitch for him on a cushion cover. but in the end couldnt finish. so sad!!!! haix... but he didnt mind la~~ he got me a pair of shoes. nice nice~~ ekekee..

ok~~ met him at 6pm. we went parkway walk walk. i brought the necklace that he got me for a little repairment. coz i scare spoil. den walk ard. went to starbucks n drink coffee n eat cakes. kekee.. n that cute boy actually told me he plan to propose to me next yr vday. he said he'll post an entry to new paper asking "will u marry me?". den send me a sms hinting me where he'll be. den he'll wait there for 3 hrs for me~~ if i go means yes, otherwise will be a no. haha.. den i told him i'll let him wait till the 3rd hr den i'll appear. hahaha.. den he says he'll bring his own entertainment and wait there with the diamond ring n a bouquet of flower~ kekeke.. cute hor? so sweet hor? i sure to cut out that article on the new paper n keep for life de~~

after that we juz walk ard, shop the book stores.. look out for stuff.. cook books and all.. den he send me home le~~

though it's so much so like juz a normal outing, yet it's meaningful to me~~ coz he said, actually to me i dont take valentine as any meaningful function, coz to us everyday is valentine's day~~
so sweet hor?? hahahaa.... LOVE U DARLING!!!!!!

...

now? mood not so gd. why? haix.. little tiny winy stuff. i'm bad~ very bad~~ couldnt control myself. juz so so possessive. cannot make it is the overall great remark i have for myself. yup! hate myself!! suckx. juz suckx. my problem yet i keep putting it like is his fault. like it's her fault. but it all lies in me~ yup~ i'm a sinner. unforgivable sinner~~

NiTe OuT!!!

yeah!! 4th feb 2006~~ the best day i ever have!! why?? hahaha... great nite out party!! wahahah... not really a party la~~ but i enjoye myself!!

dar n i met gj n sm at bugis ctrl station t 8pm.. haha.. we kinda late, so met them at abt 8.15pm. kekee... after which i brought them to eat the vegetarian pasta!!! wahahahaa.... no more pasta.. so sad.. in the end dar able to get a bake pasta den i ate spaghetti n jin ate bake rice! keke.. oh.. sm bake rice too.. different flavour de!!

abt 9pm we met wp n wy outside shaw tower n off we head to paulaner!! the first pub that i ever went!! wow!! that was like great sia!!!!!! sat there, listen to songs n music, chill out. chit chat.. learnt how to play bridge.. taught by sm. hahaha.. den gj, sm, dom drank 1 litre beer n wp n wy drank half a litre. scary sia~~ in the end... jin got drank again!! hahaha.. twice that she got drank all when i was ard. hahahahaa...

wp n wy left the grp earlier at abt 12 when we move on to esplanade for a walk. so left the 4 of us. gj was kinda cmi(cannot make it) so sm got to hold her whereever we go. den sm suggested that he wanna piggy back her.. den darling also join the the fun n piggy back me!! wahahaha.. best sia... so fun so cool!! love it~~ he's strong sia!!! hahaha... dar den bought her a cup of tea n got her to drink it. it was so ex n so sweet. den sm brought gj to the ladies leaving both of us there.. it's so cool n nice.. we took a few fotos one of which is so sweet n nice!! i love it!!! den they came back... gj rest a while n all den got better. but she looked tired. so after some food n drink we decided to go home.

took the cab when we only left with $13.10. haha.. in the end got home is 15 bucks. so i went up to take money n returned it to the driver.. reached home at abt 2+am so cool man!! the smell of freedom is great!!!

wahaha.. btw, wy also piggy back wp!! haha.. such a coincidence!!! whehehe... coz he was trying to make her happy after a trash out. hahhaaa... nice one!!! the 3 ai renx rox!!!!

new year!!

busy new year with not enough slp!! hahahaa.. bai nian n all...
went teachers' hse bai nian, went sm's hse bai nian, met dom's mummy n went k box together as a bai nian activity. hahaa... cool right?? n had a mid night bai nian activity!!! wahhhaa... so fun n so cool!!! enjoyed alot though not enough slp! kekekee....
yeah!! lots of details to fill in.. shall do it when i have more energy to!! =D

gj bday celebration!!!!

