wahhaha.. kinda contridicting myself right? feeling tt i'm like nowhere now in the society.. neither m i a student nor m i a worker. still haf the feeling that i'm still a part of SR, still having my exam like dat.. dun haf the real relief that i had when my o level was over.. dunno why too.. maybe i will score badly for my a level n i'll haf to be back for more torture! tt's bad!!! but i dun wanna think so much le la.. for the time being i wanna get into the real world. noe the real working society. learn more n putting all stuff into real practical le.. so excited abt the real world that we haf to face. so excited abt the new life that i m entering. i wanna live the best out of me! i finally can do sth that i want instead of doin sth by force! i LOVE it!!
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Thursday, November 18, 2004
i've got a job!!!
hehehe.. my exam is ending tml! tml last day le!! so happy.... kekekekkekekeek
hmm.. today went swimming with TY, actually wanna go with HN too.. but she cant la.. ya. hehee.. so.. went serangoon swimming. Ty cant stay too long coz got band, den there got sooo many guys swimming, tanning, n the pool soo small.. make me dun feel gd swimming alone. so went off too.. 12 laps.. haha. okie la.. tried freestyle.. difficult sia.. haha.a. den very easy out of breath. muz try again. hahaha... yeah!
came back home. ate lunch. den slp. haha.. den abt 4 i got a call!! haha.. it's from SIA. haha.. coz i got a job! hahaa. all thanks to Ber.. if not i wun get the job so fast. now trying to write a resume. haha.. dunno how to write lor!! den dunno wat to put in too. so sad lor!!
kk.. go back n write the resume le.. =D
hmm.. today went swimming with TY, actually wanna go with HN too.. but she cant la.. ya. hehee.. so.. went serangoon swimming. Ty cant stay too long coz got band, den there got sooo many guys swimming, tanning, n the pool soo small.. make me dun feel gd swimming alone. so went off too.. 12 laps.. haha. okie la.. tried freestyle.. difficult sia.. haha.a. den very easy out of breath. muz try again. hahaha... yeah!
came back home. ate lunch. den slp. haha.. den abt 4 i got a call!! haha.. it's from SIA. haha.. coz i got a job! hahaa. all thanks to Ber.. if not i wun get the job so fast. now trying to write a resume. haha.. dunno how to write lor!! den dunno wat to put in too. so sad lor!!
kk.. go back n write the resume le.. =D
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
2 more days!! 1 last paper!!!
hahaha. as my title goes... 2 more days 1 last paper.. means.. MY HOLIDAY LONG HOLIDAY IS SOOOOO NEAR LE!! hahahahahh.. so happy... cant wait u see.. when i was doin my paper today i was like giggling to myself for the last 5 min lor.. hahhaaa.. coz.. coz.. it is ENDING!!!! hahahhaa...
hmm.. juz now that my tang mei n her bf patch back le.. congrats! hope they will learn to treasure each other more n do take care!
recently really like to Huining hse.. dunno y hahaha.. juz like it. stressfree place. haha.. coz dun need to think abt cleaning up the hse, cooking dinner, doin stuff tt mum reminded us to do..all i do there is SLACK! hahhahahaa.. den her mum oso very nice.. so really can slack eat watch tv n do NTH!! hahahahaa....
yesterday was talking to someone abt frenship.. den talking abt all the ppl i noe.. all the frenz i've made.. den i realise.. the most lasting frenship i'll ever get is from CEDAR! i din say i dun close gd frenz in sr juz that .... hai.. as in like after i go jc.. i will sometime go out with cedar fren (from diff jc) to catch a movie, to walk ard, find a place sit down n gossip. even on the train when i saw cedar ppl... we can juz chat non stop. for those in sr like me.. we are obviously much closer, ppl like huining, sally... we might not be tog everyday, might not do all stuff tog, yet we are still close. once we met, we still pour out all our this n that, sorrow happiness to each other. but.. sad to say... really cant find many this kinda fren in sr.. last yr got lots of frenz de... den.. slowly... all gone... starting got HL got NC got first 3 months buddy (glad that we still do keep in contact), den after 1st three months come our class ppl, got SL got MH got AX... we were a clique. but.. hai... one gone.. got her new classmates... diff timing in lesson this yr.. seldom see each other.. some sort of losing contact le.. another one.. sth happened... working le.. a bit hard to get tog le.. last one... still quite close.. but is the only one le... today at the end of my paper.. i looked ard the hall... thinking abt the times i spent in sr.. seems like everything juz happened yesterday.. yet all are coming to an end. i was thinking wat haf i done in sr? dunno.. seems like alot.. yet like nth.. wat haf i learnt in sr.. seems like alot.. yet like nth... 2 short yrs.. seems very long.. yet like nth.. everyday busy doin whole lots of stuff busy here n there.. end up.. dunno wat i m doin.. ahhahaaa...
i miss cedar... i will miss SR too.. i miss my frenz.. i start to miss the gd old days we used to haf... doin silly things tog.. having lots of fun... i miss SL, i miss MH,i miss SS, i miss Joanna, i miss MZ, i miss TY, i miss mr chan, i miss mr ng, i miss mrs chong, i miss ms lee, i miss mdm tan, i miss 1s25, i miss 1s19, i miss sr band especially batch grad in 2004 i miss auriga, i miss zeal, i miss cedar, i miss cedar band, i miss gj, i miss wp, i miss letchimy, i miss aj, i miss jl, i miss hani, i miss ye, i miss sabri, i miss ty, i miss deb, i miss yuet ee, i miss sa, i miss my tuba section in cedar, i miss those seniors in cedar that made an impact in my life, i miss mr yau, i miss mrs lim, i miss guan lao shi, i miss mr chua, i miss mdm lee (tuition teacher), i miss... i miss... i miss so many ppl.. hai.. once everything is gone.. nth can be retain.. except the only memories we haf.
