busy new year with not enough slp!! hahahaa.. bai nian n all...
went teachers' hse bai nian, went sm's hse bai nian, met dom's mummy n went k box together as a bai nian activity. hahaa... cool right?? n had a mid night bai nian activity!!! wahhhaa... so fun n so cool!!! enjoyed alot though not enough slp! kekekee....
yeah!! lots of details to fill in.. shall do it when i have more energy to!! =D
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
gj bday celebration!!!!
yoz yoz!! it's gj's bday celebration!!! n on this very day dar dar gave me my 6 MONTH pressie!!! soooo soooo sooo sooo sooo nice!!!! wahahahahahaa...... guess what he gave?? he asked me to guess too.. hint? combinations of 2 ears. hahahaa... hard?? it's a HEART SHAPE!! hehehe... n so.. what's the other word for round?? RING!!!!! kekee... didnt manage to catch the second one but he gave me the pressie!! though in between there is a small unhappiness.. small one i really hope.. in the end was a great day, great pressie!! oh ya~~ still havent say is what... it's a HEART SHAPE DIAMOND RING!!!! oh man!!! cool right??? i love it! it's attached to this heart shape thing that is attached to a spring like thingy that pops up. den is attached to a box with me first month suppose to give present inside!!! so nice nice!!!!!!!!!!
kk.. back to jin's bday! as usual.. i gave her a GREAT SURPRISE!! bought a small cake with a fila bag for her.. shared by wan ping, wen yao, dom n me~~ kekeke.e.. so happy that she like it! haha...made a mess outside starbucks of that suntec branch. keke.. den her sis gui pei n her gang came too.. funny bunch of ppl. took alot of couples photos. ekekee... with dar dar only n also with the other 2 couples namely sm n gj, wp n wy. yup!!!
after which we went food court to eat. the reason being KIAN HUAT DONT EAT VEGE!!! N I DONT EAT MEAT!! hahahaa... which makes it difficult to go to any restaurant or what to eat. kekeke... had our food, den went on to pay POOL!! 2nd time trying to play pool!! better at it le! kekeke.. so nice wor~~ it's actually quite fun. met some sec sch dislike b**** there. yup. n since this day, i became SM's most hated person because gj i my LAO GONG!! hahaha.. i hugged her hold her hands n all that he felt "jealous" n keep asking me weird qns n all.. stupid right? hahhaa...
after which we went home... kekee...
great day!!!
kk.. back to jin's bday! as usual.. i gave her a GREAT SURPRISE!! bought a small cake with a fila bag for her.. shared by wan ping, wen yao, dom n me~~ kekeke.e.. so happy that she like it! haha...made a mess outside starbucks of that suntec branch. keke.. den her sis gui pei n her gang came too.. funny bunch of ppl. took alot of couples photos. ekekee... with dar dar only n also with the other 2 couples namely sm n gj, wp n wy. yup!!!
after which we went food court to eat. the reason being KIAN HUAT DONT EAT VEGE!!! N I DONT EAT MEAT!! hahahaa... which makes it difficult to go to any restaurant or what to eat. kekeke... had our food, den went on to pay POOL!! 2nd time trying to play pool!! better at it le! kekeke.. so nice wor~~ it's actually quite fun. met some sec sch dislike b**** there. yup. n since this day, i became SM's most hated person because gj i my LAO GONG!! hahaha.. i hugged her hold her hands n all that he felt "jealous" n keep asking me weird qns n all.. stupid right? hahhaa...
after which we went home... kekee...
great day!!!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
*shame shame*
the weekends!!
saturday was a busy day!! yes... early in the morning woke up abt 8++am trying hard hard to wake darling up becoz i got to go to send in my time sheet!! no time sheet no $$ kekeke... after which we met xiu hui at hougang mall at 11.15am or so to do some marketing.. it's cooking day!! hahaha.. we went her house to teach her to whip up some simple dishes. bought long beans, lotus, peanuts, xiao bai cai, and a kind of mock meat. yup yup. went to her house to do some preparation, rest a while, tied her hair nice nice for her.. keke.e.. listen to some songs, chill out a bit den went straight off to bernard's hse for rehearsal for our youth class. that was the funny one when thry rehearse their sketch n all.. hahaha.. i was juz an audience laughing my way.
at abt 4+pm, we go xiu hui hse n start the cooking lesson. everything was fine n nice till the rice was done! we found out that we put too much water n the rice turn out to be kinda too soft. still edible though. kekeke... after dinner went for a religious class n off we go heading home. dar dar was so so tired.. said wanna watch incredible but in the end both of us was juz so tired den didnt watch. kekeke...
sunday!! woke up at 8++ around 9 am as usual. haix.. wanna slp more de~~ juz couldnt stay in bed, so juz woke up , wash up n had my chee chong fan for breakfast. after which we watched bewitched. keke.. nice funny show. sweet too!!! had chee chong fan for lunch too.. den head off straight to youth class.. keke.. today's half an hour session suppose to be conducted by me la~ was so so so so so nervous that i actually finish off everything within 15 min. OH MAN!! such a failure. but happy that everything ended.. hpe next time will be a better one~ yup!!!
gor gor, xiu hui, mei hui, darling n i went for dinner together!! gor gor got car!! hahaha.. so got transport there n back.went lao di fang to eat. 55 bucks in total. gor gor trat 50 bucks, darling chip in the rest. kekee... nice food. i like the thousand island prawn so so nice~~ kekee... den cuttle fish ball was a challenge. hahahaa...coz dar dar cant use chopstick keke.. poke here poke there, the cuttlefish balls juz fly all over. hahahaa... n everyone was shock by his great appetite. 3 bowls of rice! hahahaa... then we went on to shop around at suntec. coz mei hui wanna get the doraemon key chain that she saw on gor gor's car! hahaha... shop ard n was fun!!
den when we abt to go home, den i was kinda alone when gor gor talked to xiu hui n darling was trying to open the box with the doraemon. den i looked into the "mirror" den suddenly realise why i have such low self esteem n feeling so insecure. becoz i juz dont feel compatible enough with dar dar.. so juz look ard kept quiet. felt that i look so so BIG while he looks so small. i juz not good enough for him, dont really feel that i'm up to his standard. den darling walked over tot i felt jealous or what. den i told him all that n he was trying hard to assure me that he dont feel that way n all. i KNOW. really.. i know he loves me alot. i juz wanna look more compatible to him so that i feel gd standing beside him being proud of myself when he ever intro me to his frenz. i dont feel that i through his face. ya.. den he actually held my hand for a moment. juz got a chu dian feeling running thru my body. felt so so gd!! really very gd! love the feel!
conclusion!! today is a great day!! i'm so happy!!! love it!!!
saturday was a busy day!! yes... early in the morning woke up abt 8++am trying hard hard to wake darling up becoz i got to go to send in my time sheet!! no time sheet no $$ kekeke... after which we met xiu hui at hougang mall at 11.15am or so to do some marketing.. it's cooking day!! hahaha.. we went her house to teach her to whip up some simple dishes. bought long beans, lotus, peanuts, xiao bai cai, and a kind of mock meat. yup yup. went to her house to do some preparation, rest a while, tied her hair nice nice for her.. keke.e.. listen to some songs, chill out a bit den went straight off to bernard's hse for rehearsal for our youth class. that was the funny one when thry rehearse their sketch n all.. hahaha.. i was juz an audience laughing my way.
