my school started!!

my school started!!! oh man!! so happening.. n hall life= sleep late!!! so tiring!!!

hahaha.. hall 11 have very nice ppl.. the sch bash was happening... the ppl wear cool n fun...
lesson was great n interesting.. so discussive, so many thought provoking question posted. so cool! so different from jc. so so different. everything was so casual n so self motivation kinda thingy. not like school life where the teacher will start threatening u from the start of day one that u must study if not this if not that.. no stress from school as yet but stress from within.
suprisingly, not alot of PRC but quite a number of malaysian.. guess they are scholars there. scary~~~ saw a few familiar faces and feels home.

miss darling alot. coz couldnt get to see him most of the time. still waiting for him to appear outside my room as a surprise!!yeah.. waiting~~~

keke... great time great experiencer, so new so fresh.. but got myself damn sick.. ya.. got fever a bit, bad cough, a bit of flu. yeah. terrible isnt it? school just started for a wk~~~

yeah... that's abt all. more to come!!!

The start of another new phase of life

yes.. is another beginning, i'm moving into a uni life. moreover, i'm moving into the hostel getting a taste of how will it be like. the great experience that i always want to have. BUT!! It's a tiring start man!!!!

tuesday i've got to know i'm posted to hall 11!!! YES!! HALL 11!!! terrible isnt it? the furthest away from school. but is the first stop when the bus enter our school premises. then my room mate was kinda sad n panic fearing that it'll be very troublesome n all for us. i also dont really like the distance. lucky they have shuttle bus which is FOC.. kekeke... then we decided to go down to ntu to check our hall out. if we were able to choose our room, we'll take it.

so.. wednesday, we went down to ntu at around.. 11?? i think so.. hahaha.. then we went to ask the seniors abt the thing. HAHAHA... we are able to choose!! but not alot of choices.. hahaha.. the rest the seniors had taken them already. we got a gd corner rm with not a bad number. 1048. kekee.. sounds not bad huh? next wk 4 D first price man. hahaha.. anyway, we then went to see our room!!! HORRIBLE!!! so dusty, so dirty, so many scotch tapes around. EEeeeEEee...
so we decided to go back the next day to clean it.

thinking that we'll be able to clean it in one day time. we brought our cleaning stuff n all on thursday.. to our horror, we only manage to clean the table, the cupboards and the bed!!!! from 11 till around 3!!! 4 hr!!!! ty have got tuition later in the day. so we just went for lunch then went back to clean up a little more, around 5pm we went back.

friday, dar came n help us paint the wall.. kinda illegal, but lots of ppl did that. ahahhahaa.. n it really makes our room brighter and nicer. CLEANER!! we then start pasting papers and all in the cupboard. cleaning the shelf, cleaning the window. SO SO TIRED!!! then we couldnt take it.. around 3++ we went back too.. hahaa.. another 4 hr!!!!

saturday i didnt intend to go back, but went back becoz the floor is still DIRTY!!!!! so we clean up the floor and pack our stuff. from around 3pm till around 6?? hahaha.. around there. cool. best day. most relax. brought alot of stuff though. kekeke..

today is sunday.. we have a briefing later in the evening at... MARINA SQUARE??!! yup. not in hall.. sianded... still have stuff to bring in but.. HOW TO BRING?? dont know to go down straight to marina square first or to go back hall, put my stuff den go.... haix... still thinking~~~

thanks to all that helped me~~ mummy, for taking my stuff out for me, sis for giving me some money to buy some stuff, daddy for giving me thinner, n DARLING!! for helping me to paint the wall and to clean the floor, get our stuff into position and all. THANKS!!! *muackx*

Lao gong asked me to do this:

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this. Ready? Start~

1.Darling (Dom dom)

2. Lao Gong

3.Mummy

4.Lao Pa

5. Ai ren

6. Huining

7.Shelia

8. SM

9.Kala

10. Wen Yao

11.Alan

12. Mei Hui

13. Tian Ying

14. Pei Pei

15. Pei Wen

16. Sally

17. Letchimy

18. Dinosaurs

19. Jing Jing

20. You xiang

How did you meet #14?I meet her in SRJC.. We were classmate! She used to be my junior too..

What would you do if you never met #1?I'll never know what is true love n never be able to truely be myself. Can't do anything if i dont meet him.

What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?I'll Laugh my head off!!

Did you ever like #19?Yeah She's nice!!

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?Er, unless they want to be lesbians?