yoz yoz!! it's gj's bday celebration!!! n on this very day dar dar gave me my 6 MONTH pressie!!! soooo soooo sooo sooo sooo nice!!!! wahahahahahaa...... guess what he gave?? he asked me to guess too.. hint? combinations of 2 ears. hahahaa... hard?? it's a HEART SHAPE!! hehehe... n so.. what's the other word for round?? RING!!!!! kekee... didnt manage to catch the second one but he gave me the pressie!! though in between there is a small unhappiness.. small one i really hope.. in the end was a great day, great pressie!! oh ya~~ still havent say is what... it's a HEART SHAPE DIAMOND RING!!!! oh man!!! cool right??? i love it! it's attached to this heart shape thing that is attached to a spring like thingy that pops up. den is attached to a box with me first month suppose to give present inside!!! so nice nice!!!!!!!!!!

kk.. back to jin's bday! as usual.. i gave her a GREAT SURPRISE!! bought a small cake with a fila bag for her.. shared by wan ping, wen yao, dom n me~~ kekeke.e.. so happy that she like it! haha...made a mess outside starbucks of that suntec branch. keke.. den her sis gui pei n her gang came too.. funny bunch of ppl. took alot of couples photos. ekekee... with dar dar only n also with the other 2 couples namely sm n gj, wp n wy. yup!!!

after which we went food court to eat. the reason being KIAN HUAT DONT EAT VEGE!!! N I DONT EAT MEAT!! hahahaa... which makes it difficult to go to any restaurant or what to eat. kekeke... had our food, den went on to pay POOL!! 2nd time trying to play pool!! better at it le! kekeke.. so nice wor~~ it's actually quite fun. met some sec sch dislike b**** there. yup. n since this day, i became SM's most hated person because gj i my LAO GONG!! hahaha.. i hugged her hold her hands n all that he felt "jealous" n keep asking me weird qns n all.. stupid right? hahhaa...

after which we went home... kekee...

great day!!!

*shame shame*

the weekends!!

saturday was a busy day!! yes... early in the morning woke up abt 8++am trying hard hard to wake darling up becoz i got to go to send in my time sheet!! no time sheet no $$ kekeke... after which we met xiu hui at hougang mall at 11.15am or so to do some marketing.. it's cooking day!! hahaha.. we went her house to teach her to whip up some simple dishes. bought long beans, lotus, peanuts, xiao bai cai, and a kind of mock meat. yup yup. went to her house to do some preparation, rest a while, tied her hair nice nice for her.. keke.e.. listen to some songs, chill out a bit den went straight off to bernard's hse for rehearsal for our youth class. that was the funny one when thry rehearse their sketch n all.. hahaha.. i was juz an audience laughing my way.
at abt 4+pm, we go xiu hui hse n start the cooking lesson. everything was fine n nice till the rice was done! we found out that we put too much water n the rice turn out to be kinda too soft. still edible though. kekeke... after dinner went for a religious class n off we go heading home. dar dar was so so tired.. said wanna watch incredible but in the end both of us was juz so tired den didnt watch. kekeke...

sunday!! woke up at 8++ around 9 am as usual. haix.. wanna slp more de~~ juz couldnt stay in bed, so juz woke up , wash up n had my chee chong fan for breakfast. after which we watched bewitched. keke.. nice funny show. sweet too!!! had chee chong fan for lunch too.. den head off straight to youth class.. keke.. today's half an hour session suppose to be conducted by me la~ was so so so so so nervous that i actually finish off everything within 15 min. OH MAN!! such a failure. but happy that everything ended.. hpe next time will be a better one~ yup!!!
gor gor, xiu hui, mei hui, darling n i went for dinner together!! gor gor got car!! hahaha.. so got transport there n back.went lao di fang to eat. 55 bucks in total. gor gor trat 50 bucks, darling chip in the rest. kekee... nice food. i like the thousand island prawn so so nice~~ kekee... den cuttle fish ball was a challenge. hahahaa...coz dar dar cant use chopstick keke.. poke here poke there, the cuttlefish balls juz fly all over. hahahaa... n everyone was shock by his great appetite. 3 bowls of rice! hahahaa... then we went on to shop around at suntec. coz mei hui wanna get the doraemon key chain that she saw on gor gor's car! hahaha... shop ard n was fun!!
den when we abt to go home, den i was kinda alone when gor gor talked to xiu hui n darling was trying to open the box with the doraemon. den i looked into the "mirror" den suddenly realise why i have such low self esteem n feeling so insecure. becoz i juz dont feel compatible enough with dar dar.. so juz look ard kept quiet. felt that i look so so BIG while he looks so small. i juz not good enough for him, dont really feel that i'm up to his standard. den darling walked over tot i felt jealous or what. den i told him all that n he was trying hard to assure me that he dont feel that way n all. i KNOW. really.. i know he loves me alot. i juz wanna look more compatible to him so that i feel gd standing beside him being proud of myself when he ever intro me to his frenz. i dont feel that i through his face. ya.. den he actually held my hand for a moment. juz got a chu dian feeling running thru my body. felt so so gd!! really very gd! love the feel!