at abt 4+pm, we go xiu hui hse n start the cooking lesson. everything was fine n nice till the rice was done! we found out that we put too much water n the rice turn out to be kinda too soft. still edible though. kekeke... after dinner went for a religious class n off we go heading home. dar dar was so so tired.. said wanna watch incredible but in the end both of us was juz so tired den didnt watch. kekeke...
sunday!! woke up at 8++ around 9 am as usual. haix.. wanna slp more de~~ juz couldnt stay in bed, so juz woke up , wash up n had my chee chong fan for breakfast. after which we watched bewitched. keke.. nice funny show. sweet too!!! had chee chong fan for lunch too.. den head off straight to youth class.. keke.. today's half an hour session suppose to be conducted by me la~ was so so so so so nervous that i actually finish off everything within 15 min. OH MAN!! such a failure. but happy that everything ended.. hpe next time will be a better one~ yup!!!
gor gor, xiu hui, mei hui, darling n i went for dinner together!! gor gor got car!! hahaha.. so got transport there n back.went lao di fang to eat. 55 bucks in total. gor gor trat 50 bucks, darling chip in the rest. kekee... nice food. i like the thousand island prawn so so nice~~ kekee... den cuttle fish ball was a challenge. hahahaa...coz dar dar cant use chopstick keke.. poke here poke there, the cuttlefish balls juz fly all over. hahahaa... n everyone was shock by his great appetite. 3 bowls of rice! hahahaa... then we went on to shop around at suntec. coz mei hui wanna get the doraemon key chain that she saw on gor gor's car! hahaha... shop ard n was fun!!
den when we abt to go home, den i was kinda alone when gor gor talked to xiu hui n darling was trying to open the box with the doraemon. den i looked into the "mirror" den suddenly realise why i have such low self esteem n feeling so insecure. becoz i juz dont feel compatible enough with dar dar.. so juz look ard kept quiet. felt that i look so so BIG while he looks so small. i juz not good enough for him, dont really feel that i'm up to his standard. den darling walked over tot i felt jealous or what. den i told him all that n he was trying hard to assure me that he dont feel that way n all. i KNOW. really.. i know he loves me alot. i juz wanna look more compatible to him so that i feel gd standing beside him being proud of myself when he ever intro me to his frenz. i dont feel that i through his face. ya.. den he actually held my hand for a moment. juz got a chu dian feeling running thru my body. felt so so gd!! really very gd! love the feel!
conclusion!! today is a great day!! i'm so happy!!! love it!!!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
game for 2!!
darling:" hey! let's play this game. If u lose, den u got to climb stairs later. The more u lose, the more u have to climb. k? "
me: "huh? i not gd at this game~ sure to lose."
darling:" dare to take up the challenge?"
me:" ok lor~~"
here goes.. we played. tie all the way in between with 2 of which i'm better off by juz one stone~ hahahaha... in the end.. his plan failed. den here comes another proposal. "why not we have a timed game. u shall start first." oh no! now i lose for sure~~ no aim no target nothing. suddenly comes a timed game. ya la.. i lost!! disgustingly lost!! sobz...
BUT!! hahaha.. when we reached home quite late le~~ den call off the thingy!!! kekeke..
dar dar is the best!!
den ar~~ later in the nite when i walk darling to the bus stop. we walked the long way by pass the econ minimart due to the heavy rain, we saw a scary guy outside the mart. seems like he's on drug n all.. i was so scared. luck darling is ard. he looked so pale, so suspicious abt things ard him. ya.. darling asked me to go the other way home to prevent things from happening. ya~~ first time see this kinda person ard my hse area. mostly malays playing or what only. nothing near to a drug addict look person. scary~~
me: "huh? i not gd at this game~ sure to lose."
darling:" dare to take up the challenge?"
me:" ok lor~~"
here goes.. we played. tie all the way in between with 2 of which i'm better off by juz one stone~ hahahaha... in the end.. his plan failed. den here comes another proposal. "why not we have a timed game. u shall start first." oh no! now i lose for sure~~ no aim no target nothing. suddenly comes a timed game. ya la.. i lost!! disgustingly lost!! sobz...
BUT!! hahaha.. when we reached home quite late le~~ den call off the thingy!!! kekeke..
dar dar is the best!!
den ar~~ later in the nite when i walk darling to the bus stop. we walked the long way by pass the econ minimart due to the heavy rain, we saw a scary guy outside the mart. seems like he's on drug n all.. i was so scared. luck darling is ard. he looked so pale, so suspicious abt things ard him. ya.. darling asked me to go the other way home to prevent things from happening. ya~~ first time see this kinda person ard my hse area. mostly malays playing or what only. nothing near to a drug addict look person. scary~~
tuesdaY~~ Hari Raya Haji~~
yup~~ tuesday was a holiday~~ hari raya haji~~ now den i kknow that's the day of sacrifice~~ they will buy goat, er.. or sheep? either la~~ life de to import to singapore from places like new zealand den they'll bring those goats to the mosque on the day itself. the goats will be killed an sacrifice on tat day,, sounds kinda cruel to me but to them is a very holy ceremony. they'll sacrifice it den one third given to the one who bought it, one third to the mosque which will then be canned n send to the third world country for food, last third will be cooked on the spot for the volunteers. they even said that some goat will die willing as they know they are used for gd~ but i still dont think is a right way to sacrifice another species..nvm...
however, my tuesday is obviously with dar dar again. coz whole of last wk we didnt really have time together~, wed went to have a celebration with marc for his bday n farewell to get into ARMY. hahaha.. den friday is celebration for pei pei bday~ the rest got to be home.. saturday got xiu hui n mei hui around. sunday we also stayed at my hse... which is kinda restricted, watch dvd must watch softly, den no games, everytime watch half way got to stop to help mum this n that~~ hahaha..
finally this tuesday we got our own time TOGETHER!!!!yup!!
went darling's hse at abt 8+ near to 9. reach there at abt 9.30am. coz it's another rainy day.. cant go out n no $$ to go out too~~ so is another DVD day!!! hahaha.. yup~ watched tom yonng gong n unleashed. both are great movies~ both action movies too~~ see the way they fight~ wah!! cool sia!! den got to play ps too!! hahhaa.. crazy taxi.. dar dar standard n mine same sia!!! hahahahaha...
after that we came back home to eat dinner.. den he stayed around till abt 10+ den he went home le~~ another great day!!!!!
however, my tuesday is obviously with dar dar again. coz whole of last wk we didnt really have time together~, wed went to have a celebration with marc for his bday n farewell to get into ARMY. hahaha.. den friday is celebration for pei pei bday~ the rest got to be home.. saturday got xiu hui n mei hui around. sunday we also stayed at my hse... which is kinda restricted, watch dvd must watch softly, den no games, everytime watch half way got to stop to help mum this n that~~ hahaha..
finally this tuesday we got our own time TOGETHER!!!!yup!!
went darling's hse at abt 8+ near to 9. reach there at abt 9.30am. coz it's another rainy day.. cant go out n no $$ to go out too~~ so is another DVD day!!! hahaha.. yup~ watched tom yonng gong n unleashed. both are great movies~ both action movies too~~ see the way they fight~ wah!! cool sia!! den got to play ps too!! hahhaa.. crazy taxi.. dar dar standard n mine same sia!!! hahahahaha...
after that we came back home to eat dinner.. den he stayed around till abt 10+ den he went home le~~ another great day!!!!!