Describe #3:short, quite plump, short hair, naggy, sharp when scolding yet soft at heart. great cook. very protective mother.

Do you think #8 is attractive?hmm.. in certain way i guess, IF NOT HE WONT BE MY RIVAL!! GOT MY LAO GONG AWAY FROM ME!!

Tell me something about #7.Currently studying in Mass Com IN NP.

Do you know any of #12's family?Her mum. Saw her before. Went her hse once.

What is #18's favorites?I DONT KNOW. Just know him not long ago. =P

What would you do if #18 confesses that he/she likes you?Wahahahaa.. i'll laugh my head off.. i'm not his type he'll nv be my type.

What language does #15 speak?Chinese, English

Who is #9 going out with? Whoever that dates her out.

How old is #16 now?19 though we were born in the same yet but her BDAY is on the last day of the year!!!

When was the last time you spoke to #13?Just called her to plan a meet up tml!

Who is #2's favourite singer/band?MAYDAY

Would you ever date #4?DATE? MY LAO PA LEHZ.. no need to date la..

Would you ever date #7?AH DUH?? great friend.

Is #15 single?NO LONGER SINGLE.. she n her wei wen~~ kekeke..

What is #10's last name?Er... full name is Adrian Kuang Wen Yao

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11?NEVER!! he's my jie mei!!

What school does #3 go to?'does' is referring to the present rite... Not studying now....

Where does #6 live?Kaki Bukit

What's your favourite thing about #5?Everything!! my airen lehz~~ the way she plays her piano just melt my heart.

Have you seen #1 naked? Even not now?? I'll be able to see in the FUTURE!! wahaha..

Now, 5 people I would like to see doing this

1. Dom Dom

2.Cai wei

3. Jing yi

4. Shi min

5. ai ren

a test to be done becoz lao gong wants me to.

7 things I plan to do before I die:

1. Go Europe with dom for our honey moon.

2.Slim down till i reach the weight (at least) 55kg.

3.Marry my one n only beloved darling Dominic The Swee Yuen peacefully.

4.Have either a driving license or at least one for motor bike?

5.To have a family of my own living in our dream house.

6. Have a least a kid! I love kids!

7.Design a full set of outfit, a top, a bottom, a bag, a pair of shoe and maybe some jewelery for myself n my darling. (provided he'll like it of course.)

7 things I can do:

1. Speak Chinese and English fluently.

2. Earn my own pocket money even though im studying now

3. Cook for my darling though he seldom let me do that n think still not good enough to satisfy his taste bud.

4. Laugh non-stop like i got asthma attack.

5.Cry be it if i'm happy,sad, angry or what so ever.

6.Love my darling more each day

7.Sleep. Who cant? kekee...

7 things i cannot do:

1.Stop crying n reason out what i have in mind during quarrels.

2. Love my one n only lesser each day.

3. Hold a snake in my hand

4. Resist the tempatation of durian

5. Scream or shout at people i love.

6. Understand computers

7. Talk less! keke.. i m TALKATIVE

7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:

1.Sense of humor

2.The way he carry himself

3. Eyes

4. The way he speaks must impress me

5.Sunshine boy look!! LIKE MY DOM DOM

6. Responsibility

7. SMILE

7 things that I say most often:

1. haha

2.SHIT!

3.mai lai la~

4. no lo

5. huh?

6. ok lo...

7. nevermind

7 celebrity crushes:

1. Chen xiao dong

2. Zhou Chu Ming

3. Qi Yi Wu (i've seen him in real life! so tanned so cool! so cute!! his smile is dashing)

4. David tao

5. Xiao Zhu (Luo Zhi Xiang)

6. Wu Yan Zhu

7. JAY CHOU

7 people I want to do this:

1. Darling

2. Airen

3. Jing yi

4. Cai wei

5. lao Gong (DONE)

6. shelia

7. Hui Ning

7__Favourites

Favourite colour(s): Blue,Orange,lime green, black, purple

Favourite food: PASTA, Darling's cheese fried rice! laksa, dark chocolate, lime icecream from swensen,alot!!

Favorite song(s): It keeps changing.. But basically songs which are upbeat, hip, RNB or meaningful

Favourite movie: MY SASSY GIRL (so funny so sweet so touching!)

Favourite sport: Swimming cos I wont feel myself sweating

Favourite day of the week: Sunday (it's the day just with dar dar n no one else)

Favourite season:Winter ( though cold but just look so lovely)

Favourite ice-cream: CHOCOLATE, Mint, CHOCOLATE CHIP, Lime!