conclusion!! today is a great day!! i'm so happy!!! love it!!!

game for 2!!

darling:" hey! let's play this game. If u lose, den u got to climb stairs later. The more u lose, the more u have to climb. k? "
me: "huh? i not gd at this game~ sure to lose."
darling:" dare to take up the challenge?"
me:" ok lor~~"

here goes.. we played. tie all the way in between with 2 of which i'm better off by juz one stone~ hahahaha... in the end.. his plan failed. den here comes another proposal. "why not we have a timed game. u shall start first." oh no! now i lose for sure~~ no aim no target nothing. suddenly comes a timed game. ya la.. i lost!! disgustingly lost!! sobz...

BUT!! hahaha.. when we reached home quite late le~~ den call off the thingy!!! kekeke..

dar dar is the best!!

den ar~~ later in the nite when i walk darling to the bus stop. we walked the long way by pass the econ minimart due to the heavy rain, we saw a scary guy outside the mart. seems like he's on drug n all.. i was so scared. luck darling is ard. he looked so pale, so suspicious abt things ard him. ya.. darling asked me to go the other way home to prevent things from happening. ya~~ first time see this kinda person ard my hse area. mostly malays playing or what only. nothing near to a drug addict look person. scary~~

tuesdaY~~ Hari Raya Haji~~

yup~~ tuesday was a holiday~~ hari raya haji~~ now den i kknow that's the day of sacrifice~~ they will buy goat, er.. or sheep? either la~~ life de to import to singapore from places like new zealand den they'll bring those goats to the mosque on the day itself. the goats will be killed an sacrifice on tat day,, sounds kinda cruel to me but to them is a very holy ceremony. they'll sacrifice it den one third given to the one who bought it, one third to the mosque which will then be canned n send to the third world country for food, last third will be cooked on the spot for the volunteers. they even said that some goat will die willing as they know they are used for gd~ but i still dont think is a right way to sacrifice another species..nvm...

however, my tuesday is obviously with dar dar again. coz whole of last wk we didnt really have time together~, wed went to have a celebration with marc for his bday n farewell to get into ARMY. hahaha.. den friday is celebration for pei pei bday~ the rest got to be home.. saturday got xiu hui n mei hui around. sunday we also stayed at my hse... which is kinda restricted, watch dvd must watch softly, den no games, everytime watch half way got to stop to help mum this n that~~ hahaha..

finally this tuesday we got our own time TOGETHER!!!!yup!!

went darling's hse at abt 8+ near to 9. reach there at abt 9.30am. coz it's another rainy day.. cant go out n no $$ to go out too~~ so is another DVD day!!! hahaha.. yup~ watched tom yonng gong n unleashed. both are great movies~ both action movies too~~ see the way they fight~ wah!! cool sia!! den got to play ps too!! hahhaa.. crazy taxi.. dar dar standard n mine same sia!!! hahahahaha...

after that we came back home to eat dinner.. den he stayed around till abt 10+ den he went home le~~ another great day!!!!!

+misunderstanding+

yeah~~ all are juz misunderstandings~~ he love me~~ i love him~~ end of story~~

any passerby will still remains as passerby or might not come into the story anymore~~ yup~~

anyway, juz today i learnt from my personal consultant at work that life is juz the beginning. this is juz a small little part that i've met.. coz she had gone those more n worst~~ really shocked me n enlightened me to look through the whole inccident~~

thanks ger~~

WK END AT HOME!!

hehehehehehehe.. love this wk end the most~!!! why?? DAR DAR HERE WITH ME!!!
kekekee... yup.. though in between got small small unhappiness brought up by me~~ ops~~ sorry dar... anyway.. ya... er...

HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!!!

ho ho ho.. zhuan yan jian~~ half a year le~~~ oh man!!! so so happy sia~~~ hahhaa... nv felt so so xin fu b4 nehz~~~

kekeke... okay~~ ytd.. mei hui , xiu hui n dar dar came my hse!! yup~~ suppose to do youth class thingy la~~ hahahaha.. ops... end up listening to songs n er.. play DAI DEE!! hahaha.a.. yup.. mei hui got to work.. went off at abt 4.30pm. den xiu hui n dar dar stayed on~~ we talked alot... play dai dee.. n juz chill out~ nice nice~~~

dar dar stayed over~~ yeah~~ so so happy~~ we chat whole nite~~ ARGH!!! cant live without him le~~ when he go home i'll die sia~~ felt so gd when he is ard.. felt so lost n empty when he's not~~ ops~~ kinda jialat right? but i dont mind!!! yeah!!!!

today we watched 2 movies!!! hahaha... dvd la~~ white chicks n shutter~~ old ones.. but nice! didnt watch them when they're up in cinema~~ kekeke.e...

yup~~ that's abt all!!

Pei Pei's bday!!

yeah!!
05/01/06 is pei pei'sd bday!! happy birthay!!! whahahaha.a... pai seh~~ cant spent that day with u!!! hahahaa... my dear sis~~ hence~~ we met up on the next day~~ 06/01/06 kekeke.. nice right?

pei wen, tian ying, pei pei n i went out together~~ i brought them to eat vegetarian pasta at shaw tower~~~ kekekeke... nice nice.. almost no place to sit siA~~ last table~! kekeke... yup. pei pei permed her hair~ nice nice!!! tian ying did nothing.,. highlight a bit.. but cant see much~~~ den pei wen~~ scary ar~~ top part of the hair is copper brown n the bottom is GREEN!! oh man~~

yup~~ pei pei is attached!!! to a guy call darren~ haha.. got fu qi lian sia~~~second date den went take pic le wor~~ so so sweet!!! kekeke.e....

yup~~ went eat den went to take neoprint!! so so nice!!!!!!! fun machine too~~ got nice nice ppl in the nice nice fotos.. CHIO BU!!! kekeke....

yup!! nice day!

mystic knots

yes!! come back to some happy stuff.. my darling got me a jade pendant for my xmas.. but as a punishment for not being able to be with him for the xmas, he wanna me to guess what is it first b4 i can get it. he gave me clues...

here comes...

Hint 1:
Representing endless n countles ups n downs, happiness and sadness we gonna go through in the future. seeing u either on one end of the other or even beside,

Hint 2:
It might not worth as priceless as diamond but it might not worth as priceless as a penny.

Hint 3:
Never untie it, never tie it. Let it be what it meant to be.

Hint 4:
The key to happiness n sadness.

Hint 5:
Given u a Jack fruit, Apple, Durian, give me a fruit STARTING with E.

Yup.. that was all the clue even. he also told me it's something start with 2 words starting with M n K. yup.

after hours of struggling.. 4 hours if i m not wrong. i manage to get a close to it ans where i said it is a jade, a mysterious knots. In actual fact is a Mystic Knot made of jade. yup!!! nice nice wor... looks trendy too... and it is nto that cheap sia.. all i know is more than 60 bucks. but dont know actual price~

thanks DARLING!! i juz love it!!

oh no!! i'm possessive

! i'm possesive ! how how how?? ok.. there it goes...

coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers

darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.

den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.

they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~

wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.

TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!

ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.

WONDERFUL NEW YEAR EVE!!!

i had a greatest new yr eve tis yr!!!! best of all!! why? go my darling by my side, few of my bestest fren that i ever have in life by my side moving on from 2005 to 2006!!! thanks to wan ping, gui jin, shi min and DAR DAR! they spent the new year eve with me!!!