Monday, January 09, 2006
+misunderstanding+
yeah~~ all are juz misunderstandings~~ he love me~~ i love him~~ end of story~~
any passerby will still remains as passerby or might not come into the story anymore~~ yup~~
anyway, juz today i learnt from my personal consultant at work that life is juz the beginning. this is juz a small little part that i've met.. coz she had gone those more n worst~~ really shocked me n enlightened me to look through the whole inccident~~
thanks ger~~
any passerby will still remains as passerby or might not come into the story anymore~~ yup~~
anyway, juz today i learnt from my personal consultant at work that life is juz the beginning. this is juz a small little part that i've met.. coz she had gone those more n worst~~ really shocked me n enlightened me to look through the whole inccident~~
thanks ger~~
Sunday, January 08, 2006
WK END AT HOME!!
hehehehehehehe.. love this wk end the most~!!! why?? DAR DAR HERE WITH ME!!!
kekekee... yup.. though in between got small small unhappiness brought up by me~~ ops~~ sorry dar... anyway.. ya... er...
HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!!!
ho ho ho.. zhuan yan jian~~ half a year le~~~ oh man!!! so so happy sia~~~ hahhaa... nv felt so so xin fu b4 nehz~~~
kekeke... okay~~ ytd.. mei hui , xiu hui n dar dar came my hse!! yup~~ suppose to do youth class thingy la~~ hahahaha.. ops... end up listening to songs n er.. play DAI DEE!! hahaha.a.. yup.. mei hui got to work.. went off at abt 4.30pm. den xiu hui n dar dar stayed on~~ we talked alot... play dai dee.. n juz chill out~ nice nice~~~
dar dar stayed over~~ yeah~~ so so happy~~ we chat whole nite~~ ARGH!!! cant live without him le~~ when he go home i'll die sia~~ felt so gd when he is ard.. felt so lost n empty when he's not~~ ops~~ kinda jialat right? but i dont mind!!! yeah!!!!
today we watched 2 movies!!! hahaha... dvd la~~ white chicks n shutter~~ old ones.. but nice! didnt watch them when they're up in cinema~~ kekeke.e...
yup~~ that's abt all!!
kekekee... yup.. though in between got small small unhappiness brought up by me~~ ops~~ sorry dar... anyway.. ya... er...
HAPPY 6TH MONTH!!!!
ho ho ho.. zhuan yan jian~~ half a year le~~~ oh man!!! so so happy sia~~~ hahhaa... nv felt so so xin fu b4 nehz~~~
kekeke... okay~~ ytd.. mei hui , xiu hui n dar dar came my hse!! yup~~ suppose to do youth class thingy la~~ hahahaha.. ops... end up listening to songs n er.. play DAI DEE!! hahaha.a.. yup.. mei hui got to work.. went off at abt 4.30pm. den xiu hui n dar dar stayed on~~ we talked alot... play dai dee.. n juz chill out~ nice nice~~~
dar dar stayed over~~ yeah~~ so so happy~~ we chat whole nite~~ ARGH!!! cant live without him le~~ when he go home i'll die sia~~ felt so gd when he is ard.. felt so lost n empty when he's not~~ ops~~ kinda jialat right? but i dont mind!!! yeah!!!!
today we watched 2 movies!!! hahaha... dvd la~~ white chicks n shutter~~ old ones.. but nice! didnt watch them when they're up in cinema~~ kekeke.e...
yup~~ that's abt all!!
Pei Pei's bday!!
yeah!!
05/01/06 is pei pei'sd bday!! happy birthay!!! whahahaha.a... pai seh~~ cant spent that day with u!!! hahahaa... my dear sis~~ hence~~ we met up on the next day~~ 06/01/06 kekeke.. nice right?
pei wen, tian ying, pei pei n i went out together~~ i brought them to eat vegetarian pasta at shaw tower~~~ kekekeke... nice nice.. almost no place to sit siA~~ last table~! kekeke... yup. pei pei permed her hair~ nice nice!!! tian ying did nothing.,. highlight a bit.. but cant see much~~~ den pei wen~~ scary ar~~ top part of the hair is copper brown n the bottom is GREEN!! oh man~~
yup~~ pei pei is attached!!! to a guy call darren~ haha.. got fu qi lian sia~~~second date den went take pic le wor~~ so so sweet!!! kekeke.e....
yup~~ went eat den went to take neoprint!! so so nice!!!!!!! fun machine too~~ got nice nice ppl in the nice nice fotos.. CHIO BU!!! kekeke....
yup!! nice day!
05/01/06 is pei pei'sd bday!! happy birthay!!! whahahaha.a... pai seh~~ cant spent that day with u!!! hahahaa... my dear sis~~ hence~~ we met up on the next day~~ 06/01/06 kekeke.. nice right?
pei wen, tian ying, pei pei n i went out together~~ i brought them to eat vegetarian pasta at shaw tower~~~ kekekeke... nice nice.. almost no place to sit siA~~ last table~! kekeke... yup. pei pei permed her hair~ nice nice!!! tian ying did nothing.,. highlight a bit.. but cant see much~~~ den pei wen~~ scary ar~~ top part of the hair is copper brown n the bottom is GREEN!! oh man~~
yup~~ pei pei is attached!!! to a guy call darren~ haha.. got fu qi lian sia~~~second date den went take pic le wor~~ so so sweet!!! kekeke.e....
yup~~ went eat den went to take neoprint!! so so nice!!!!!!! fun machine too~~ got nice nice ppl in the nice nice fotos.. CHIO BU!!! kekeke....
yup!! nice day!
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
mystic knots
yes!! come back to some happy stuff.. my darling got me a jade pendant for my xmas.. but as a punishment for not being able to be with him for the xmas, he wanna me to guess what is it first b4 i can get it. he gave me clues...
here comes...
Hint 1:
Representing endless n countles ups n downs, happiness and sadness we gonna go through in the future. seeing u either on one end of the other or even beside,
Hint 2:
It might not worth as priceless as diamond but it might not worth as priceless as a penny.
Hint 3:
Never untie it, never tie it. Let it be what it meant to be.
Hint 4:
The key to happiness n sadness.
Hint 5:
Given u a Jack fruit, Apple, Durian, give me a fruit STARTING with E.
Yup.. that was all the clue even. he also told me it's something start with 2 words starting with M n K. yup.
after hours of struggling.. 4 hours if i m not wrong. i manage to get a close to it ans where i said it is a jade, a mysterious knots. In actual fact is a Mystic Knot made of jade. yup!!! nice nice wor... looks trendy too... and it is nto that cheap sia.. all i know is more than 60 bucks. but dont know actual price~
thanks DARLING!! i juz love it!!
here comes...