CurrentsCurrent mood:Bored.. the test is too long... n just bored

Current taste: No taste but craving for food.

Current clothes:SRJC ORION tshirt, shorts, undergarments, rubber band and my RING! kekee..

Current toenail: pink

Current time: 3.33pm

Current surroundings: my room boring rm with only me

Current annoyances: CANNOT EAT JUNK FOOD. I'm still on diet

Current thoughts: How's the office now after i left. Is darling thinking of me. How would my life be after i enter UNI!!!!

First

First best friends: Siti Ramziyani (my primary school classmate)

First crush: my primary school classmate Ong Cheng Keong

First movie: forgot le la.. it's so many years ago!

First lie: I forgot... by the way, who actually can remember?

Lasts

Last cigarette: There wasnt any 1st in the 1st place......

Last drink (alcohol): I dont drink

Last crush: DOMINIC THE SWEE YUEN!!

Last movie: The Omen

Last phone call: Darling calling from his workplace.

Last CD played: Think i very l0ng never listen to cds. now is MP3

Haves

Have you ever dated your best friend(s): nope

Have you ever broken the law: if lettering consider as breaking law.

Have you ever been arrested:for what?? i'm a good citizen

Have you ever skinny dipped: no~

Have you ever been on TV: yup. when i was pri 3. up for a children program.remember?? sundays morning?? haha

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: no.. but i kena kissed by my lao gong she was drunk~~~ haha

5 things you are wearing: T-shirt, shorts, undergarment, rubberband and ring

4 things you've done today: watched miss universe, clean up my room, blog, checked email

3 things you can hear right now: the fan, the birds' chirping away outside, the traffic noise pollution

1 thing you do when you're bored: Sleep

dan dan inccident

today darling called n said dan dan got diarrhoea in the morning~ he got so freaked out~~ so scared.. so scared of loosing love one again~~ yes... i do mean again~~ coz he lost his beloved grandma some time ago..

i can deeply feel the fear in him. at that very moment, i just wish that i can be right beside him assuring that everything will be fine~

so i took half day~ went right down to his hse straight~~

dan dan was fine~~ gd as usual~~ guess is just that his stomach couldnt really accept the change in food i suppose. in the afternoon, his poo was alright. solid as usual. gd~!! back to healthy dan dan again!! darling was so relief!!

left is the healthy dan dan, n right is dong dong..

arent they cute?? kekeke... =)

tired!!!

yesh~~ saturday was a fun day man~!!! went to play pool with sm, gj, wp and wy. Of course my darling is around! after which we went to sing k box!!! ahaha.. fun man~ really fun!!

sm drove me back home. thanks bro! hahah.. super car!! but singapore dont have nice road for it to run~ cool car man!! kekeke...

today so so so tired!! couldnt wake up in the morning for work. lucky mummy woke me up. den today dont know why, very happy! hahaha.. great mood but still tired. just no mood for work. slacking around.

darling is sick. so sick. he didnt even went for class today. so poorthing. no one look after him at home too.. doctor still suspect that he might get dengue fever. lucky nv.

he blog today. so sweet. short entry yet so touching!! hahaha.. yeah. love him lots. alot alot alot!!!

so tired.. still tired.. good night all..

virus in the air~

yesh~~ darling is sick.. poor boy~ took care of our two babies and forgot all about himself. now sick at home with fever. how i wish i can go down n look after him now~~

today wore the clothes that he bought for me to work. ahaha.. every one was commenting that it's nice~~ hahaa.. feel so pretty and happy today. wahhaa.. work became much easier and less boring for me~ wahaha.. all ask me put make up la this and that.. make me so shy~ kekeke..

den today come a new boy~ shao ming~ yup.. he speaks more chinese den english. yesh. should be a poly grad as he is gg to ns this september. kinda easy to talk person. yeah man...

kala sick today too.. terribly sick. fever, cough, flu. wow.. u name it she has it. terrible. and she self torturing by gg to work. sitting there looking so pathetic.. poor girl.

that's about all for today. take care~

the photos of the clubbing night

It is the clubbing night photos.. kekee... three couples were there... up here.. the first couple also the hp owner who took photos for us..
<----- wan ping and wen yao....
<----Next in up is guijin and shi min!! kekee.. In the end one got drunk and one?? blood vessels burst due to too much of vomitting.. oh my god!! the couple that suffered the most!
<----- of course the writer of this blogger.. me n my darling.. dominic!!! the most stable couple as one is a good drinker who dont get drank so easily and the other is non drinker who dont drink at all.. kekeke.. Following two photos: left is wanping and me~~!!! right is guijin and me!!! so chio isnt it? wahhaha... wonderful photos.. =)