hai.. as time goes by alot of ppl come into my life.. alot of ppl made great impact in my life. i learnt alot from guan lao shi, mr yau, mr chua n all band teachers in cedar, i learn alot from mr chan, mr ng, mr kwek, mrs kwek, mr azahar, mr leonard tan, mdm tan, mr ang n ms lee from sr. i duno wat will happen to my future.. but i;m sure.. with those knowledge i got.. they will guide me thru till the day i can pass down all this wonderful knowledge to the next generation. i salute to all my greatest teachers. i miss all my greatest frenz.. i will think lots abt the schs that i was in.. n i.. will haf to move on...
hmm.. juz now that my tang mei n her bf patch back le.. congrats! hope they will learn to treasure each other more n do take care!
recently really like to Huining hse.. dunno y hahaha.. juz like it. stressfree place. haha.. coz dun need to think abt cleaning up the hse, cooking dinner, doin stuff tt mum reminded us to do..all i do there is SLACK! hahhahahaa.. den her mum oso very nice.. so really can slack eat watch tv n do NTH!! hahahahaa....
yesterday was talking to someone abt frenship.. den talking abt all the ppl i noe.. all the frenz i've made.. den i realise.. the most lasting frenship i'll ever get is from CEDAR! i din say i dun close gd frenz in sr juz that .... hai.. as in like after i go jc.. i will sometime go out with cedar fren (from diff jc) to catch a movie, to walk ard, find a place sit down n gossip. even on the train when i saw cedar ppl... we can juz chat non stop. for those in sr like me.. we are obviously much closer, ppl like huining, sally... we might not be tog everyday, might not do all stuff tog, yet we are still close. once we met, we still pour out all our this n that, sorrow happiness to each other. but.. sad to say... really cant find many this kinda fren in sr.. last yr got lots of frenz de... den.. slowly... all gone... starting got HL got NC got first 3 months buddy (glad that we still do keep in contact), den after 1st three months come our class ppl, got SL got MH got AX... we were a clique. but.. hai... one gone.. got her new classmates... diff timing in lesson this yr.. seldom see each other.. some sort of losing contact le.. another one.. sth happened... working le.. a bit hard to get tog le.. last one... still quite close.. but is the only one le... today at the end of my paper.. i looked ard the hall... thinking abt the times i spent in sr.. seems like everything juz happened yesterday.. yet all are coming to an end. i was thinking wat haf i done in sr? dunno.. seems like alot.. yet like nth.. wat haf i learnt in sr.. seems like alot.. yet like nth... 2 short yrs.. seems very long.. yet like nth.. everyday busy doin whole lots of stuff busy here n there.. end up.. dunno wat i m doin.. ahhahaaa...
i miss cedar... i will miss SR too.. i miss my frenz.. i start to miss the gd old days we used to haf... doin silly things tog.. having lots of fun... i miss SL, i miss MH,i miss SS, i miss Joanna, i miss MZ, i miss TY, i miss mr chan, i miss mr ng, i miss mrs chong, i miss ms lee, i miss mdm tan, i miss 1s25, i miss 1s19, i miss sr band especially batch grad in 2004 i miss auriga, i miss zeal, i miss cedar, i miss cedar band, i miss gj, i miss wp, i miss letchimy, i miss aj, i miss jl, i miss hani, i miss ye, i miss sabri, i miss ty, i miss deb, i miss yuet ee, i miss sa, i miss my tuba section in cedar, i miss those seniors in cedar that made an impact in my life, i miss mr yau, i miss mrs lim, i miss guan lao shi, i miss mr chua, i miss mdm lee (tuition teacher), i miss... i miss... i miss so many ppl.. hai.. once everything is gone.. nth can be retain.. except the only memories we haf.
hai.. as time goes by alot of ppl come into my life.. alot of ppl made great impact in my life. i learnt alot from guan lao shi, mr yau, mr chua n all band teachers in cedar, i learn alot from mr chan, mr ng, mr kwek, mrs kwek, mr azahar, mr leonard tan, mdm tan, mr ang n ms lee from sr. i duno wat will happen to my future.. but i;m sure.. with those knowledge i got.. they will guide me thru till the day i can pass down all this wonderful knowledge to the next generation. i salute to all my greatest teachers. i miss all my greatest frenz.. i will think lots abt the schs that i was in.. n i.. will haf to move on...
Monday, November 15, 2004
last wk!!!
hhahahahahahah.. last wk n feedom with be with me!! hahahah.. cant wait for friday to come
cant wait for the end. oh man i juz.. very excited!!! hahahhaa....
cant wait for the end. oh man i juz.. very excited!!! hahahhaa....
Monday, November 01, 2004
Life
hai... juz read one of my fren's blog n really think that life is so unpredictable. haiyo.. coming to this life topic again. that huang na is really very poor thing lor.. she is juz 8!! oh man.. wat can a 8 yr old ger do?? y muz he kill her? haven read the papers yet la.. but even if is coz of anger? she is juz so young n noes nothing!! how can he be so angry that he kill her??? y can a person be so cruel. it is really true that the world has come to a point that mankind is really getting too much. while some doctors are struggling to keep a person alive n saving them from their illnesses, ppl on the other side are killing innocent kids like nobody's business. life is so precious. y cant they treasure each n every single's life more. even the animals.