Hint 1:
Representing endless n countles ups n downs, happiness and sadness we gonna go through in the future. seeing u either on one end of the other or even beside,
Hint 2:
It might not worth as priceless as diamond but it might not worth as priceless as a penny.
Hint 3:
Never untie it, never tie it. Let it be what it meant to be.
Hint 4:
The key to happiness n sadness.
Hint 5:
Given u a Jack fruit, Apple, Durian, give me a fruit STARTING with E.
Yup.. that was all the clue even. he also told me it's something start with 2 words starting with M n K. yup.
after hours of struggling.. 4 hours if i m not wrong. i manage to get a close to it ans where i said it is a jade, a mysterious knots. In actual fact is a Mystic Knot made of jade. yup!!! nice nice wor... looks trendy too... and it is nto that cheap sia.. all i know is more than 60 bucks. but dont know actual price~
thanks DARLING!! i juz love it!!
oh no!! i'm possessive
! i'm possesive ! how how how?? ok.. there it goes...
coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers
darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.
den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.
they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~
wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.
TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!
ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.
coz i was unable to meet darling n be with him for the xmas, i got xh to help me pass him the present. den xh n mh was there with him during the xmas and they got closer together. yup. thanks to them that actually help me spend time with darling so that he wont be that lonely during xmas... thanks gers
darling is xh shi fu. ya that i know.
den yesterday, mh msg darling asking if he wanna join her for lunch. den after that say wanna go buy bag ask him go with her coz xh was unable to join her. *smells funny* coz i know mh earlier den darling, talked to her more, she got hold of my number first, knowing that ytd was a holiday, she didnt ask me yet she ask him? funny right? i didnt wanna be bad. so i asked him to go la~ he ask me to join, i say better not. she din ask me go along den i join for what? so he went alone with her.
they met up at 1pm. had lunch, went town to shop. in the end, she got NOTHING!! haix.. didnt spot any that she likes. darling got to realise they got same taste...* here comes the sour feeling *
before that he told me he will come over after the shop n after gg xh house to cure her sick computer. den i was like looking forward to it.. still thinking that we might be able to watch king of heaven together den he go home.. wait n wait. no news, no msg, no nothing. saded!!! den after that i msged him at abt 5 i guess. obviously they still shopping. yup. den he replied and all... den i went to rest la~
wait n wait again... till 7pm. no news. he told me he will be gg to xh hse to do up the com at 7pm. den no news.. till 8pm... he called from xh hse n say he juz reached. ok... there goes.. he wont be able to come n i wont want him to come le. so late le.. it'll be tired n troublesome for him to make trips here n there. 1pm to 7pm.. 6 hrs spending time with another ger wor!!! prettier, slimmer n more fun to be with? haiz.. devastated.. but juz kept quiet. when he went home he msg me~~ i told him saying that he must be having a great time with a pretty babe shopping. den he sense the jealousy in me.. n i did told him i was JEALOUS! so he called. clarifying that it's less than 6 hrs coz they reached xh's hse at 7pm but waited for her downstairs till 8pm! isnt it the same??? she can go back first right? *smells fishy right?* (i do suspect she finds him interesting n nice) anyway, den he went back home, called me trying to explain n all.. k.. forget it... she's still young. she doesnt think so much abt bgr stuff. she's more of a carrer minded kinda person. forget it.
TODAY!!! xh n mh wanna meet darling out for lunch TML AGAIN!! hello!!! ppl start working le lor!!! machiam!! i was really pissed upon knowing that. i told darling that they could have asked my out not u!! he says they might think i m working so cant make it. HELLO!~~~ who's the obvious working one?? i'm juz a part timer n he is a full time navy la!!! ok.. he told them he is working n cant make it~~ i'm fine with that. but i'm juz so so puzzled that WHY??? why they keep asking him out?? HE IS MINE!!!!!!!!
ok.. i'm getting kinda work out! yes i m... i muz have faith in my frenz n my darling i know!!!! i really know.. but.. juz cant help being unhappy abt it! they could have juz ask me out n saying want him to tag along. i dont mind~ but.. haiz.. i know i think too much. i'm juz too possessive. i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in this entry. but just wanna say out my feeling. that's all. yup! i know maybe becoz they think by asking him out i'll be out with him too... but by asking me out he might not tag along or he might prefer to spend time with me alone n ask me reject them ba~~ hmm... yesh~~ gd guess!!! hahahaa.. ok~~ sorry gers.. i'm juz too possessive la~~ can continue ask him out la~~ juz wanna say out the feeling den forget abt it only. YUP! smilez.
WONDERFUL NEW YEAR EVE!!!
i had a greatest new yr eve tis yr!!!! best of all!! why? go my darling by my side, few of my bestest fren that i ever have in life by my side moving on from 2005 to 2006!!! thanks to wan ping, gui jin, shi min and DAR DAR! they spent the new year eve with me!!!
friday nite dar stayed over at my hse, den we went over to his hse to get some stuff of his den move off to wan ping's hse at abt 5.30pm or so. we met guijin, shi min and gui pei(gj's sis) at farrer park mrt at 6.30pm. kekekee... made dar dar wore same t shirt as me~ hahha.. we both wore mickey mouse giodarno that yellow t shirt with jeans. hahah.. feeling so pai seh, funny, yet cool on the way.. haahaa.. but upon reaching farrer park, we realise we arent the only pair wearing couple clothes. hahhaa.. sm n gj also nehx!! kekeek... laughing our way., kekekee
we;re the first batch of frenz that reach wp's hse~~ realising that wp's bf not there n not gg to go~ we were so so angry!!! but what can we do? haiz.. dont know what happened between them too~ juz feel that he change so so much~~ anyway, change topic~~
we were there for the buffet, obviously i cant eat, so juz ate watermelon. kekeke.. den poor dar dar juz ate vege only... after the meal we went back to ping's rm. Uncle got us a bottle of red wine n they satart drinking in the rm. i tot red wine is fine, not very high alcoholic content. so they juz drank happily. after the first bottle, they return the empty bottle n uncle gave them another.. so here comes the second one. ping brought in her laptop n show us some funny indian guy's comedy show~~ i kinda bad in eng la~~ so quite a lot cant catch, still need darling to explain while laughing.
soon after the show ended, jin started to feel giddy n all.. so scary sia~~ first time see ppl got drank. she felt terrible so started crying.. scared me~ den after tat start talking stuff, den start laughing non stop. it was so contagious that i started laughing till my tummy so pain sia~~ hahaa... den after that she started talking words right from her heart that she has been hiding.. i cried upon hearing those stuff.. she seems to feel so terrible.. poor ger~~
after that we had a count down outside. keke.. we missed the count down actually. till ppl say happy new yr den we know count down over. missed the fireworks too!!! saded. but nvm~ got jin, ping, n darling by my side!!!