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today dont know what to put as title. so name it untitled.

after work i went down to darling's house to see my bao beis, dan dan and dong dong. so cute!! i feed them palette they fighting for it man. see dan dan so naughty but yet cant win dong dong. dong dong just put half of its body straight into the food bowl n cover almost all the place stopping dan dan from eating the food. so bad. stupid dan dan cant do anything about it but to just squeeze in to get its food.

play with them a while den dar dar said he got a blog like me already!! wahahhaa.. i went to see.. so sweet~~ kekee... anyone interested? address is http://firedeice.blogspot.com yeah. kekeke..

tired tired... how i wish tml is last day of work. hahahaa.. den i can slp more soon~~ kekee...

~missing~

i dont know how to control myself. i dont know is this right or wrong. ppl might say i pamper him too much that he might take me for granted but i just couldnt stop myself to treat him any better.

3days been with him. now i'm at home n he's having his lesson.. i miss him so much. so so much. i really miss those days that we were spending almost every seconds together. though there were little unhappiness happened but all ended up good n got us closer. i love it when i feel so secured so treasured in his hands when we were in pubs or club. i love the way he keep holding me like wanting the whole world to know i m his n all the guys in the place to know that i'm attach to him n no one can get me from him.

wow. so happening 3 days. coming back home like throwing me back to reality, throwing me back to my real life. kinda reluctant to return from the special treats i've got. but i have no choice.

i miss him. really do...

day 3

went to get a new bottle of course. have to. den he told his friend that is him who broke the bottle. felt so bad. den went to the shop, the owner said dou dou is dead. so sad. so so sad. haix... den we looked around n got another loop ear back home. he is dong dong. kekeke...

so adorable. not that timid as dan dan. yes. that dan dan, eat n eat n eat none stop. through out the night also keep eating.so we go dong dong back home, he went to buy a smaller fan and a vacum cleaner. i was looking after the rabbits. den doze off. cried too much the night b4 n was so tired. later in the night we went to sm house for soccer final!!!

got there, chit chat a while, new friends were introduced. eugene and hansheng. hopefully right. yup. sm's father came back. he is a very successful business man. was up in newspapers and tv often. he bought back some food and in the end he came to sm's room and suggested on bring us to a pub. oh my!! sm's father bringing us to PUB?? he was so so friendly. first time ever. all sm's friends were shock including us. we really went to a pub nearby. he sang n treated us drinks. yup. talked alot. he assured guijn that sm's mother's problem he'll take care of it. as long as she'll be able to take gd care of sm n love him. guijin was so touched and cried.

after a while we went back to his place. suppose to watch soccer. i saw the first goal, which is due to a penalty shot. france got in. den heard the second goal...... n i... ZzzZZzzzzZZZzz...

heard that italy got the world cup champion and is due to a penalty shot after extra time. yup.
cool~~ now gg back home soon. hopefully wont see black faces... =P

ENJOYED MY LIFE MAN!! COOL!!!

day 2

supposingly we are gg to sentosa n play man. the sun the sea n the sand. yet.. all couldnt take it n make it. yeah... so in the end we went down to get our rabbit back!!! one is dan dan n the other is dou dou. dan dan is a lion head double main loop ear rabbit, while dou dou is dwarf rabbit. so so cute!! before we go.. went shopping!! hahahaa....

darling spent so much on me man!!! first bought a adidas slipper for me.. den went to city hall. went up raffles city. got a full set sports wear from royal sporting house. 80++ bucks. ah!!! just a top and a pair of shorts, so much. scary!!! next i told him about a shop, island shop. they sell those type of clothes that he will like. so we went there n walk around. in the end, he got me to try clothes here and there, a dress, a top, lots of different skirts n all.. like modelling around the shop. in the end, he bought me a simple yellow top, with a long skirt, 2 pairs of earrings and a bracelete. all in all.. cost him $170. OH MY GOD!!! expensive right? the shop retailer all envy me. hahaha.. so sweet of him.