friday nite dar stayed over at my hse, den we went over to his hse to get some stuff of his den move off to wan ping's hse at abt 5.30pm or so. we met guijin, shi min and gui pei(gj's sis) at farrer park mrt at 6.30pm. kekekee... made dar dar wore same t shirt as me~ hahha.. we both wore mickey mouse giodarno that yellow t shirt with jeans. hahah.. feeling so pai seh, funny, yet cool on the way.. haahaa.. but upon reaching farrer park, we realise we arent the only pair wearing couple clothes. hahhaa.. sm n gj also nehx!! kekeek... laughing our way., kekekee

we;re the first batch of frenz that reach wp's hse~~ realising that wp's bf not there n not gg to go~ we were so so angry!!! but what can we do? haiz.. dont know what happened between them too~ juz feel that he change so so much~~ anyway, change topic~~

we were there for the buffet, obviously i cant eat, so juz ate watermelon. kekeke.. den poor dar dar juz ate vege only... after the meal we went back to ping's rm. Uncle got us a bottle of red wine n they satart drinking in the rm. i tot red wine is fine, not very high alcoholic content. so they juz drank happily. after the first bottle, they return the empty bottle n uncle gave them another.. so here comes the second one. ping brought in her laptop n show us some funny indian guy's comedy show~~ i kinda bad in eng la~~ so quite a lot cant catch, still need darling to explain while laughing.

soon after the show ended, jin started to feel giddy n all.. so scary sia~~ first time see ppl got drank. she felt terrible so started crying.. scared me~ den after tat start talking stuff, den start laughing non stop. it was so contagious that i started laughing till my tummy so pain sia~~ hahaa... den after that she started talking words right from her heart that she has been hiding.. i cried upon hearing those stuff.. she seems to feel so terrible.. poor ger~~

after that we had a count down outside. keke.. we missed the count down actually. till ppl say happy new yr den we know count down over. missed the fireworks too!!! saded. but nvm~ got jin, ping, n darling by my side!!!

after that we went back to ping's rm, jin felt sleepy so she went to slp, sm was there with her, darling went missing... after that came back though. both sm n jin sleeping, dar also slept. pei dont know what to do also sit down there. den i went down all alone to look for ping lor.. she was there playing majong with her frenz. me? dont know how to play, juz sit down there doing nth. after that pei came down also looks bored n dont know what to do~ den dar came down. watch the soccer, den see them playing majong.

after the neighbouring table ppl left n jin they all came down, we start playing majong. hahhaa.. dont know how to play. anyhow hum tum. hahhahja.. quite fun! first time touching majong! hahaha.. so cool!!! know a bit bit now~ kekekee....

den we left. coz late le.. took cab back. great day!!!! all thanks to WAN PING< GUI JIN< GUI PEI< SHI MIN< AND < DARLING!!!!

xmas~~

actually i was thinking, pondering whether i shld blog this down anot~ becoz i dont wanna leave any note of misery down anywhere to remind myself of sad things that happened to me~~ but in the end~~ i decided to blog it down~~ becoz~~ i really need to~~ i know i wont look back to my previous articles to see what i've wrote to remind myself of the pain~~ i juz hope that once i throw it into the computer~~ i'll forget it and leave it to the com.

this xmas is the worst xmas that i ever will have. though is the most holy one~ but is the worst. it makes me feel like i'm cursed~~ i'm cursed to be lonely for all my festive seasons. the first left me before v day, second left me before xmas~~ n yet.. the third. the one i love most, the one i treasure most, the one that love me most~~ the one tht.. i hate to see him cry n hurt him most~~ i got no choice but to leave him all alone this xmas to go for some holy class...

i really dont know~~~ dont know how to make it back~~ i know i cant make it back in any way, there is not another 2005 xmas.. but my love, my heart, my mind is still all with u~~ i left u something that i hope u wil like it... i hope that can represent me in bringing light to u when i'm not ard. i love u~~

u might feel that i can choose, i can rebel, i can juz go with u n fell out with my parents. but it is really something i cant do~ i'll try hard to gain my independent. trust me.

i love u!!

merry xmas

SO ACCURATE~~

wow~~ yesterday something funny happened~~ actually is the day b4 la~~ hhahaha

okay~ was talking to my collegue~ den her "scandalous" was like msging her n all~~ some nerdy guy la~~ but we think he like her la~~ den msg here n there~~ den i say sacarly later he msg ask u go for lunch~~ she was like..: "er.. better not~~" in the end~~ that guy really asked her out for lunch sia~~~ wahaHAHAHAH

den after that we talk talk~~ den dont know why talked abt she taking transport~~ den i asked her~~ " have u ever missed ur stop?? if missed den how?? what will happened??" den she told me so far she has NV missed her stop~~ nv slept till nv wake up b4~~ n ON THAT VERY DAY!!! she actually really over slept n almost missed her stop lor~~~ wahahahhahaha... but luckily got ppl wake her up la~~ den she was like~~ wow~~ eerie!!!