after that we went back to ping's rm, jin felt sleepy so she went to slp, sm was there with her, darling went missing... after that came back though. both sm n jin sleeping, dar also slept. pei dont know what to do also sit down there. den i went down all alone to look for ping lor.. she was there playing majong with her frenz. me? dont know how to play, juz sit down there doing nth. after that pei came down also looks bored n dont know what to do~ den dar came down. watch the soccer, den see them playing majong.
after the neighbouring table ppl left n jin they all came down, we start playing majong. hahhaa.. dont know how to play. anyhow hum tum. hahhahja.. quite fun! first time touching majong! hahaha.. so cool!!! know a bit bit now~ kekekee....
den we left. coz late le.. took cab back. great day!!!! all thanks to WAN PING< GUI JIN< GUI PEI< SHI MIN< AND < DARLING!!!!
friday nite dar stayed over at my hse, den we went over to his hse to get some stuff of his den move off to wan ping's hse at abt 5.30pm or so. we met guijin, shi min and gui pei(gj's sis) at farrer park mrt at 6.30pm. kekekee... made dar dar wore same t shirt as me~ hahha.. we both wore mickey mouse giodarno that yellow t shirt with jeans. hahah.. feeling so pai seh, funny, yet cool on the way.. haahaa.. but upon reaching farrer park, we realise we arent the only pair wearing couple clothes. hahhaa.. sm n gj also nehx!! kekeek... laughing our way., kekekee
we;re the first batch of frenz that reach wp's hse~~ realising that wp's bf not there n not gg to go~ we were so so angry!!! but what can we do? haiz.. dont know what happened between them too~ juz feel that he change so so much~~ anyway, change topic~~
we were there for the buffet, obviously i cant eat, so juz ate watermelon. kekeke.. den poor dar dar juz ate vege only... after the meal we went back to ping's rm. Uncle got us a bottle of red wine n they satart drinking in the rm. i tot red wine is fine, not very high alcoholic content. so they juz drank happily. after the first bottle, they return the empty bottle n uncle gave them another.. so here comes the second one. ping brought in her laptop n show us some funny indian guy's comedy show~~ i kinda bad in eng la~~ so quite a lot cant catch, still need darling to explain while laughing.
soon after the show ended, jin started to feel giddy n all.. so scary sia~~ first time see ppl got drank. she felt terrible so started crying.. scared me~ den after tat start talking stuff, den start laughing non stop. it was so contagious that i started laughing till my tummy so pain sia~~ hahaa... den after that she started talking words right from her heart that she has been hiding.. i cried upon hearing those stuff.. she seems to feel so terrible.. poor ger~~
after that we had a count down outside. keke.. we missed the count down actually. till ppl say happy new yr den we know count down over. missed the fireworks too!!! saded. but nvm~ got jin, ping, n darling by my side!!!
after that we went back to ping's rm, jin felt sleepy so she went to slp, sm was there with her, darling went missing... after that came back though. both sm n jin sleeping, dar also slept. pei dont know what to do also sit down there. den i went down all alone to look for ping lor.. she was there playing majong with her frenz. me? dont know how to play, juz sit down there doing nth. after that pei came down also looks bored n dont know what to do~ den dar came down. watch the soccer, den see them playing majong.
after the neighbouring table ppl left n jin they all came down, we start playing majong. hahhaa.. dont know how to play. anyhow hum tum. hahhahja.. quite fun! first time touching majong! hahaha.. so cool!!! know a bit bit now~ kekekee....
den we left. coz late le.. took cab back. great day!!!! all thanks to WAN PING< GUI JIN< GUI PEI< SHI MIN< AND < DARLING!!!!
Thursday, December 22, 2005
xmas~~
actually i was thinking, pondering whether i shld blog this down anot~ becoz i dont wanna leave any note of misery down anywhere to remind myself of sad things that happened to me~~ but in the end~~ i decided to blog it down~~ becoz~~ i really need to~~ i know i wont look back to my previous articles to see what i've wrote to remind myself of the pain~~ i juz hope that once i throw it into the computer~~ i'll forget it and leave it to the com.
this xmas is the worst xmas that i ever will have. though is the most holy one~ but is the worst. it makes me feel like i'm cursed~~ i'm cursed to be lonely for all my festive seasons. the first left me before v day, second left me before xmas~~ n yet.. the third. the one i love most, the one i treasure most, the one that love me most~~ the one tht.. i hate to see him cry n hurt him most~~ i got no choice but to leave him all alone this xmas to go for some holy class...
i really dont know~~~ dont know how to make it back~~ i know i cant make it back in any way, there is not another 2005 xmas.. but my love, my heart, my mind is still all with u~~ i left u something that i hope u wil like it... i hope that can represent me in bringing light to u when i'm not ard. i love u~~
u might feel that i can choose, i can rebel, i can juz go with u n fell out with my parents. but it is really something i cant do~ i'll try hard to gain my independent. trust me.
i love u!!
merry xmas
this xmas is the worst xmas that i ever will have. though is the most holy one~ but is the worst. it makes me feel like i'm cursed~~ i'm cursed to be lonely for all my festive seasons. the first left me before v day, second left me before xmas~~ n yet.. the third. the one i love most, the one i treasure most, the one that love me most~~ the one tht.. i hate to see him cry n hurt him most~~ i got no choice but to leave him all alone this xmas to go for some holy class...
i really dont know~~~ dont know how to make it back~~ i know i cant make it back in any way, there is not another 2005 xmas.. but my love, my heart, my mind is still all with u~~ i left u something that i hope u wil like it... i hope that can represent me in bringing light to u when i'm not ard. i love u~~
u might feel that i can choose, i can rebel, i can juz go with u n fell out with my parents. but it is really something i cant do~ i'll try hard to gain my independent. trust me.
i love u!!
merry xmas
Thursday, December 01, 2005
SO ACCURATE~~
wow~~ yesterday something funny happened~~ actually is the day b4 la~~ hhahaha
okay~ was talking to my collegue~ den her "scandalous" was like msging her n all~~ some nerdy guy la~~ but we think he like her la~~ den msg here n there~~ den i say sacarly later he msg ask u go for lunch~~ she was like..: "er.. better not~~" in the end~~ that guy really asked her out for lunch sia~~~ wahaHAHAHAH
den after that we talk talk~~ den dont know why talked abt she taking transport~~ den i asked her~~ " have u ever missed ur stop?? if missed den how?? what will happened??" den she told me so far she has NV missed her stop~~ nv slept till nv wake up b4~~ n ON THAT VERY DAY!!! she actually really over slept n almost missed her stop lor~~~ wahahahhahaha... but luckily got ppl wake her up la~~ den she was like~~ wow~~ eerie!!!
hahaha.a.. yup~~
today work?? boring~~ realise ppl there are com idiots~~ really know nuts abt com~~ only simple stuff they can do~~ den helped "witch" to do her com job today~~ SO COLD!! her place is like antartica sia~~ damn damn cold~~~ freezed!!
boring day~~ ended!!!