talking abt animals. actually i find it kinda unfair for ppl to kill those animals to stop any epidemic. i noe this might be a very absolute n subjective statement bu yet it is really true. u see.. an animal has a life juz like us human. when a human is dying.. ppl will try all ways n means to save them. for example SARS. it is an epidemic that will spread easily like the bird flu n such. once ppl found the first case they start to find ways n means to save them. however, when bird flu is first found. all they do is KILL all the poor chickens n ducks. cant they do something similar?? n worst still is.. it is human that cause the poor animals to contract all this weird diseases. they force them to take in things that they dun take. they cramp them in small little places that they cant move. they inject terrible stuff into their body that juz reject. so why instead of blaming the human, the human juz KILL THE INNOCENT??? arent they juz like the person who killed the little ger? ppl might say that i haf no rights to say this coz many ppl eat the animals so they are meant to be killed, sooner or later. BUT i haf the right to comment on all this cruelty as i m a vegetarian. ppl feel sad abt war. ppl feel sad abt someone's death. ppl even feel sad that their beloved pet is dead. BUT HAF ANYONE EVER THINK ABT THOSE POOR ANIMAL THAT U ALL TAKE IN EVERYDAY?? they suffered under much misery once they are born. yet they haf to go thru the fear n face the death juz for the ppl out here who want to haf a "delicious" meal which is optional? guys.. think.. u will nv noe the fear the pain untill u feel it. can u imagine only a cut on ur finger will hurt, wat abt the killing of those little lifes???
okie.. i m not trying to promote vegetarian here. juz to write out my feelings. ya.. think that's abt all. ya...
talking abt animals. actually i find it kinda unfair for ppl to kill those animals to stop any epidemic. i noe this might be a very absolute n subjective statement bu yet it is really true. u see.. an animal has a life juz like us human. when a human is dying.. ppl will try all ways n means to save them. for example SARS. it is an epidemic that will spread easily like the bird flu n such. once ppl found the first case they start to find ways n means to save them. however, when bird flu is first found. all they do is KILL all the poor chickens n ducks. cant they do something similar?? n worst still is.. it is human that cause the poor animals to contract all this weird diseases. they force them to take in things that they dun take. they cramp them in small little places that they cant move. they inject terrible stuff into their body that juz reject. so why instead of blaming the human, the human juz KILL THE INNOCENT??? arent they juz like the person who killed the little ger? ppl might say that i haf no rights to say this coz many ppl eat the animals so they are meant to be killed, sooner or later. BUT i haf the right to comment on all this cruelty as i m a vegetarian. ppl feel sad abt war. ppl feel sad abt someone's death. ppl even feel sad that their beloved pet is dead. BUT HAF ANYONE EVER THINK ABT THOSE POOR ANIMAL THAT U ALL TAKE IN EVERYDAY?? they suffered under much misery once they are born. yet they haf to go thru the fear n face the death juz for the ppl out here who want to haf a "delicious" meal which is optional? guys.. think.. u will nv noe the fear the pain untill u feel it. can u imagine only a cut on ur finger will hurt, wat abt the killing of those little lifes???
okie.. i m not trying to promote vegetarian here. juz to write out my feelings. ya.. think that's abt all. ya...
Saturday, October 30, 2004
WTH
wat the.. stupid idiotic hansheng!! he is an idiot. stupid!!! no brain.. empty vase. juz ask him to be nicer to my cousin only ma.. juz see my cousin very sad ma.. den juz say "BE NICER TO MY COUSIN. STUPID BOY" is this very offending?? is this scoldin him?? wat the hell lor!! n wat he reply??? " dun act smart! F**KING u!!" WAT THE HELL!!! who is he on earth to scold me that? he gd!!! i tot he is a nice person!!! no matter how angry u get... u shld not be saying that ma!!!! wah lao!!!! hate this kind of person!!!!! wah!!! damn angry!!! argh!!!
k... enuff liao.. vent all my anger le.. shld not be too angry n waste too much of my blog space on childish person like him. heheheee.... yesterday.. mummy bought some slimming cream stuff.. hahahhahahahaa.. den can use!!! hahahaha.. heard that it will show some effect after 2 wks. hahahaa... anyway.. i havin a level soon!!! my practical over le.. alright lor.. but the last part no time n cannot do. hahaha.. i stupid ma.. so too bad la!! but except for the last 10 marks. the rest.. can la.. not bad la!! hahaha.. 4th will be my Gp le.. God pls bless me! =D den after that is CLA!!! kekekee... after that will be chem den maths den chem again den maths again!! haha.. coz after Gp n CLA i only haf maths n chem!hahaa.. suddenly think is gd! kekekee... yeah!
k... enuff liao.. vent all my anger le.. shld not be too angry n waste too much of my blog space on childish person like him. heheheee.... yesterday.. mummy bought some slimming cream stuff.. hahahhahahahaa.. den can use!!! hahahaha.. heard that it will show some effect after 2 wks. hahahaa... anyway.. i havin a level soon!!! my practical over le.. alright lor.. but the last part no time n cannot do. hahaha.. i stupid ma.. so too bad la!! but except for the last 10 marks. the rest.. can la.. not bad la!! hahaha.. 4th will be my Gp le.. God pls bless me! =D den after that is CLA!!! kekekee... after that will be chem den maths den chem again den maths again!! haha.. coz after Gp n CLA i only haf maths n chem!hahaa.. suddenly think is gd! kekekee... yeah!
Friday, October 29, 2004
???
lots of questions has been gg thru my mind. alot!! but yet i dunno i really duno how to solve them.. den kinda stress recently with my A's. actually i really dunno how to tackle it. all i can do is juz think far n think ahead. i really not in the mood of study le.. see the family state now.. my sis is damn sick for the pass few days. actually is really nth. she juz sprain her leg a little. den she blow up the thing n went to see doc twice. dunno is subconciously she wants the attention n care from my parents or wat. she juz blow the things till very big lor. den after that duno that stupid doc gave her wat medicine. she ate it had a bad diarrhoea n keep throwin out wateva she ate. real bad. den suddenly become damn skinny. yesterday juz went to see doc again. n the doc say she kena stomach infection or sth like dat lor. kinda bad. but today beta le. though happy for her la.. but she damn irritating lor. today i look more sick den her n yet i have to do all the things all the hse work n all she does is sit in front of the tv n laugh. worst still is she is a patient!!! i cant say anything. juz haf to swallow everything down i guess.