den went to collect our rabbit. they are so adorable. however, dou dou was sick. they said they'll look after it for us first. see whether is there any improvement when we get dan dan back home. then we started to became very busy.got the cage ready, this n that. put it in. den do the platform ate some dinner. (darling didnt eat. he cooked wash den the food turn cold n he threw them away!!) haix.. after which when the platform was done, it's already 11++pm. late huh? finally we wanna get the cage done in proper. so i've got to carry it out n he'll do the rest. however, it's my first time handling they animal. wasnt very gd at it. in the end i dropped the bottle for the rabbit, it broke and the water just spilled. saded. he screamed at me. was so shocked, scared, n felt so much like a maid to him suddenly.scolded me while i clean up the place. after which i just cry in the room. i really dont know what to do. he scolded n said that i should go back. suddenly got the urge to... but i'm scare. yeah. very scared. just like the rabbit i shivered in the room.

after that he apologise. he said he isnt good. he suggested that i should get another bf n dump him. crazy. how will i be able to do that? i really dont know. maybe i fan jian, no matter what he do, i'll still want to stay by his side. i want to...

next morning, everything was back to normal. he slowly introduce me to the rabbit again teaching me in a more patient tone getting me back to norm. though now better, but still have the fear in me.. yup.

chalet~~~~~~ day 1

yoohoo~~ had a great 3 days wkend sia~~ wowowowowowowo... great experience n great fun!

first up.. we met up while darling went to school for his exam. SM(just back from melborne), guijin, wanping and i met up at wan ping's place to chill out and the 3 of us (girls) went to doll up ourselves for the night!! wen yao came at abt 8++pm. wan ping n guijin had some make up experience when i had none! hahaha.. yup. den i wan trying my very best to do something yet not to be too exageratting. hahaa.. den they were curling up their eye lashes. den i realise mine is so short n so deep in that so hard to curl it up. the professional ping ping up to rescue!! hahaha.. she was able to curl it up! bravo!

den we start putting eye shadow n this n that. last come the mascara. disaster for me man!! i accidentally got it onto my face when it's still not dry yet. wow.. den wan ping n guijin tried hard n help me out with it.. finally everything was fine! hahaha.. looks funny but still ok~ kekeke...

went to music underground located near parkmall. yeah. first time to clubbing. wow.. it's like so so different. we reach damn early. so kinda like empty. not really fun. den the crowd only comes in around 1am. late isnt it? once we reach they got tow bottles of martel n me? of course just coke n nothing! kekeke.. they started drinking. guijin n sm was like drinking n drinking when wan ping was taking lots of photos n wen yao just sit down n chill out. dom? hahha.. run around like home. hahaha.. nah.. went to look for you xiang outside. yup. they talk den he went to withdraw money. yup. i juz try to squeeze myself into the two couples in the mean time n have fun. hahahahaa...

when guijin finally said she cant drink anymore, comes the waitor cheers with all ppl on our table. she got no choice but to drink it. n more, she drank the whole cup in one go!!!!! oh man!! and right before the clock strike 12, she was drank. haha.. de she go around kissing all ppl.. lucky by the cheek. N MY DARLING KENA ALSO. saded.. yup.

we dance, play, listen to the music, see how my dar dar shine on the dance floor. look at those figure damn good bar top dancer dancing so nicely, so stylish!!! but the pole dancing lady... SO SKINNY> yee... hahaha...

around abt 2?? i think so.. hahaa.. we got a cab n went back. guijin was drank yeah, wan ping was feeling bad... keep wanting to vomit. wen yao didnt drink much, so nothing. dom solid la.. still fresh when he drink so much. sm.. worst, his blood vessel burst n the face was like with patches of red area here n there, the eyes like blood shot red. oh man!!! scary!!! me?? hahah.. didnt drink. HAD FUN.

friendship

yesterday talked out with ning. yeah.. i kinda neglected the friendship...

dont know.. i know my fault. i too zhong se qing you. all i think is my darling n others will be rank second. be it my family, my friends, my money, my work, my studies. i know that's kinda extreme.. but i guess that's who i am. i trying hard to balance between darling n others but kinda hard. coz i really love him alot. maybe i should really strike a balance so that if one day he's not around or maybe one day he doesnt want me.. that's kinda impossible i guess.. kekee... i'll not be alone. yeah man~

seriously, now my life is only him. i dont know is it the right thing, but i juz goes with my heart. no matter what happened in the future, i nv regret that i love him whole heartedly before. YES! i'll nv. becoz with him i learnt alot. i'm growing up.. still in the process but i believe i m growing up. though no longer the goodie goodie me.. but i dont think that's anything bad either becoz i didnt turn that bad either. hahaha.. yeah man...