hahaha.a.. yup~~

today work?? boring~~ realise ppl there are com idiots~~ really know nuts abt com~~ only simple stuff they can do~~ den helped "witch" to do her com job today~~ SO COLD!! her place is like antartica sia~~ damn damn cold~~~ freezed!!

boring day~~ ended!!!

st john~~

wow~ i went st john for the wkend~ which is totally cool~~ but.. kinda short~~

27/11/05
we set of from my hse to raffles place mrt~~ we took nel to outram den to raffles place~~
den reach there at abt 9.15am~~ one of the latest~ ops~~ coz i tot is 9.20am meet there~~
den we waited for food and some in charge to come with the food~~ they reached abt 10++ i guess~~ den we set of to st john by boat~~
looking at the movement of the boat~ starting so not use to it~~ felt giddy for quite some time~~ den after that quite alright~~ stood at the back of the boat~~ in the open place~~ quite crowded but was cool~~ dar dar was sweet, he actually tot of bringing guava with prune powder scare i'll feel giddy n vomit in the boat~~ but i was fine~~ no one vomitted actually.

abt 11+ we reached the island~~ waited outside our bunk for quite some time coz they went to office to get the keys n all~~ at the mean time we had our first activity, drawing grp FLAG!! hahaa.. 4 grps in total, tok gong, ai zai, gang hor,gong gong~~ yup~~ i'm in gong gong n dar dar in ai zai and JY.. er.. i only know first grp but dont know the name~~

soon after we got the bed sheets n all~~ forgot where i went or what i do~~ wasnt at my bed when they distributing the bed sheet n dar dar did the bed sheet thingy for me~~ so nice n tidy~~ thanks dar~~ so SWEET! kekee...

after lunch we started our program~~ first with our wonderful story of a past saint "SHUN". he is an emperor. YS N ER really can act sia~~ so so funny~~ n Ber.. funny birdy~~ lol.. and YM is the ELEPHANT~~ skinny elephant~~~den moved on to some introduction of our whole program thingy, the religious stuff.. quite dry but informative~~

den to the cooking of maggie mee~~ we used mass tin~~ used stones at the base to stable the tin~ den got solid fuel~~ 6 matches to light up the solid fuel~~ i know nuts abt all those~~ so the guys did the stuff~~ all i do is juz cooking the mee~~ n almost got he whole thing down the drain coz the base wasnt stable~~~ but in the end we are the first grp to omplete cooking the mee and taste the best~~ lol~~

den after that~~ hmm... got some outdoor treasure hunt thingy~~ that was like COOL~~ juz too short n not challenging enough~~ but was quite fun~~ 4 stations.. one is to act some part of scriptures out~~ one is to run abt looking for some one resemble some sage and look for some password~~ one is to go round doing survey at a very quiet empty place like st john..lucky we manage to complete the task~~ n lastly is to join up some stuff la~~ after that was BBQ!!
n dar dar got alot of nice extra food~ he was all the while doin the bbq stuff~~ scare he nv eat den i feed him here n there~~ ppl complain we too sweet~~ hahaha... while others ask is he my elder brother~~ wahahahaha.. but here i conclude he is my DARLING> DEAR> LAO GONG!! after that got nite trail actually but me n dar dar didnt go~~ continue doing up last part of the bbq~~ he made a great food that all likes sia~~ so nice so crispy so wow~~ lol.. n all juz chiong for it~~

actually didnt wanna slp~~ wanna go beach area have some romantic time with dar dar~~ but they didnt allow~~ say too dangerous~~ so watched movie~~ but was too tired~~ den went slp at abt 2 i guess~~ no watch dont know time~ den got some blind folding stuff~ some water games~~ dar was like so so fast la~ got all ppl wet~~ hahaa.. but the water was like not very deep la~~ no fun!!! den cant go far too~~ sianded~~~

den after that lunch~ prize presentation~~ nothing much le~~ yup~~
went back home~~ yeah~~
enjoyed~~~
I WANT THE PIX!!!
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