being a ger.. juz feels that being a ger is really a torture. we are expected to be gd with hse work n helpl. we are expected to stay at home whenever needed. we are expected to accept all the torture that comes along (menstrual cramps, giving birth.. etc) that we haf no choice in!! we haf to do hse work even if we are working outside. arent the world working towards equality?? but y are there still gender stereotypes?? hai.. i cant blame ppl for that coz i m stereotyping genders too. hai.. coz the society is like dat. being a ger haf to be more conservative n demure. cant go for the person u like, even if u do.. the person might not like u n even if u two get tog. u wun get ur happiness. this is the world today. really wonderin will there be a day that gers will be the one in control of everything. wonder wat will happen if one day gers become like a guy n guys become like gers?? as in... instead of guys gg for ger n gers waiting to be loved, the gers will be the one choosing who they want n the guys only can wait to be loved try get all ways n means to get the attention of the person they like n yet they cant tell how they feel. wonder wat will it be like when the gers will be in control in a family n after work will juz wait for meals to be serve n enjoy while the guys haf rush home to prepare meals, to do all the hse work. wondering.....
being a ger.. juz feels that being a ger is really a torture. we are expected to be gd with hse work n helpl. we are expected to stay at home whenever needed. we are expected to accept all the torture that comes along (menstrual cramps, giving birth.. etc) that we haf no choice in!! we haf to do hse work even if we are working outside. arent the world working towards equality?? but y are there still gender stereotypes?? hai.. i cant blame ppl for that coz i m stereotyping genders too. hai.. coz the society is like dat. being a ger haf to be more conservative n demure. cant go for the person u like, even if u do.. the person might not like u n even if u two get tog. u wun get ur happiness. this is the world today. really wonderin will there be a day that gers will be the one in control of everything. wonder wat will happen if one day gers become like a guy n guys become like gers?? as in... instead of guys gg for ger n gers waiting to be loved, the gers will be the one choosing who they want n the guys only can wait to be loved try get all ways n means to get the attention of the person they like n yet they cant tell how they feel. wonder wat will it be like when the gers will be in control in a family n after work will juz wait for meals to be serve n enjoy while the guys haf rush home to prepare meals, to do all the hse work. wondering.....
Monday, October 25, 2004
Real me?? Ideal me??
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Sunday, October 24, 2004
Monday, October 18, 2004
Ah Ma is HERE
yeah... my real ah ma came singapore the day before yesterday n came my hse yesterday. quite happy la... yet is kinda hard for me too.. coz i haf to stay at home to look after her when all is not ard. den i can do my own stuff coz i cant possibly throw her aside to do my own stuff lor.. hai.. i oso duno wat to do. i dun wanna be bad la... i oso like her alot. care for her. the worst thing is i actually pon my GP CONSULTATION AGAIN!!! hai.. coz no one at home ma.. all got to work. mummy scare ah ma at home alone. so.. i haf to do this la.. actually is also becoz i dun wanna go la.. den ar... my fren called this morning.. i actually dun dare to pick up the call.. ahhaha.. kinda stupid right? hahaa.. ya la...
yesterday my mum made vege prawn dumpling. i helped her.. hehee... as usual she will knit the dough n i will do the wrappin part. kekee... den ah ma came n say i wrap till very nice!! hahahahahaa.. so proud of myself! THANK U AH MA!!!
nOw i tRyinG tO tYpE tHe wAy tHaT mY cOusIn liKe tO tYpE iN... sOoo mA fAn.. hAhAHhHAaaA.... CMI! kekee... okie la.. she coming later.yuP... yeah!!! yup
yesterday my mum made vege prawn dumpling. i helped her.. hehee... as usual she will knit the dough n i will do the wrappin part. kekee... den ah ma came n say i wrap till very nice!! hahahahahaa.. so proud of myself! THANK U AH MA!!!
nOw i tRyinG tO tYpE tHe wAy tHaT mY cOusIn liKe tO tYpE iN... sOoo mA fAn.. hAhAHhHAaaA.... CMI! kekee... okie la.. she coming later.yuP... yeah!!! yup
Friday, October 08, 2004
dream
why snakes always come into my dream?
i got a dream today.. abt snakes again.. terrible.. always haf bad dreams on snakes. really suspect that i kill a whole lots of snakes in one of my previous yrs, n they cant do anything to me this yr. so they disturb me in my dreams.. hai.. okie here it goes...
i dreamt that i was out with my sis, to some jungle area or wat so ever la. den dunno how n dunno why, i fell into a very deep trap i guess. den is very very muddy in there. den i saw lots of snake. REALLY ALOT! den is so disgusting n scary la.. i'm really SCARED of snakes lor. den is like i was trying to move out of the place. but is so wet n muddy that it really makes it very hard for me to move. den i was moving ard in that area n seems like there is a way as in a "underpass" to somewhere. so trying to escape i went in deeper la.. den land up in a dead end, where there's a way out only if i m able to climb up la.. ya. den all i saw is snakes of all shape n size n all types de la.. they are like very fierce lor. trying to dunno scare me or get me or wat. den one of which in front of me is VERY BIG! only can see the head lor and really dunno where it ends. ya. den think i got hold of some. without me knowing why. den the rest of the snake ard me was very angry with me i think coz i killed their "frenz" den they were like wanna kill me la.. but somehow it seems like i m protected by something or they are block by a layer of glass or wat so ever i can see them clearly as they could too but yet they cant do anything to me lor.. den i think my sis come to my rescue n the place is drying up too den i think i escape le.. or wat la.. den move scene le. move to me "waking" up in my dreams telling my mum abt it. n she said maybe i m somehow or rather related to them ba.. i guess so too... duno la...
that's all abt my scary dreams which seems kinda adventurous here rather den scary. haha.. coz u cant see the scary reaction of the snake.