today went for a class, religious class, suppose to end at 11pm, but it ended earlier. ya.. told darling kinda last min. coz i dont know how to let him know i'm gg. he kinda reluctant n unhappy when i told him that i'll be involve in any sorts of religious stuff. yup. so.. was thinking whole day how not to anger him yet can go for the class. in the end, i still upset him. he said i didnt discuss with him at all. since i've decided, no point telling him n ask him not to be angry. true enough. i should respect him more n ask for his opinion way before. he asked me why i want to go. i dont know. simply becoz i feel like gg. though i'm no longer the goodie mummy's girl, but i still have my belief in my religion. that's all i can say. yup. hope he'll understand it one day n support me instead.

friday is coming. counting down for our one year!! counting down for the fun interesting wkend. counting down to the days of freedom...

thursday

i guess should start with yesterday. dar got some problem at home.. den at night he called me.. we were talking.. den he talked abt himself as he was brought up in a violence family he might became one as well.. after we got married he might beat me up n abuse me too.. i told him that's the history, that's the past... just forget abt the things happened to the last generation. he commented that i still living in the ancient time. He said that it's now scientifically proven that this family background will have child who will react the same way. He asked me to think twice before marrying him.. i was shock.. it's a devastated sentence out of his mouth. to him might be a comment made casually or juz a simple warning.. but to me.. it's kinda like rejection.. a rejection to my love.. kinda like... no matter how much i do.. how much i show him i love him, how well i treat him, how much love i shower him with, he'll nv be able to love me till the extent that he'll prevent himself to turn violent, he'll nv be able to control himself n not act violently towards me.. i have so much faith in him, giving him all i have, but yet.. he keep doubting himself, doubting his love for me... doubting everything. i msg him i dont care who is out there whether better than him or not, all i know is i love him. i ask him not to think abt better option outside for me, all i wanna know is he want me or not.. he just avoid the qns n ask me to turn in early. i didnt know how to react to it.. i was.. really.. sad.. it gives me an impression that he himself is not sure whether he wants me or not. i know.. maybe he's scared that he'll really turn out to be a violent husband that's why he doesnt wish to say a want but put me in deep shit in the future. but to me.. a want is really more important than my life. i believe very much in love. once i step into it i'll nv be able to get out of it. i can suffer, in pain, in poverty, in silence, as long as i know that he still love me it's all more than enough... that's all i want.

hmm.. today started off quite well.. becoz darling gave me 2 morning calls though i wasnt able to pick them up as i was bathing. den got a msg from him trying to see if i'm awake or not.. den the last msg was, u must take care too. den no msg no calls nothing till around 1.30pm. he msged me.. i was so relief to see his msg.. i thought he'll really give me up... but he still miss me.. so happy...

but den... he still kinda down.. ya lo... dont know how to cheer him up too... i must jia you!!!

dar dar

this will be only be talking abt dar dar n me...

that day after the night tour. went to dar dar's hse.. den he suddenly say let's not meet up for around 3 to 4 months. i was shock n i dont want. den i kinda teared. he said it's becoz he knows that he himself is kinda moody n prone to mood swing lately, always flare up due to small matter n i kena la.. ya.. den say that period of time will let him cool down n all.. i dont want it.. really dont want it.. i cant imagine life without seeing him or having him around me...

den he said why?? is it becoz no one is chasing me that's why i stick to him so tightly? i said no.. i love u. that's y. really love u alot. alot more than i can imagine. till the extend that some times i'll tend to wonder does u love me as much as i love u.. den he said something abt gg after other girls n all.. den i said go lo.. u wanna go i also no choice. den he kinda like sa jiao to me asking why i nv try to keep him by my side. i said he also everytime say that to me.. den he direct me to see him eye to eye n said. i actually dont like it when other guys talk to u or when u go out with other guys. when u say wanna go clubbing and all i didnt want u to go de.. i juz didnt say n all.. i kinda touched. first time hearing things like that from his mouth. kinda feel like i'm in a dream. really love it. love to have him so tender loving by my side hugging me... feeling so secure n that he's all mine!!!

haix.. den he said he's gg australia to study his 2nd yr of uni.. i was kinda down but it's his studies, i cant say anything abt it.. but he said if i dont want den he wont go.. den ytd he said he'll only go for 2 months n experience a new kinda lifestyle... den today... he said he wanna go there study 1 yr of honest with yx. 1 year.. wow.. that's so.. cool.. ya.. hope his dream will come true n that he'll be very very happy.