okay~ was talking to my collegue~ den her "scandalous" was like msging her n all~~ some nerdy guy la~~ but we think he like her la~~ den msg here n there~~ den i say sacarly later he msg ask u go for lunch~~ she was like..: "er.. better not~~" in the end~~ that guy really asked her out for lunch sia~~~ wahaHAHAHAH
den after that we talk talk~~ den dont know why talked abt she taking transport~~ den i asked her~~ " have u ever missed ur stop?? if missed den how?? what will happened??" den she told me so far she has NV missed her stop~~ nv slept till nv wake up b4~~ n ON THAT VERY DAY!!! she actually really over slept n almost missed her stop lor~~~ wahahahhahaha... but luckily got ppl wake her up la~~ den she was like~~ wow~~ eerie!!!
hahaha.a.. yup~~
today work?? boring~~ realise ppl there are com idiots~~ really know nuts abt com~~ only simple stuff they can do~~ den helped "witch" to do her com job today~~ SO COLD!! her place is like antartica sia~~ damn damn cold~~~ freezed!!
boring day~~ ended!!!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
st john~~
wow~ i went st john for the wkend~ which is totally cool~~ but.. kinda short~~
27/11/05
we set of from my hse to raffles place mrt~~ we took nel to outram den to raffles place~~
den reach there at abt 9.15am~~ one of the latest~ ops~~ coz i tot is 9.20am meet there~~
den we waited for food and some in charge to come with the food~~ they reached abt 10++ i guess~~ den we set of to st john by boat~~
looking at the movement of the boat~ starting so not use to it~~ felt giddy for quite some time~~ den after that quite alright~~ stood at the back of the boat~~ in the open place~~ quite crowded but was cool~~ dar dar was sweet, he actually tot of bringing guava with prune powder scare i'll feel giddy n vomit in the boat~~ but i was fine~~ no one vomitted actually.
abt 11+ we reached the island~~ waited outside our bunk for quite some time coz they went to office to get the keys n all~~ at the mean time we had our first activity, drawing grp FLAG!! hahaa.. 4 grps in total, tok gong, ai zai, gang hor,gong gong~~ yup~~ i'm in gong gong n dar dar in ai zai and JY.. er.. i only know first grp but dont know the name~~
soon after we got the bed sheets n all~~ forgot where i went or what i do~~ wasnt at my bed when they distributing the bed sheet n dar dar did the bed sheet thingy for me~~ so nice n tidy~~ thanks dar~~ so SWEET! kekee...
after lunch we started our program~~ first with our wonderful story of a past saint "SHUN". he is an emperor. YS N ER really can act sia~~ so so funny~~ n Ber.. funny birdy~~ lol.. and YM is the ELEPHANT~~ skinny elephant~~~den moved on to some introduction of our whole program thingy, the religious stuff.. quite dry but informative~~
den to the cooking of maggie mee~~ we used mass tin~~ used stones at the base to stable the tin~ den got solid fuel~~ 6 matches to light up the solid fuel~~ i know nuts abt all those~~ so the guys did the stuff~~ all i do is juz cooking the mee~~ n almost got he whole thing down the drain coz the base wasnt stable~~~ but in the end we are the first grp to omplete cooking the mee and taste the best~~ lol~~
den after that~~ hmm... got some outdoor treasure hunt thingy~~ that was like COOL~~ juz too short n not challenging enough~~ but was quite fun~~ 4 stations.. one is to act some part of scriptures out~~ one is to run abt looking for some one resemble some sage and look for some password~~ one is to go round doing survey at a very quiet empty place like st john..lucky we manage to complete the task~~ n lastly is to join up some stuff la~~ after that was BBQ!!
n dar dar got alot of nice extra food~ he was all the while doin the bbq stuff~~ scare he nv eat den i feed him here n there~~ ppl complain we too sweet~~ hahaha... while others ask is he my elder brother~~ wahahahaha.. but here i conclude he is my DARLING> DEAR> LAO GONG!! after that got nite trail actually but me n dar dar didnt go~~ continue doing up last part of the bbq~~ he made a great food that all likes sia~~ so nice so crispy so wow~~ lol.. n all juz chiong for it~~
actually didnt wanna slp~~ wanna go beach area have some romantic time with dar dar~~ but they didnt allow~~ say too dangerous~~ so watched movie~~ but was too tired~~ den went slp at abt 2 i guess~~ no watch dont know time~ den got some blind folding stuff~ some water games~~ dar was like so so fast la~ got all ppl wet~~ hahaa.. but the water was like not very deep la~~ no fun!!! den cant go far too~~ sianded~~~
den after that lunch~ prize presentation~~ nothing much le~~ yup~~
went back home~~ yeah~~
enjoyed~~~
I WANT THE PIX!!!
=)
27/11/05
we set of from my hse to raffles place mrt~~ we took nel to outram den to raffles place~~
den reach there at abt 9.15am~~ one of the latest~ ops~~ coz i tot is 9.20am meet there~~
den we waited for food and some in charge to come with the food~~ they reached abt 10++ i guess~~ den we set of to st john by boat~~
looking at the movement of the boat~ starting so not use to it~~ felt giddy for quite some time~~ den after that quite alright~~ stood at the back of the boat~~ in the open place~~ quite crowded but was cool~~ dar dar was sweet, he actually tot of bringing guava with prune powder scare i'll feel giddy n vomit in the boat~~ but i was fine~~ no one vomitted actually.
abt 11+ we reached the island~~ waited outside our bunk for quite some time coz they went to office to get the keys n all~~ at the mean time we had our first activity, drawing grp FLAG!! hahaa.. 4 grps in total, tok gong, ai zai, gang hor,gong gong~~ yup~~ i'm in gong gong n dar dar in ai zai and JY.. er.. i only know first grp but dont know the name~~
soon after we got the bed sheets n all~~ forgot where i went or what i do~~ wasnt at my bed when they distributing the bed sheet n dar dar did the bed sheet thingy for me~~ so nice n tidy~~ thanks dar~~ so SWEET! kekee...
after lunch we started our program~~ first with our wonderful story of a past saint "SHUN". he is an emperor. YS N ER really can act sia~~ so so funny~~ n Ber.. funny birdy~~ lol.. and YM is the ELEPHANT~~ skinny elephant~~~den moved on to some introduction of our whole program thingy, the religious stuff.. quite dry but informative~~
den to the cooking of maggie mee~~ we used mass tin~~ used stones at the base to stable the tin~ den got solid fuel~~ 6 matches to light up the solid fuel~~ i know nuts abt all those~~ so the guys did the stuff~~ all i do is juz cooking the mee~~ n almost got he whole thing down the drain coz the base wasnt stable~~~ but in the end we are the first grp to omplete cooking the mee and taste the best~~ lol~~
den after that~~ hmm... got some outdoor treasure hunt thingy~~ that was like COOL~~ juz too short n not challenging enough~~ but was quite fun~~ 4 stations.. one is to act some part of scriptures out~~ one is to run abt looking for some one resemble some sage and look for some password~~ one is to go round doing survey at a very quiet empty place like st john..lucky we manage to complete the task~~ n lastly is to join up some stuff la~~ after that was BBQ!!
n dar dar got alot of nice extra food~ he was all the while doin the bbq stuff~~ scare he nv eat den i feed him here n there~~ ppl complain we too sweet~~ hahaha... while others ask is he my elder brother~~ wahahahaha.. but here i conclude he is my DARLING> DEAR> LAO GONG!! after that got nite trail actually but me n dar dar didnt go~~ continue doing up last part of the bbq~~ he made a great food that all likes sia~~ so nice so crispy so wow~~ lol.. n all juz chiong for it~~
actually didnt wanna slp~~ wanna go beach area have some romantic time with dar dar~~ but they didnt allow~~ say too dangerous~~ so watched movie~~ but was too tired~~ den went slp at abt 2 i guess~~ no watch dont know time~ den got some blind folding stuff~ some water games~~ dar was like so so fast la~ got all ppl wet~~ hahaa.. but the water was like not very deep la~~ no fun!!! den cant go far too~~ sianded~~~
den after that lunch~ prize presentation~~ nothing much le~~ yup~~
went back home~~ yeah~~
enjoyed~~~
I WANT THE PIX!!!