now abt today. ya.. tot KT will kill me.. but she turns out to be rather nice today. yup. den today had lots of lectures la.. maths chem n wat so ever. den cla. we had our cla lesson "outdoor" today. haha.. is like we wanna haf an early lesson so that we can end early today lor. went to look for our teacher but he was preparing notes so cant start early lor. but he still came earlier den normal in the end la. he told us that wed is our grad, by right we haf to go.. by left. he dunno. haha... but he say my fren YM n i muz go. tot wat happened. den he say coz i top in CLA n YM got the most improve in CLA. so we haf to go. haha.. so surprise. tot will be the china guy or the hong kong one get it.. maybe they are foreigner so they nv gif them. haha.. dunno la.. or they haf other top le? haha.. dunno la.. very happy le! kekekee. yeah!! more motivation to move on le!!!
i got a dream today.. abt snakes again.. terrible.. always haf bad dreams on snakes. really suspect that i kill a whole lots of snakes in one of my previous yrs, n they cant do anything to me this yr. so they disturb me in my dreams.. hai.. okie here it goes...
i dreamt that i was out with my sis, to some jungle area or wat so ever la. den dunno how n dunno why, i fell into a very deep trap i guess. den is very very muddy in there. den i saw lots of snake. REALLY ALOT! den is so disgusting n scary la.. i'm really SCARED of snakes lor. den is like i was trying to move out of the place. but is so wet n muddy that it really makes it very hard for me to move. den i was moving ard in that area n seems like there is a way as in a "underpass" to somewhere. so trying to escape i went in deeper la.. den land up in a dead end, where there's a way out only if i m able to climb up la.. ya. den all i saw is snakes of all shape n size n all types de la.. they are like very fierce lor. trying to dunno scare me or get me or wat. den one of which in front of me is VERY BIG! only can see the head lor and really dunno where it ends. ya. den think i got hold of some. without me knowing why. den the rest of the snake ard me was very angry with me i think coz i killed their "frenz" den they were like wanna kill me la.. but somehow it seems like i m protected by something or they are block by a layer of glass or wat so ever i can see them clearly as they could too but yet they cant do anything to me lor.. den i think my sis come to my rescue n the place is drying up too den i think i escape le.. or wat la.. den move scene le. move to me "waking" up in my dreams telling my mum abt it. n she said maybe i m somehow or rather related to them ba.. i guess so too... duno la...
that's all abt my scary dreams which seems kinda adventurous here rather den scary. haha.. coz u cant see the scary reaction of the snake.
now abt today. ya.. tot KT will kill me.. but she turns out to be rather nice today. yup. den today had lots of lectures la.. maths chem n wat so ever. den cla. we had our cla lesson "outdoor" today. haha.. is like we wanna haf an early lesson so that we can end early today lor. went to look for our teacher but he was preparing notes so cant start early lor. but he still came earlier den normal in the end la. he told us that wed is our grad, by right we haf to go.. by left. he dunno. haha... but he say my fren YM n i muz go. tot wat happened. den he say coz i top in CLA n YM got the most improve in CLA. so we haf to go. haha.. so surprise. tot will be the china guy or the hong kong one get it.. maybe they are foreigner so they nv gif them. haha.. dunno la.. or they haf other top le? haha.. dunno la.. very happy le! kekekee. yeah!! more motivation to move on le!!!
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
wat m i gonna do??
hai.. really duno wat m i gonna do? today nv go sch coz i over slept. den today think like got alot of things happened la. hai... dunno la.. is like.. our gp teacher said those we got worse den a D7 will haf to go see her den might kena kick out by her. hai. den i damn sad lor.. is like i m one of them la.. den our maths teacher oso say twice that he is worried abt me. hai.. i noe this time my maths got a little problem la.. i juz nv study lor. i noe i can do or not de la.. i noe wat to do de lor.. den i oso dunno how to face him. think i quite bad to him la.. i din mean it but juz realise this wk those days that i nv go sch are the days with his period la.. i din notice that only when my fren told me den i noe lor... hai.. dunno la... really feel very pressurise by the teachers. i noe wat i m doin n i really did try to do sth abt it le.. dunno la.. hai... can i juz heck care abt all stuff.. really feel like escaping from this world. feel like escaping from everything. i noe this is not the way to do stuff.. but i really need sometime to myself n not being pressurise by all teachers. i duno. i noe they meant to be gd. i noe they haf gd intentions. but.. i really dunno wat to do... where m i now? at a place that i dunno where i m heading towards. i m really dunno doin wat. i suddenly feel like quiting sch n juz get into society to work. i noe this is not the way to deal with all this problems. but.. i'm really scared. i'm really dunno how to face all the teachers.. i muz mug now.. i really muz.. but.. i really feeling so damn down now.. how? who can help me? who can save me? m i really haf to face all this alone? i seems strong.. but i really feel that i m damn weak now.. im damn vulnerable now. really dunno wat now? in a maze? at the junction of a rd. i'm lost. anyone by my side? ALOT! but who really can help me? none i guess... i haf to face all things alone in the end still...
sad?? i dunno
hmm.. today i mean now i kinda down suddenly. liking a person is real sucky. is like u will be very much be affected by them. juz little act they can make u damn happy n oso coz of little act u will be very very sad. hai.. juz like now la!! hai....
yesterday coz of a little testimonial.. i was really damn happy lor.. tot i m the only one get a testi for him. den kinda expected that he will write for another ger la.. den din see coz she haven check her testi. den now.. hai.. coz of a little testi that i tot i only haf.. hai.. is like i noe she oso has one le la.. den now.. i sad sad liao.. kinda wu liao i noe.. but juz sad lor.. ya...
yesterday coz of a little testimonial.. i was really damn happy lor.. tot i m the only one get a testi for him. den kinda expected that he will write for another ger la.. den din see coz she haven check her testi. den now.. hai.. coz of a little testi that i tot i only haf.. hai.. is like i noe she oso has one le la.. den now.. i sad sad liao.. kinda wu liao i noe.. but juz sad lor.. ya...