haix.. dont know why recently everytime meet him will end up like kinda unhappy. i also dont know how to cheer him up. only he'll be able to make me laugh n smile but i always fail to be e clown.. hope he'll be fine soon.

darling.. i love u.. alot.. alot.. alot.. really... alot..

wonderful night out

yeah.. had a night out not long ago.. it's on the 10th june. with the religious class ppl n my cousin n of course my one n only we went for the perfect night out. had games n all for bonding n it's kinda great i should say. though dar's game seems to be kinda cruel.. hahaha.. got to drink bitter gourd drinks, eat chilli, this n that but it's a great n enjoyable game for all.. hahaha...

next up we went to amk to eat. dar dar is really a da wei wang sia.. he ate 2 bowls of wan ton noodles n a bowl of laksa. wow!!! yeah.. that's my dar... den we move on to mount faber.. everyone told me is a wonderful dating place, nice scenes this n that.. but to me.. juz alright only lehz.. nothing fantastic. ya lo.. just alright la..

next.. we moved on to pasir panjang market... see the ppl selling off their vege in bulk. wow.. really lots of vege sia... den that cw.. wear till soo lady like, put make up n all.. attract lots of attention man.. den every man there like looking at her. ahhahaa..

den we move on to marina south for bowling.. yeah.. bowling.. but before that they play kinda like lots of interactive games n all la.. i was a bad bowler.. yeah.. very bad.. ah!!!!!!! throw face ar.. sian sian.. den play arcade games too.. wahhahaha.. cw is the best man. she really is gd at it.. hahhaa.. den jy n me struggling down there. ahhahaa...

great la.. good n enjoyable.

why??

haix.. today is vesak day.. actually is a very happy day for me.. cause can go out buy com with DARLING!! but early in the morning i make him angry le.. everything actually starts yesterday.. haix...

actually yesterday was a wonderful day sia.. after his lesson he called me.. kinda rare case.. but he called n we chatted.. due to some different views.. he got angry n didnt wanna talk anymore.. but soon after.. everything was alright le.. but i still like scare next day meet him dont know how it will be...

today morning i woke up.. called him at abt 10am.. morning call. yup.. den we met up at abt 12... he called me when i was on my way saying that wanna meet me at sim lim square as he was hungry n wanna go find food. den i wanna him to eat pure vege food la. but he say that side dont have.. juz eat normal vege food lor... den i was kinda like unhappy as there are pure vege food around juz need to walk a distance. but didnt say anything as i felt that was a little too demanding for him. den he felt my unhappiness and was pissed by me.. in the end didnt eat a single thing. den we met, things go on well. den i dont know what went wrong with me today, juz wrong in everything thing. accidentally stepped on the back of his slipper lots of times till he got fedup n angry with me the 2nd time. when i reach his place, was closing the wardrope, there goes the third time but he didnt show it actually. cause i actually didnt get hold of a firm grip of that handle n it juz bang when closing.

den i didnt dare to do anything at all le.. the more i do like the worst it got. saded..

den juz now at my place, he was packing stuff for me.. wanna throw lots of things. but i say dont want. cause not all stuff mine. cant throw. den this n that. told him i no time to go n tidy the things n all.. den he got angry also.. coz he told me to clear up the place for new stuff like my laptop n the keyboard. but i didnt. haiz.. everytime no matter what i do like he also angry. also dont know how to be the best out of it.. dont know what to do... don't know how to make him love me more.. dont know how not to anger him anymore.. don't know.... haix....

only one thing happy today. GOT MY NEW LAPTOP!!! ya.. that's all...

outing sunday!!!

today is a very casual day. love it.. slow pace n everything is in our control, no rush no disturbance, no phone call no msges really cool man... dont know he got anot la.. but i have nothing to disturb my wonderful time with the special person. =)

morning abt 9.45am den wake up. shiok man. den after that relax till abt 11+ den we head off to china town.. after doin the zhen jiu thingy, den we move off to search for the dunno where fish shop in china town.. hahaha... he very funny sia.. so so lucky.. juz walk a distance den found lehz.. but best thing is.. NOT OPEN TODAY!! hahahhaa... n it's JUST FOR TODAY!! kekeke... *giggle*

which we den move on for lunch... went to one very class very zen (to me) very posh de lehz!!! ya.. nice nice.. thought very ex, but still affordable.. at least he still can use his cash in his wallet n no need to use the VISA. kekeke... i ate jap ramen den he ate fried rice.. WAH!! the fried rice is .. wooo... drool... very very very nice lehz.. smells gd, taste gd, looks not bad too.kekeke... drank pu er, ate siew mai ate xia jiao.. NICE!!! wahahaha.. i think xia jiao ok la.. but the siew mai nice nice wor... yup.. reach there at abt 1++ we sit there talk n eat till 3.30 lehz!! pro hor?? i also think so.. hahah.. first time!!!! wahahaha...