=)
Thursday, November 24, 2005
i hurt him~~
hai... long story that i dont want to remember~~ but i've hurt him~~ again n again make him unhapy n sad~~ not because i've done anything that betrayed him.. but.. juz make him sad~~
darling i love u..
nothing gonna change my love for u~~
u are the one n only for me this life n forever
i dont know what to do to cheer u up~~
i juz wanna see the sunshine smile u use to have again~~
hearing u trying so so hard to talk properly in tears..
really HURT me so so hard~~
i juz cant stop tearing thinking of u crying all alone on ur bed~~
darling~~ i wont let u go~~
never~~ no matter what~~ i'm urs.. u are mine~~
nth can change this fact~
thanks for the love u've given me~~
thanks for the care u've shown~~
thanks for the tears u've shed for me~~
thanks for the change that u've done for me~
i can see~~ i can feel~~
i love u with all my heart n soul~~
darling~~ i LOVE u~~
darling i love u..
nothing gonna change my love for u~~
u are the one n only for me this life n forever
i dont know what to do to cheer u up~~
i juz wanna see the sunshine smile u use to have again~~
hearing u trying so so hard to talk properly in tears..
really HURT me so so hard~~
i juz cant stop tearing thinking of u crying all alone on ur bed~~
darling~~ i wont let u go~~
never~~ no matter what~~ i'm urs.. u are mine~~
nth can change this fact~
thanks for the love u've given me~~
thanks for the care u've shown~~
thanks for the tears u've shed for me~~
thanks for the change that u've done for me~
i can see~~ i can feel~~
i love u with all my heart n soul~~
darling~~ i LOVE u~~
Thursday, November 17, 2005
why m i like that?
sometimes i really wonder~~ why m i like that~~ i used to be so so contented with my life~~ so happy with everything ard me when i was a kid~~ when i start growing up~~ things changes.. i have my own views i have my own friends i have my own things to do~~ yet i dont have my own freedom, own choice, own world. i always admire ppl with firm character~~ do what they want~~ what they feel is right, defiant to parents at times to get their way thru. yet i can't. i really can't. i'm born in a way that as long as all are happy, i m happy~~
life shld be simple n happy~~ juz come to a conclusion that all are happy with.. will be gd le~~ BUT the complication comes when it is always not the case as all ppl have different views on different aspect. Y?? cause they live in a different environment, met with different ppl, different encounter, learn different things, see the world n life differently. thru experience, they have their own believe, perspective, mindset. u cant possibly have all to live life the same way. hence, all grow to have different mentality~
the problem arise here~ one family has more den one person~~ everyone got their on thinking and problem will arise~~ so who wins in the end?? of course the ones with louder voice, strongest stand will win~~ but doesnt mean those who juz kept quiet will lose. juz that they dont wanna talk in anger~~ they prefer to talk things out after all has cal down~~ calming down is real hard~~ i always cant do it too~~ getting too emotional is bad too~~ how?
i also dont know how~~ cox i also cant control my emotions too.. at times i feel like juz vanish in thin air... so that all problems will be solved. as i dont have to face them. sometimes i feel like juz running away totally. from my restricted home n go~~ but i've got my responsibility as a child. sometimes i feel like running away from the relationship~~ but I LOVE HIM!! SO SO MUCH!!! that i DONT want to. sometimes i hope that i'll get knock down by a car~ so that both my parents n darling will know that both parties love n care for me alot~~ and they can work hand n hand to see me recovering~~ sometimes i juz hope i can marry off straight away, so that i can at least break free from one side of the story~~
i know running away isnt a gd way~~ i m still thinking of a solution~~ i m trying to~~ really hope both my dar dar n my parents and stay in peace n harmony~~ hope to see them being happily together~~ coz they are all the ppl i LOVE MOST in the whole wide world~~ can lose anyone~ but THEM!!
life shld be simple n happy~~ juz come to a conclusion that all are happy with.. will be gd le~~ BUT the complication comes when it is always not the case as all ppl have different views on different aspect. Y?? cause they live in a different environment, met with different ppl, different encounter, learn different things, see the world n life differently. thru experience, they have their own believe, perspective, mindset. u cant possibly have all to live life the same way. hence, all grow to have different mentality~
the problem arise here~ one family has more den one person~~ everyone got their on thinking and problem will arise~~ so who wins in the end?? of course the ones with louder voice, strongest stand will win~~ but doesnt mean those who juz kept quiet will lose. juz that they dont wanna talk in anger~~ they prefer to talk things out after all has cal down~~ calming down is real hard~~ i always cant do it too~~ getting too emotional is bad too~~ how?
i also dont know how~~ cox i also cant control my emotions too.. at times i feel like juz vanish in thin air... so that all problems will be solved. as i dont have to face them. sometimes i feel like juz running away totally. from my restricted home n go~~ but i've got my responsibility as a child. sometimes i feel like running away from the relationship~~ but I LOVE HIM!! SO SO MUCH!!! that i DONT want to. sometimes i hope that i'll get knock down by a car~ so that both my parents n darling will know that both parties love n care for me alot~~ and they can work hand n hand to see me recovering~~ sometimes i juz hope i can marry off straight away, so that i can at least break free from one side of the story~~
i know running away isnt a gd way~~ i m still thinking of a solution~~ i m trying to~~ really hope both my dar dar n my parents and stay in peace n harmony~~ hope to see them being happily together~~ coz they are all the ppl i LOVE MOST in the whole wide world~~ can lose anyone~ but THEM!!