Saturday, October 02, 2004
miss me???
hehee.. so long nv put in any entry le.. do u miss me? haha.. anyway.. coz of prelim i nv write entry for lots of days le.. sound like i m very hardworking huh? wrong!! juz that too tired n too busy to put in any. anyway.. i shall start.
on mid autumn festival that day went to wp's hse to eat den to play!! haha.. starting a bit awkward la.. coz like that stupid wy nv talk ar.. den late ar.. den this n that. den got that dog(jackie). it's cute la. ya.. fury de.. den like very nice to hug like dat. but ar. i scare la. so kinda stress to play at the beginning. den later we move to her hse rooftop! COOL.. haha.. we cna see lots of places n oso haf a "peaceul" time to play. no dog no parents. haha.den we light all the candles all the lantern n hang it ard. den we oso burn whole bundle of fireworks. haha.. powerful sia.. den whole thing stuck tog. hehee.. but that's cool la! kekee.. so long nv go out with guijin n wanping le. so very happy to see them. talk alot. ya... den plan to go home at abt 9 la.. den play until forget abt time le. end up we only go home n 9.45. reach.home kena scolded la.. as usual. ya.. kekkee...
den.. yesterday. friday. went out with letchimy n ai jia! MISS THEM SOO MUCH. hahaa.. they nv change lor.. really nv change at all. that let ar.. still as auntie as before. still as cheerful as chatty as before.. miss the gd old days. hehee.. den we talk alot of rubbish. gossip alot. talking who's attach who is still as irritatin as before n such lor.. kekeke.. so cool huh? kekekee... ya.. tt's abt all.. oh ya.. I GOT MY 6230 LE!! kekeke. so happy cool hp!! love it! =D
on mid autumn festival that day went to wp's hse to eat den to play!! haha.. starting a bit awkward la.. coz like that stupid wy nv talk ar.. den late ar.. den this n that. den got that dog(jackie). it's cute la. ya.. fury de.. den like very nice to hug like dat. but ar. i scare la. so kinda stress to play at the beginning. den later we move to her hse rooftop! COOL.. haha.. we cna see lots of places n oso haf a "peaceul" time to play. no dog no parents. haha.den we light all the candles all the lantern n hang it ard. den we oso burn whole bundle of fireworks. haha.. powerful sia.. den whole thing stuck tog. hehee.. but that's cool la! kekee.. so long nv go out with guijin n wanping le. so very happy to see them. talk alot. ya... den plan to go home at abt 9 la.. den play until forget abt time le. end up we only go home n 9.45. reach.home kena scolded la.. as usual. ya.. kekkee...
den.. yesterday. friday. went out with letchimy n ai jia! MISS THEM SOO MUCH. hahaa.. they nv change lor.. really nv change at all. that let ar.. still as auntie as before. still as cheerful as chatty as before.. miss the gd old days. hehee.. den we talk alot of rubbish. gossip alot. talking who's attach who is still as irritatin as before n such lor.. kekeke.. so cool huh? kekekee... ya.. tt's abt all.. oh ya.. I GOT MY 6230 LE!! kekeke. so happy cool hp!! love it! =D
Saturday, September 25, 2004
GARFIELD!!
went watch Garfield yesterday with mei hui n alan.. oh man.. SO FUNNY!! haha.. garfield is sooo cute lor!! chao funny n witty.. den lazy too.. but always li yong ppl.. haha..so bad!! but i like it!! ahhahaaa...
ya.. yesterday went raffles city.. den very funny... saw this guy.. CHAO GAY LOR!! he put on lipstick, mascara.. wah! everything that gers put on the face de lor.. still put hair band lor! CMI leh.. he sell perfume de.. GUYS de somemore.. which guy on earth of the right mind will wanna go n buy from him?? sure scare ppl off de!! hahhahaa...
hmm.. actually yesterday not watching garfield de.. is cinderella story or 13 goin on 30.. den in the end we decided to watch new police story.. BUT!! STUPID ALAN XU!! dun want la... make us walk from lido to cine to see whether got cinderella anot.. den dun haf la.. end up watching garfield..gd thing that it is NICE!! if not he DIE!! hahaa.. btw.. saw K in lido yesterday. last time crush him b4. now no more le la.. but ar.. dunno y.. see him still blush!! hahaha.. so funny!! lekekekeke ... k.. end... hehehe...
ya.. yesterday went raffles city.. den very funny... saw this guy.. CHAO GAY LOR!! he put on lipstick, mascara.. wah! everything that gers put on the face de lor.. still put hair band lor! CMI leh.. he sell perfume de.. GUYS de somemore.. which guy on earth of the right mind will wanna go n buy from him?? sure scare ppl off de!! hahhahaa...
hmm.. actually yesterday not watching garfield de.. is cinderella story or 13 goin on 30.. den in the end we decided to watch new police story.. BUT!! STUPID ALAN XU!! dun want la... make us walk from lido to cine to see whether got cinderella anot.. den dun haf la.. end up watching garfield..gd thing that it is NICE!! if not he DIE!! hahaa.. btw.. saw K in lido yesterday. last time crush him b4. now no more le la.. but ar.. dunno y.. see him still blush!! hahaha.. so funny!! lekekekeke ... k.. end... hehehe...
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Down on LUCK!!!!
wat can be more SUAY?? went out yesterday.. waiting for my fren.. den walk ard see whether she reach le anot.. den this boy... oso dunno how he walk.. dunno is my fault of his fault.. den he kena trip n fall flat on the floor.. den his mum scolded him say he nv walk properly.. den i apologise n got him up... den feeling so guilty yet dunno wat to do.. juz walk away.. on the way back with my frenz saw that boy grandma i guess.. she pointing at me dunno say wat.. hai... feeling chao guilty lor.. den after that went into the mall.. was looking for my other fren waiting for us upstairs.. nv see the rd in front den knock into this old indian lady.. sian... den she chao bu shuang me la.. dunno wat she mumbling all in tamil.. hai.. all i can say is sorry... so sad...