next we took bus down to behind taka's bus stop. hahah.. first time walk ard the back of that orchard area. kinda cool n different feeling.. very relaxing very casual.. very LANG MAN!! cox got dar dar.. =P *ping dan zhi zhong zhi zhao yi xie xie lang man~~~* hehehee.. den we went to borders.. read lots of books there sia.. found lots of interesting books.. like those art books, teach ppl how to draw, den those graphic design stuff, interior design, feng shui, astrology.. etc.. lots lots ar... sit there till abt 6++ den walk down to park mall check out that nice nice water fall thingy and the fish tank coffee table. cool~~ which then move on to our actual destination, PS. went there to check out the price of the sole which can correct the flat feet problem.

ps dont have bus back home.. so.. we walked... walk till the new CATHAY.. BIG!! nice!!! how i wish i can go there juz watch ONE movie.. wah~~ nice place man!!! yeah... my net dating dream~~ kekeke.. *hint hint* den from there walk till art museum.. took pictures.. den walk all the way till BUGIS AR!! first time that i actually walked from orchard to bugis sia!!! denise genius record sia.. kekekee... took some pic at national library too.. took 80 back home from there.. reach home at abt 9++ almost 10. COOL man!!! busy day?? casual day?? GREAT OUTING DAY!!! =) =D

I GOT INTO NTU!!!

yeah!! i can go uni le~~ so so so happy!! first time in my whole life sia~~ though all also once in a lifetime la~~ hahah but really happy lo.. cause is my second try. hahaha.. very long nv blog le hor? hahaha... yeah.. com got problem n all ma.. now darling bought a new laptop... so i can use lor.. kekeke.. nice lehz.. twin head pearl white de.. i also wanna get this..

yeah.. so so many things to update.. but think also cant update le la. haha.. shall start from today again!!! yeah....

today went tuition in the morning at 10am. till abt 11.30am den teach the younger boy.. wah~~ he attitude me ar~~ actually only teach him maths de... den the mother says his chinese also not gd.. ask me to teach also... so i took up the challenge for the sake of money hahahaha... yup n teach him lor... starting he juz do his work den say can dun tuition chinese notx.. i said u asked ur dad lor.. not me... den as time passes, he started to be restless, keep gg toilet n this n that.. den keep refusing to learn chinese. when one hr passed n time to have chinese tuition den he throw tantrum this n that cry n make lots of noise of not wanting to learn chinese... actually i was quite pissed initially, but come to think of it he also quite poor thing, so i talk to him coax him to settle down this n that den start the lesson proper. by the time, 20min already pass le~~ den he started to cooperate a bit n reading thru passages.. that was like cool~~ he smiled again le!!! hahahahaa... sense of achievement!! kekeke....

den after that rush down to marilyn's place for tuition this n that.. got to realise she actually got the chance to go mediacorp to join a press conference with the campus superstar ng chee yang. hahaha.. took photo with him too... in the end got to write a report n couldnt think of things to write. hahaha..took almost 1 hr to help her complete the thing.

den came back home for dinner.. n now dar dar like so so tired.. sleeping beside me.. suppose to go gym, abt to rain le.. n he like sound asleep le.. dont know if we still gg anot..

oh ya!!! recently went to see doctor abt my leg pain problem. den he said i got flat feet and is abnormal feet. den i tot is those one in a million kind of thing den realise is alot of ppl also have it. he said the pain will still be there no matter what, unless i go for an op to correct the leg. haix.. dont know lehz.. sounds scary but i want to jump n run abt without pain... yet if the op like got any problem or what den in the end i cant even walk how?? but the doctor say i still cant do the op, must wait till at least 2 yrs later.. the op is abt 2.5 hrs long, will be on caste for 6 wks, 3 months to be able to recover from the op and around 2 years to actually able to be fully recovered as in no problem in walking n all.. ya lor.. scary hor? dont know lehz.. trying to find other ways to stop the pain first.. =(

yeah.. abt my love life.. it's getting better i should say, coz i love him deeper n he loves me more too~~ kekekeke... ah!! cant wait to get married. hhahahahha.. cant wait to go uni... cant wait to move on in life~~ yeah!!!