Monday, October 31, 2005
lost weight!!!
me n dar dar got sweeter den before le~~
lol... so happy~~ we got so sweet.. reunion le~~ lol~~ okay.. gg mad~~
okie.. today weighed! lighter le~~ now 77kg!! kekee..
den got ppl say i look pretty den slimmer~~ wahhahahahaha..
so happy today.. making a secret pressie for dar dar for our 4th month
YES!! 4th month is coming!!! fast right?
wahhahahahahaha...
kekeke.e.. k la~ kinda crap here...
yesterday cla paper done le~ now with maths n chem le~~ jia you!!!!!!!
lol... so happy~~ we got so sweet.. reunion le~~ lol~~ okay.. gg mad~~
okie.. today weighed! lighter le~~ now 77kg!! kekee..
den got ppl say i look pretty den slimmer~~ wahhahahahaha..
so happy today.. making a secret pressie for dar dar for our 4th month
YES!! 4th month is coming!!! fast right?
wahhahahahahaha...
kekeke.e.. k la~ kinda crap here...
yesterday cla paper done le~ now with maths n chem le~~ jia you!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
a very wrong moved
told him something i shldnt have told him yesterday... haiz...
my mum n i were talking den suddenly she brought the issue that my relatives like dont have very gd impression of him... he used to be asking alot about how my parents thought of him and all.. so i decided to let him know abt that.. haiz.. i was a wrong moved...
because i told him that.. den he actually got very bu shuang abt my uncle.. cause it was juz recently that my uncle saw him~~ juz we brought this issue up~ haiz... dar use to say that he don't want to have any tea ceremony when we got married. dont even want to have any wed dinner.. i was quite upset cause to me that marks the start of our marriage and is when that i can announce to the whole world i found my mr right who will love me and dote on me forever..
not long ago.. he got to know a fren of mine.. changing his thinking of not having a tea ceremony and the wed dinner.. because he found out that it is a gd way to so call earn back the money we use for the whole wedding thingy. den he agreed to have all that.. i was so delighted.. because my dream of my wedding day is going to become reality again~~~
haiz.. but all things juz ruin in my hands... i actually told him abt the impression thingy making him dislike my uncle now and saying that no more tea ceremony and he will nto be invited to my wedding dinner... my that uncle is my god father as well.. he dote on me alot too.. i really hope to have his blessing for my marriage too.. n hope dar dar can get along well with him too.. but now things turn out to be otherwise.. dreams is back to dreams again~~ haiz.. i made the very wrong moved...
my mum n i were talking den suddenly she brought the issue that my relatives like dont have very gd impression of him... he used to be asking alot about how my parents thought of him and all.. so i decided to let him know abt that.. haiz.. i was a wrong moved...
because i told him that.. den he actually got very bu shuang abt my uncle.. cause it was juz recently that my uncle saw him~~ juz we brought this issue up~ haiz... dar use to say that he don't want to have any tea ceremony when we got married. dont even want to have any wed dinner.. i was quite upset cause to me that marks the start of our marriage and is when that i can announce to the whole world i found my mr right who will love me and dote on me forever..
not long ago.. he got to know a fren of mine.. changing his thinking of not having a tea ceremony and the wed dinner.. because he found out that it is a gd way to so call earn back the money we use for the whole wedding thingy. den he agreed to have all that.. i was so delighted.. because my dream of my wedding day is going to become reality again~~~
haiz.. but all things juz ruin in my hands... i actually told him abt the impression thingy making him dislike my uncle now and saying that no more tea ceremony and he will nto be invited to my wedding dinner... my that uncle is my god father as well.. he dote on me alot too.. i really hope to have his blessing for my marriage too.. n hope dar dar can get along well with him too.. but now things turn out to be otherwise.. dreams is back to dreams again~~ haiz.. i made the very wrong moved...
our third month~~
our third month falls on a friday.. dar dar normally will go home after he is release from his camp and we normally will only meet up on saturday morning.. but this day.. he came my hse!!! ekekeke.. so happy~~ we spent the whole night together.. din do much stuff.. but juz sit down talk talk... den exchange pressie~~
he was so so sweet.. he actually spending lots of his time doing cross-stitch for me~~ meltz~~ cant imagine the process.. a guy making a cross stitch~~~ wonder if he had ever made one for his ex... hmmm... oh!! and her gave me a necklace~~ kekeke.. to tie me up?? lock up my heart to be juz for u? kekekee.... nice necklace.. is a heartshape den.. but is like 2 heartshape putting together making up a 3 D effect~ dont know how to describe. dont have good vocab here.. ops! kekekee...
i gave him a book. juz a book that hopefully he is still interested in and help him in his interest~ yup!
love u forever!!! HAPPY 3RD MONTH!!! and the 4th is coming~~ what shld i do for him???
he was so so sweet.. he actually spending lots of his time doing cross-stitch for me~~ meltz~~ cant imagine the process.. a guy making a cross stitch~~~ wonder if he had ever made one for his ex... hmmm... oh!! and her gave me a necklace~~ kekeke.. to tie me up?? lock up my heart to be juz for u? kekekee.... nice necklace.. is a heartshape den.. but is like 2 heartshape putting together making up a 3 D effect~ dont know how to describe. dont have good vocab here.. ops! kekekee...
i gave him a book. juz a book that hopefully he is still interested in and help him in his interest~ yup!
love u forever!!! HAPPY 3RD MONTH!!! and the 4th is coming~~ what shld i do for him???
mum's operation~
ya~ as my title goes.. my mum really went for an operation not long ago.. she had some.. er.. chinese is called niao shi jing n if i m not wrong is some bladder tension thingy. ya...
she went to KK hospital and had her operation~~ it was a minor operation so wasnt that bad~~ she was admitted a day before.. den the next day she had a minor operation which lasted for think around 2 hours?? after which den she got to rest there for a day.. den the next day can go home le~~ dar dar went with me to fetch her back~~
we thought that everything is gonna be fine.. but when she's back.. she said that the problem still persist.. sianZ~~ den she went back for appointment and the doctor said that it is juz the initial state.. it will be better.. but after a few days.. the doctor called back and said that my mum got to be admitted again for a second round of operation~ she say that she will charge her lesser as she felt bad not being able to cure her for the first time too..
den another whole day spent in hospital again. luckily.. she is feeling better now.. no more leakage when she has cough or when she's sneezing.. initially she is not allowed to do a single hsework.. but now she's able to do some light job le~~ yeah~~ but now... haiz.. coz mummy din work for a month and is not allowed to work for another 2 more months.. sobz... our family is having a financial problem soon~~ hopefully i'm able to start work straight after my a levels so that i will be able to at least lighten their load by not taking money from dad or sis anymore~~
she went to KK hospital and had her operation~~ it was a minor operation so wasnt that bad~~ she was admitted a day before.. den the next day she had a minor operation which lasted for think around 2 hours?? after which den she got to rest there for a day.. den the next day can go home le~~ dar dar went with me to fetch her back~~
we thought that everything is gonna be fine.. but when she's back.. she said that the problem still persist.. sianZ~~ den she went back for appointment and the doctor said that it is juz the initial state.. it will be better.. but after a few days.. the doctor called back and said that my mum got to be admitted again for a second round of operation~ she say that she will charge her lesser as she felt bad not being able to cure her for the first time too..
den another whole day spent in hospital again. luckily.. she is feeling better now.. no more leakage when she has cough or when she's sneezing.. initially she is not allowed to do a single hsework.. but now she's able to do some light job le~~ yeah~~ but now... haiz.. coz mummy din work for a month and is not allowed to work for another 2 more months.. sobz... our family is having a financial problem soon~~ hopefully i'm able to start work straight after my a levels so that i will be able to at least lighten their load by not taking money from dad or sis anymore~~
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