TOdAY?? slpt very late last nite.. so hopin can slp a bit later.. den my mum EARLY in the morning go make mooncake.. those who know how to make mooncake will know u haf to knock that stupid mooncake out of that mould de... den is chao noisy lor.. den kena force to wake up unwillingly... sickening lor.. den ar.. nth to do.. juz woke up nv eat haf to help her prepare things for lunch de.. den ar.. juz now ar.. went to help my dad get the clothes down from the bamboo stick.. he was holding the clothes under his armpit n trying to get the bamboo stick up den i go get it.. he dunno how lost the bamboo in his hand n BOMB it landed on my shoulder den on the floor.. knock onto a little pail with some water.. n the water spilled on the floor..unknowingly... i almost slipped n fall... shiok HUH?
TOdAY?? slpt very late last nite.. so hopin can slp a bit later.. den my mum EARLY in the morning go make mooncake.. those who know how to make mooncake will know u haf to knock that stupid mooncake out of that mould de... den is chao noisy lor.. den kena force to wake up unwillingly... sickening lor.. den ar.. nth to do.. juz woke up nv eat haf to help her prepare things for lunch de.. den ar.. juz now ar.. went to help my dad get the clothes down from the bamboo stick.. he was holding the clothes under his armpit n trying to get the bamboo stick up den i go get it.. he dunno how lost the bamboo in his hand n BOMB it landed on my shoulder den on the floor.. knock onto a little pail with some water.. n the water spilled on the floor..unknowingly... i almost slipped n fall... shiok HUH?
Saturday, September 18, 2004
10 yrs
hai.. is ten yrs really that much... much to haf a generation gap?? it might for some ppl.. but i dun think it is for him.. anyway... hai.. always crush ppl i shld not crush.. hai... tot something might happen.. tot there might be a miracle.. but seems like not.. hai... he said he very scare ask gers out. coz they will misunderstand n he got one that tell him she like him n she scared the wits out of him... hai.. duno la.. juz realise he is really very gd to everyone n he will nv ever will like me de.. hai... who cares right? anyone of the right mind wun want me de.. so why bother go crush ppl n get myself so sad? actually not very sad la.. but.. kinda like disappointed.. den still haf to face him all the time... hai.... still haf to smile.. though it is not hard coz see him happy le.. but when haf the time. thoughts of him will appear.. den will start making me sad.. sad that we will haf no future.. sad that i fall for the wrong person again.. sad that.. hai... ten yrs... yeah.. i oso dun believe i soooo can take it... 10 yrs.. oh man.. take him as my BRO la.. dun think sooo much.. he is nice.. to EVERYONE n tt's gd!! yeah!!! great bro i haf here.. yeah!
Monday, September 13, 2004
I know crying dun help but tears juz rolled down...
hai.. today studied for chem... finally i m starting.. it's too late.. to late to start n too late to realise i haf to start... hai.. dunno la.. hai... juz feeling so vex now. wat the hell why are there exams? freaking idiot lor.. when most of the things that we studied in sch will not be in use when we go into the working society. so why the hell we haf to study? really so irritating n it's like not helpin us lor.. NOW u noe why S system sux n y S citizen juz cannot excel the way other ppl from other country do.. really juz cannot make it lor.. memorise.. wat else can the ppl here do? u noe y they cant think?? BECOZ they memorise too much!! base too much n rely too much on info from ppl who haf brain n come out with all those stuff TT's Y!!! tt's y we juz cant be sth more!!! we cant think ourselves.. we can only imitate. we can only improve on.. but NOT comin out with great new ideas...
really cmi!! ARGH!!!!!! sorry for all those i haf said which dun sound nice.. i m juz very irritated now.. very tired.. very sad.. very depress.. very.. hai... i noe i m at fault.. not studying is my fault.. starting late is my fault.. i noe i m finding excuses.. i noe i m wrong... hai...ppl always tot i m always sooo cheerful.. OH MAN.. u r wrong.. when i m DOWN.. tt means i m REALLY DOWN... so... ya... end!
really cmi!! ARGH!!!!!! sorry for all those i haf said which dun sound nice.. i m juz very irritated now.. very tired.. very sad.. very depress.. very.. hai... i noe i m at fault.. not studying is my fault.. starting late is my fault.. i noe i m finding excuses.. i noe i m wrong... hai...ppl always tot i m always sooo cheerful.. OH MAN.. u r wrong.. when i m DOWN.. tt means i m REALLY DOWN... so... ya... end!
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Aaron's Bday Celebration In Advance!!!
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON!!!*
happy birthday to my dear di di.. he is turning 17th on the 13th of sept. hehee.. words to di.. muz grow up le ar.. haha.. cannot soo kiddish childish anymore. though u got times where u seems to be mature.. but kinda seldom huh? hahhaaa... anyway.. happy bday n may ur wish come true!
okie.. let see wat happened today.. went sch in the morning.. hmm.. this suppose to be on aaron's bday celebration.. so i shall skip all those lame stupid boring stuff that happened in the morning.. yup... we suppose to meet at 6.30 at orchard mrt.. den in the end.. all end up at the starbucks in paragon.. den i haf to go there all alone!! worst thing is that i m really an direction idiot in orchard lor.. is damn machiam crowded n cmi lor.. so i was like trying to get out of the underpass den so heng(lucky) lor... saw huining n shelia.. den they bring me to paragon.. actually they not gg de.. juz tt i met them den they know abt the ccelebration stuff den go there say happy bday only.. hehee.. after that left me there le.. hong an, peiyun lynnette, aaron n another ger.. dunno her name la.. was there le.. feel soo weird at first la. maybe too long nv see le.. den all one yr younger den me de.. den kinda... extra.. but in the end got beta.
we first were at starbucks slacking, den a while later they gg for food. actually wanna go restaurant. den in the end.. ALOT ppl.. i mean ALOT really ALOT.. den we move on the cathay den they go cartel eat lor.. THE FOOD DAMN EX!!! juz a drink coffee ice with some whipe(dunno how to spell la...) cream on it.. is $4.60 lo.. den di chao gd.. he treat all of us sia!!! charis came at this point of time...hahaa.. got a very nice seat.. SOFA!! nice nice but after sometime quite warm la.. coz the light there very hot de.. den the food waited for damn long.. after that..arif came.. got a banana split only.. haha.... dun think he eat sooo little.. it;s all becoz he ate pizza earlier.. kekee... den they start eating took alot of pics.. after that pei yun n lynette say go toilet.. actually is go buy cake la.. kinda last min but.. we still manage to get all things done k!! hehee.. den they took kinda long... den aaron was soo impatient la.. den almost gone lor... heng we manage to make him stay. den they came back.. got the cake.. sang bday song for him at CARTEL!! somemore is kinda LOUD!! den we are like the AA grp there.. haha.. den we make aaron lick out the tiny thingy that use to poke the candle in de.. den he make it like sooo disgusting lor!! he lick it.. den got a hole on the cake.. den it's.. yuckz!!! hahaa.. den got lots of photos on that.. hahaa...
after that we got a ger working there de to help us take pic... haha.. she is sooo cute!! her voice oso damn sweet!!! hahaa... den after she took we got so much cakes left so we gave some to her! den this fren of hong an they all came (ehz.. dunno his name! hahaa.. sorry boy!) gave him some too!! hehe..he reminds me of alphon. hehee
Next!! we went to take NEOPRINT!!! hehee. CMI lor.. that stupid machine so difficult to take pic de lor.. is like so damn tirin n hot!!! 7 of us squeeze in that tiny winy rm den with that stupid movable machine.. KILLING ME sia.. haha..den so sad.. got one pic is cant see me de.. sobz,.. hahaa... after that all go home le... ya...
went back wth lynette n charis.. really enjoyed today!! so cool! hope to haf more outings next time!! cool!! ZEAL ROX, AARON ROCK, PEI YUN ROX, HONG AN ROX, LYNETTE ROX, CHARIS ROX, ARIF ROX, I ROX.. HAHA.. ALL ROX.. HAHAA... (kk.. getting lame.. hehee)
happy birthday to my dear di di.. he is turning 17th on the 13th of sept. hehee.. words to di.. muz grow up le ar.. haha.. cannot soo kiddish childish anymore. though u got times where u seems to be mature.. but kinda seldom huh? hahhaaa... anyway.. happy bday n may ur wish come true!
okie.. let see wat happened today.. went sch in the morning.. hmm.. this suppose to be on aaron's bday celebration.. so i shall skip all those lame stupid boring stuff that happened in the morning.. yup... we suppose to meet at 6.30 at orchard mrt.. den in the end.. all end up at the starbucks in paragon.. den i haf to go there all alone!! worst thing is that i m really an direction idiot in orchard lor.. is damn machiam crowded n cmi lor.. so i was like trying to get out of the underpass den so heng(lucky) lor... saw huining n shelia.. den they bring me to paragon.. actually they not gg de.. juz tt i met them den they know abt the ccelebration stuff den go there say happy bday only.. hehee.. after that left me there le.. hong an, peiyun lynnette, aaron n another ger.. dunno her name la.. was there le.. feel soo weird at first la. maybe too long nv see le.. den all one yr younger den me de.. den kinda... extra.. but in the end got beta.
we first were at starbucks slacking, den a while later they gg for food. actually wanna go restaurant. den in the end.. ALOT ppl.. i mean ALOT really ALOT.. den we move on the cathay den they go cartel eat lor.. THE FOOD DAMN EX!!! juz a drink coffee ice with some whipe(dunno how to spell la...) cream on it.. is $4.60 lo.. den di chao gd.. he treat all of us sia!!! charis came at this point of time...hahaa.. got a very nice seat.. SOFA!! nice nice but after sometime quite warm la.. coz the light there very hot de.. den the food waited for damn long.. after that..arif came.. got a banana split only.. haha.... dun think he eat sooo little.. it;s all becoz he ate pizza earlier.. kekee... den they start eating took alot of pics.. after that pei yun n lynette say go toilet.. actually is go buy cake la.. kinda last min but.. we still manage to get all things done k!! hehee.. den they took kinda long... den aaron was soo impatient la.. den almost gone lor... heng we manage to make him stay. den they came back.. got the cake.. sang bday song for him at CARTEL!! somemore is kinda LOUD!! den we are like the AA grp there.. haha.. den we make aaron lick out the tiny thingy that use to poke the candle in de.. den he make it like sooo disgusting lor!! he lick it.. den got a hole on the cake.. den it's.. yuckz!!! hahaa.. den got lots of photos on that.. hahaa...
after that we got a ger working there de to help us take pic... haha.. she is sooo cute!! her voice oso damn sweet!!! hahaa... den after she took we got so much cakes left so we gave some to her! den this fren of hong an they all came (ehz.. dunno his name! hahaa.. sorry boy!) gave him some too!! hehe..he reminds me of alphon. hehee
Next!! we went to take NEOPRINT!!! hehee. CMI lor.. that stupid machine so difficult to take pic de lor.. is like so damn tirin n hot!!! 7 of us squeeze in that tiny winy rm den with that stupid movable machine.. KILLING ME sia.. haha..den so sad.. got one pic is cant see me de.. sobz,.. hahaa... after that all go home le... ya...
went back wth lynette n charis.. really enjoyed today!! so cool! hope to haf more outings next time!! cool!! ZEAL ROX, AARON ROCK, PEI YUN ROX, HONG AN ROX, LYNETTE ROX, CHARIS ROX, ARIF ROX, I ROX.. HAHA.. ALL ROX.. HAHAA... (kk.. getting lame.. hehee)
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